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10/14/11

I had an abortion when I was 18 years old and a freshman at the University of Illinois. I had gotten very drunk at a party and had been date-raped over Christmas vacation and was recovering from that experience when I returned for the second semester to find out I was pregnant. All I could think about was the judgment of my Catholic family and the punishment I would get from them if they found out. I had never felt supported by them, and I actually thought they would disown me if I had the baby. I also worried about the opinions of the "preppy" and snobby North shore people from my suburb and the "reputation" I would get if I actually had the baby. I also had no idea how to have a baby while in college and how to continue my studies without dropping out, and so on. I wondered if my father would still pay for my college education if he found out. My guess was that he would not. All of this made me feel like I had "no choice" but to have the abortion. I started going to mass daily to ask God for forgiveness in advance.

My abortion clinic experience was very similar to the examples in this site. It was humiliating, awful, painful, and miserable. What I didn't realize was that this terrible decision would effect my entire life in a terrible way.  It has been 25 years since my abortion and I have never been happy since that day. I never got married and I never had children and it's all because of the abortion. I have been a miserable person inside and even with salvation and faith in Jesus, the pain of the abortion has made me not enjoy life. Ever since, I have wished that I was no longer alive. Depression and a spirit of death have been a part of my life ever since. I've received prayer and ministry and nothing has really helped. It was the worst thing I ever did. If only I had had the strength to follow my own heart and not think about what OTHER people want or think, I would be happy today - and probably have a family of my own. Death is a spirit that enters your body and your life when you get an abortion.

It's interesting that the things we "think" will make us happy really don't. Yes, I got that degree from the University of Illinois. Then, I got a Master's degree and then a Ph.D. and a great paying job at a software company - and own a beautiful home, have a car that's paid for, and so on. It doesn't make me happy. Ever since the abortion, I've woken up every morning dreading another day of life and my first thoughts are always "I wish I wasn't here."  Don't think about what ANYONE ELSE wants when it comes to pregnancy and abortion. Think only what YOU want. And be strong. You are the ONLY one who has to live with the experience and the consequences if you do it.   Don't let the lies about college, jobs, money, parents' opinions, your town's opinions, or anything else allow you to hurt yourself in this way. Take my word for it - once you get the spirit of death in your life, none of this will matter anyway.

 LH

9/26/11

This is my story of my abortion, please do not judge me from what you are about to read.

I was only 15 at the time and I was in a relationship with my now ex-boyfriend for a year and a half,  it wasn�t the best of relationships abusive toward me. But when things changed and got good stupidly we spoke about children and saying we both want children one day, and I suggested we should try and we did at first I couldn�t get pregnant and this slightly worried me because I thought I can�t have children, but suddenly finding out I was I didn�t know what to say I was over the moon, but didn�t know what to tell my family.  I knew shame would be brought on my family, but I was only thinking of the family me and my boyfriend was going to start until that day we sat under the bridge and he said he wanted me to have an abortion, I was stunned didn�t know what to say. My world came crashing down  telling me he didn�t want anyone to know, but soon as I got back to school everybody seemed to have found out. But I didn�t care, I just thought my boyfriend has shoved a knife in my chest. But I didn�t want to disappoint him and did I was told, he wasn�t extremely nice towards me, I told my dad and sister and her partner and it was so hard seeing their faces with disappointment, I just cried and held on to my stomach thinking this is my baby not theirs. Going to the doctors and I felt so small sitting in that chair saying I want an abortion but I didn�t really being made by my boyfriend the doctor told me to take the pill and it would slowly slow the baby down and it wouldn�t grow or anything. I tried to be big and not cry but hearing that my baby wouldn�t move or grow killed me. I had to go to the hospital seeing older woman than me sit and wait to be looked at parents looking at me with disgrace, I felt sick I knew I couldn�t back out of doing this why I would have a unborn baby inside my stomach, I sat in the chair and the doctor wanted to check to see how far I was 2 months and 3weeks gone, I knew I shouldn�t have looked at the scan but I was so stupid seeing a little foetus I burst into tears. My sister standing next me holding my hand telling me it will ok but it wasn�t I was dying inside! The following week I had to go in to have the abortion going in a room and having to change a nightdress they gave me the nurse giving me tablets within an hour I was screaming I didn�t want this. My dad and sister standing there didn�t know what to do. I could see my sister crying seeing me in pain. I couldn�t stop screaming and crying I was in so much pain it was unreal I was asking myself why the heck I was doing this. And my boyfriend reminding me I was doing it because of him he made me. I may have been 15 but I was so grown up for my age.  I am now 18, and I am still living the pain, every night I go to sleep I think of it every minute of every day doesn�t go past were I think what on earth have I done I killed my baby. People tell me I�ve done right because I was 15 but it wasn�t my choice to have the termination. I wish I never did this.

 Please don�t judge me because of my age.

Chloe
England, Derby

9/12/11

I was 14 years old when I got pregnant, the father didn't want to be in our babies life

and left me. My mother told me I could choose what to do what I wanted with my child and so I chose that I couldn't handle being pregnant one day, and knowing I killed a baby the next. My mom spoke to one of her friends who told her I wouldn't take care of my child, so my mom tried to force me into getting an abortion. We went to the abortion clinic, the room was absolutely filled. What I thought was a lot of chairs for people to sit, apparently wasn't enough.. There were people standing all over the room because there was no room for everyone to sit. I got called back to have an ultrasound, I'm fourteen, scared and feeling alone. At first the nurse wasn't letting me view the ultrasound until I asked her, she showed me and I thought how adorable it was. So I asked for a picture, once I got out of the room I went straight to the bathroom, sat, and stared at the picture of my alive baby who was about to be killed.

I sat in there for probably twenty minutes, as soon as I came out my name was called to go back to speak to the counselor. When I was looking at the picture of my unborn baby I realized in my head that I knew it was a girl, and that it was wrong of me to even be in such a place. I knew it was completely against everything I grew up knowing, meaning about God and sins. I told the lady I didn't want to go through with it and talked to my mom, and balled my eyes out for even thinking that was happening. We went home and I carried on to 41 weeks pregnant, I delivered my daughter exactly 14 days, two weeks, after my fifteenth birthday. Keeping my daughter and not going through with the abortion is the best decision I've ever made in my life.

If you truly love someone like I love my daughter, its possible to change your life around for that person and  to grow up so quickly to take care of such a beautiful thing. When I first saw my daughter I was thinking how I almost wasn't in the position that I was in, how I almost killed such a beautiful little girl. I knew from the moment I got that ultrasound that I'd love her like no other, that I'd do anything for her, and I knew she would be a little girl. Her father and his family are now in her life, she has the best life possible and she is so smart.  She just turned two last Thursday. She's been tested for how smart her brain is, and she talks as much as a three year old, she was tested that her brain works exactly like a four year old and that she can do everything that a four year old can. She is extremely tall, with big curly hair, and big blue eyes (mine are dark brown).

She is amazing in every way, and I'd always recommend to someone that no matter how old you are, no matter how difficult the situation is, you can always make things possible if you put your mind to it. I was fourteen and pregnant, stopped having friends all but two, and gained much better friends than I did before I ever got pregnant. I've grown up and learned so much. I even breastfed my daughter, at fifteen years old, raised such an intelligent little girl and I'm only seventeen now I just turned it.  

Think before you do something you can never reverse, you can have so many kids but who knows who that little baby would of been, how much you would of and could of loved it, and what you could of changed for it. 

Katrina~

7/13/11

Nine years ago yesterday, I had an abortion that changed my world forever. Afterwards, I wanted to know all that I could, all that Planned Parenthood did not tell me. Your site was the first site I viewed and it became a launching pad for nearly a decade now of pro life studies and volunteerism. My entire life is dedicate to the pro life cause and I want to thank you for starting it all.

God Bless You,

Jocelyn F.

5/16/11

 I had an abortion on March 10 2010 at 10:45 am. I had made some bad choices wich ended up with me being pregnant. Back then I was 18 years old and had moved away from my parents. When I found out I was pregnant I felt scared. Scared because I felt alone and didn't know what I was going to do. Scared of what my mother would think of me. 

Alot of things went through my mind. I started thinking of how my future would be with the baby how it would be without it. Maybe if I had someone there for me I wouldve thought twice about it and I wouldve kept the baby. But truth is I was alone. I remember telling my friend and cousin about it. My friend agreed on taking me to the clinic and my cousin wasn't ver supportive. She understood my situation but couldn't imagine me doing such horrible thing. The night before the abortion I kept having nightmares I couldn't sleep. Then at morning as I was getting ready to go to the clinic I started feeling more and more afraid. As we arrive at the clinic, my friend did whatever she could to keep me from thinking about the abortion. 

Unfortunately she couldn't go in the room with me.

As I went in the room, the nurse was explaining to me the procedures that will be done for the abortion she took an ultrasound and told me I was 8 1/2 wks old. She then took me to the room nd had me undress my lower body and told me to wait for the doctor.

This is where it all starts. while he starts doing the abortion he looks at the fetus and says " there's the little guy" and starts vacuuming it out. Since that day on I kept having nightmares every night.

Till this day it haunts me that i was capable of doing this. There's not a single day I go wihout thinking of that day. I sit alone wondering how old my child wouldve been if ha I kept it. I too torture myself by looking at pictures of babies who have been aborted. I don't think I'll ever forgive myself for that. I consider myself as a horrible person and I hate myself. I would not be going through this if had I been responsible and had delt with my mistakes differently. I think what bothers me the moat was that I ended a life because I didn't want to be judge and was to coward to face the world. I was scared of having a baby on my own. Now the only thing I can do is remember that day and pray to god that he will forgive me.

Anon 

18 May 2011

 In Response to 5/16 Anon,  

I could not help being touched by your story.

You, as a young person have a lot of experience and a lot of things to offer someone else, going through the same kind of things. 

I want you to know that God loves you, and understands your situation, more than you will ever know. I hope and pray that you find a Church Family that will nurture you, to the point, that you will be able to help others. Many do not have a support net-work, and it would help you to find one. I understand that many talk of the love of God, and do little or nothing to show it--as if the subject were a mere academic exercise. I know of this, only too well. There are those that not only know, but do exercise the love of God. Find them, and do not be discouraged if these types are hard to find--as it took me a while to find visible expressions of God's love--as His love is expressed in loving Human Hands. God is the Creator and Giver of Life, and God is also the God of Love. And He Loves You.

It may help the healing process, if you were to keep a journal of the things you have experienced, as your situation, like all others is unique to you, but is similar to others.  I know it must be hard to reduce the pain in your heart to print, but there are many that read the Posts on this site, are helped, encouraged and will pray for the writers.  Anon, You are such a writer that is in my heart and mind, and I will take your story to my support net-work. We will pray for You, Anon.  

You never are alone, when God is with You, in Your heart, and there is no fear, in the love of God.  

Though I do not know Your Name, He does.   

God Bless You,

Roger,
Disabled Vet.

5/16/11

AbortionTV Editors,

It has been a while since I have written something to post, for I wanted to think on the matter, and pray, for I might, through writing, be able to save lives, and lead some to the Life-Giver, the Creator God. 

As a disabled Vet,. I have went through physical set backs, due to Service Connected issues, and have not written in a while.  I thank God for your site, and hope you will O.K. my letter, dated 5/14/11.

I would suppose, next to the Salvation of a soul, the saving of a life inside or out side the womb, has to be near to the heart of the Creator God.

A while ago, a godly woman adopted a bi-racial baby, despite being born of addicted parents, despite the physical problems, she loved me, and has gone on to be with The Lord. She loved Children, and there was hardly a decade (or pictures for that matter), that she did not have a child in her hands. I would like to think that I am continuing on her godly example.

Under the exact same circumstances, I am certain that I would have been aborted.  

Thank God for the mission of your site, and, when I am able to gain employment--as it is hard for a disabled person, near 50. Once employed, I will support this site. 

God Bless You. 

Roger A. Walker

Thanks Roger!  We appreciate your continued support.
AbortionTV

Disabled Vet.

14 May 2011 

 Life Family and Culture of Death:  

I have not been to this site in a while, but the influence of information is changing the way people think, and for the better. God is alive and well, even in this Nation.

It still mind boggles me to think the my Nation, with a Birth Certificate that reads "life liberty and the pursuit of happiness," would allow a minority to issue death, re-define life, and, now claim Judgment (i.e., the right to interpret) over Theology! 

Our Laws are Behavioral, and our rationale has been theological, as matters of reason are weighed with Scripture, in once free Churches.  The Pagan Revisionists, the breeders of creeds of death, want separation of Church and State, as they define it, have no problem when the State silences and rules the Church, with threats of the loss of the 501 (C) 3, (fear of the loss of tax exempt status). Cowards, hiding behind Pulpits would not be a desirable position , at the Founding of this Nation, nor during the Civil War.  Righteous Indignation and a bucket of tar and a sack of feathers, for such vile creatures, goes a long way--as thats what would have happened in that era. As it is, Judges have high-jacked Theology, and the IRS--an arm of Congress, determines what is, and is not "free speech".  The First Amendment--"Congress shall pass no law," in matters of Religion and Free Speech, is violated by both Congress, through the IRS and Judges, not authorized to make law.  

The Founders of this Nation, never envisioned such a powerful Judiciary, that claims final arbitorship on what the Constitution means--an act of Treason via Judaical Tyranny. "The Constitution is what we, the Judiciary, not what We The People say it is." If this would have been known at this Nation's Founding, the States would not have signed their there and then Sovereignty away, for the enslavement and bondage of those living out side or inside the womb, with a health care that decides who lives or dies, inside and out side the womb--a curse for future generations. 

Obamacare has built in mechanisms so the Culture of Death, can continue in their Death Dealing Craft--as abortion was just a foot in the door technique, for other forms of death to come. 

When our Birth Certificate talks of the "Supreme Judge of the Universe," it talks not of people of dust, with feet of clay (mere Lawyers in Black Robes)--but Almighty God.  In the end, God will have His way, but here and now, We The People have a responsibility--and our example is not a godly example for our brothers and sisters over seas, that love their Country and Life, as much as we, in the States, do. 

Satanic Abortion plus an Un-Constitutional Judiciary--and a President that voted against the Born Alive Act, as a Senator--and we ask God to bless America, and even have a song by that title, that all, no matter their stance on Abortion, knows. 

There are scholarly books on the Nazi Rationale, especially in areas of Eugenics, the biological rationale for a Superior Race, and Elimination of the inferior, or unwanted Races, to include disabled, retarded, deformed--allowing the re-definition of life.  There is a German phrase of the Nazi era, that translates into English, "Life Unworthy of Life."  Either in Nazi Era German or English, "Life Unworthy Of Life," a great Abortion National Motto. A red Nazi Iron Cross could be their back-drop symbol--Hitler would smile and dance a happy jig, were he alive. I can just see it now!  What a proud symbol to represent the deaths of over 50 million, in the name of Rights! Compare our deaths with the godless 100 million deaths, chronicaled in The Black Book Of Communism--One Nation, under God, is catching up! 

When I used to make the connection between Nazi Rationale and Abortion, I received negative feed back. Since, I have read even further on the matter, and I will not exchange written or oral communicating, without making the connection between Nazi Era re-definition of life, and our Abortion Holocaust re-definition of life--as it is not in the best interest of either truth or logic to do so, for Stupidity within history, tends to repeat its self.

Again, our Nation's Birth Certificate holds that "All men are created equal," as it took a while for the "all" to catch up with the biblical definition of all, for The WORD holds "All" are "one blood," (Acts 17:26, New Testament). Blacks, Women and even Indians (to include Half-Breeds like me) are Constitutionally defined as Persons of protection, under the Constitution--and a step backwards, in 1973, Roe Vs. Wade.  When this Nation will catch up, with Dr. Luke, M.D. in the New Testament, and his medical term for unborn and born, (Greek brephos--lit. "air breather") I do not know. For the High Crime of Abortion, and like High Crimes against God and Man, He may allow us to take a dirt nap, like all Nations that forgot God, that have went the way of Cain. Time will tell. Meanwhile, some in this Nation have babies to slaughter. 

We are not only our brother's keeper, we are our brother's brother, to include the unborn. 

We are, without doubt, a Culture Of Death, worried of Economics--the letter of the law, while we avoid the weightier matters of the law, The Spirit of the law,  MATTERS OF LIFE!  "The love of money," so says The Master, not money, "is the root of all evil"--and Abortionist love the economic residual of the Industry--no responsibility for any--big bucks for the Culture of Death--Aborted Motherhood and Death Dealers, chaaaaaaaaaaa Ching! With Obamacare, the all Tax Payers support the Culture of Death, one big happy bloody family! One Nation Under Abortion. 

Until then, God, along with the entire Globe will have to endure American Hypocrisy, in our continuation of the Nazi Holocaust--while we sing, "God bless America" and trample on the plain meaning of Scripture Text, our Declaration of Independence, and the God-given rights of the unborn.

Roger A. Walker
Disabled Veteran

4/28/11

Hi. I realize that on this site there are many personal testimonies to read but I'm hoping mine will be one of them. When I was 20 years old, I found out that I was 4 weeks pregnant. I was shocked and surprised, as for some reason I never believed I could get pregnant. The father wanted me to have the baby and he asked me to marry him. He even bought an engagement ring and wedding bands for both of us. I turned him down and told him about how fearful I was of having a baby at that time in my life. He was trying too see the positive aspects of me having the child and since he was 8 years older than I, he was in a much better position to become a parent, except for the fact that we weren't married. There were times when he would lay his head on my stomach and talk to the baby as he cried. One time as he did this he said, "I'm fighting for your life, I'm trying my best to save you."
       At 5 1/2 weeks along, I had an ultrasound and saw my child's heart beating. I was touched by it but at the same time I was frightened by the reminder that the whole situation was really real. I was so afraid of having a baby this young and all I could think about was how fat I would get and how it would ruin my life. It was all about ME ME ME and how I felt.
       Soon I was 10 weeks along and was having a hard time on the decision as to whether or not to have the abortion. I was on an emotional roller coaster, to say the least. One relative bought me maternity clothes...other relatives told me that having an abortion was best and all their negative comments about me having the child reinforced my fears. I made an appointment with another OB/GYN to discuss the possibility of abortion. On the day of the appointment, I heard my baby's heart beat and the doctor told me that I was a little over 10 weeks along. She said that if I was going to abort, I should do it within a couple of days because the baby was pretty much formed, (including the major organs) and that it just needed to get bigger.
       On the rainy, gloomy day of January 16, 1996, a relative drove me to a clinic for an abortion. In the car on the way there, part of me was hoping that we would get in a wreck because of the weather and that I would miss the appointment as a result. We arrived at the clinic and I cried hysterically as my relative went to the counter to check me in. During this time I noticed a big bellied pregnant woman announcing to someone that she was having twins and talking about how excited she was. This made me cry even harder. My relative came over to me and said, "What's wrong? I know it isn't easy but this is the most caring and responsible decision you can make." She previously had 2 abortions and told me it was "best" for her and the child. To me, for someone to think that killing a child is a "best" and "caring" action is sick.
       Soon I was lead into a pre-surgery room and was asked to remove my clothing and put on a gown. As the nurses wheeled me down the hall towards the surgery room, I remember thinking, "My baby's heart is beating at this very moment and in a few minutes it will stop." Part of me wanted to jump up onto my feet and scream, stating that I wasn't going to let them kill my child. Yet another part of me thought illogically, "Everything is already paid for, so I can't back out now. My relative probably won't be able to get a refund and she will be angry at me after all this trouble." As I was wheeled into the surgery room, I remember soft cheerful music playing...by the sound of it, one would never guess that an innocent child was about to be murdered in that very room. The nurses quickly put my legs up in stirrups and they asked me if I wanted to be awake or asleep during the procedure. As I looked around the room, I noticed a table with many unfamiliar items on it, but one thing I did recognize was a long coiled see through tube, which I knew my dismembered child would be sucked through. I panicked as I said, "I don't want to see anything. Put me out." The next thing I knew I was in the recovery room. My first feeling was a sense of relief but then a feeling of darkness replaced it when I was hit by the reality that my child was gone forever.
       I'm 35 years old now and my child would have been 14 years old. Every time I see a child of this age, it kills me inside. I watch other mothers plan their teenager's birthdays, etc, and I can't help but wonder what my child would have been like or looked like. Nobody will ever know how my child could have touched their lives, nor will we ever get to see how my child would have contributed to this world. I will never be able to look into my child's eyes; my child will never be able to call me "mom." My child will never be able to play like living kids can. My child wasn't given the chance. The only proof of my child that I have is the ultrasound picture and the memory of being pregnant, rather than his/her existence here on this earth. I still have the maternity clothes and every time I see them, sadness fills me because I never needed to wear them. All I can do is pray that I'll meet my child one day in heaven. I will beg and plead for others not to abort their children. NO MATTER WHAT THE SITUATION, IT'S NOT THE CHILD'S FAULT; AN INNOCENT CHILD SHOULD NEVER HAVE TO DIE BECAUSE OF IT. Abortion is murder in the womb, despite the fact that people and doctors will try to change the words to make it seem like any "medical" procedure, while attempting to make it seem less harsh and cruel than it really is. I realize having a child too young can be a hardship but at the same time, it can be rewarding in a way that people can't comprehend until they have their baby with them to grow and spend time with. So many out there would do anything to adopt, and there are so many adopted children out there who are thankful their biological mother chose life for them and allowed a family who couldn't conceive to raise a beautiful child as their own.
       I hope that this letter will help save your unborn child. Thanks for taking the time to read this and please...don't let your unborn child be just a memory. To my child: I love you very much and you will be a part of my life forever.
THANK GOD FOR THIS WEBSITE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
---If you would like support or have any questions, feel free to email me at:

3/21/11

Dear Abortion TV,

I really appreciate your collection of resources on the abortiontv.com website, http://www.abortiontv.com/Archive/Archive196.htm.

I started compiling some of my favorite resources for Christians after I was assigned a research project on that topic. From that research, I ended up publishing a great article here: http://www.onlinecollegedegrees.net/theology. I also came across your site and thought I might pass this link on to you as a thank you for you wonderful resources.

I know this article would be a great addition to your information, and I'm sure that it could help many of your users. Let me know what you think!

Best Wishes,

Candice Vaughn

2/21/11

Greetings again, it's been a long time,
I am not yelling, but I am opinionated,

While I'm sitting playing on my computer, I'm overhearing some stupid Lifetime movie my wife has on right now about some guy on death row for killing a little girl. The murderor had asked the parents of the little girl he killed if they could raise his own little girl because he did not want her to go to foster care and get lost in the system of cruelty called DYFS.
Strangely, my ears perked up.
What a situation ! Think about it. To have a little girl in your house that is the daughter of the guy who murdered your own little girl 2 years ago. What would you think ?  Could you look past the hatred for the murdering bastard who is on death row and love his little girl, welcome her in to your family and treat her as part of it with all the love you had had for your own little girl ?
Most people don't get to experience this sort of pain and sorrow. But others, like the mothers of children that they themselves had killed in  their womb, have.
Each time you look at "his" little girl would you think of "your" little girl who is now dead ? 
Would you treat "his" little girl as if she were yours and yours alone and shower her with all the love you have ?  Would you know the innocense of that little girl and how she had nothing at all to do with the evil of the past ?
What would  you  do ?
If all the hippies of the 60's generation whom some are now in positions of power within the government would understand how one little innocent child could cause such a fervor in the emotions of millions of people who don't know how to love, maybe they could change the world. For love this time. Not for selfessness and hate.
Bring it on Sanger clones. See what you hath wrought for your ideas of hate and destruction. You have killed 50 million of us but there are 70 times 70 million of others who will be true to the truth. Your time has come.

Joe

 1/19/11

Hello, im Nihlene McCutchen and i am 13 years old. I am not pregnant,but, I wanted to know why are you aborting? What's the point of ending one's life? Abortion touches me because I could have aborted, YOU could have been aborted. It's not right and you know it. If you can live out the day knowing that you just killed an innocent baby, you are sick and wrong. You have got me crying right now. seriously. You take off their heads, arms,legs,feet,nails, stomaches, and necks and not caring if you are still doing it. You have to stop. Don't kill others, save them instead.  Please, just for the world.

Anon

1/17/11

This is my personal experience with the deceptions of the abortion industry!
 
Surrounding the Healthcare Bill debates and such I've seen a lot of people, including some professing Christians, express their support for the bill based on abortion being "necessary in cases of rape and incest". Since then, with my personal experience as well as being one who is that exception, I've stood up to speak out and let those who view the equally valuable lives of rape/incest babies as "exceptions" allowing a need for abortion therefore deeming it as acceptable know that no matter how a baby is conceived, they are just as human as anyone and deserve equal rights.
 
I know the subject of rape is a sensitive and touchy one especially in those cases where abortion is added to the equation. I am one who can relate to that, not only from being sexually abused growing up but from being raped and putting my fears and anxieties before the life that God planted inside of me and believing that abortion would cure it all.
 
Abortion is a "choice" that results in a dead child and a wounded mother.
 
I know about that well.
 
As a teen who became pregnant before marriage and having been raised in church, I had a partial birth abortion in 2003 which I vividly recall. I did it knowing abortion is wrong and being raped by a bi-sexual with STD's is really NO excuse. The rape occurred in a setting I was led to believe was safe, but when I learned the truth about who attacked me, I freaked out and couldn't handle it. In my state of mind at the time, I knew nothing else to do but abortion though I was too far along for a legal viability abortion, partial birth abortion was the route I "chose" I waited until I was able to get away from the location I was at the time I conceived to schedule the abortion appointment.
 
The day of death for my daughter, Esther Nicole, was May 8, 2003. I was 23-24 weeks along and shaking through the entire horrific agony, not wanting to go through with it, but in my mind, even knowing about the adoption options, I had nowhere else to turn but to allow a college medical resident unsupervised to perform the most disgusting and unforgivable yuck of a "medical" procedure on me. He didn't even do it correctly and it caused me severe problems. Late term abortions normally last a few days though mine was crammed into just one. When I went into where it was actually carried out, they called me to the back, sat me in a cold room, took my vitals and did an ultrasound which I was not allowed to view.
 
The "caring" professionals were far from being sincerely concerned about my wellbeing. Before I knew it, my time of torture was to begin. They called me to the room where the exam table was with the stirrups. It was a cold sense to me, and the stench was unbearable to the senses. The killer came in and proceeded with no emotion in carrying out the abortion.
 
I had feeling to the point I screamed a few times and was abruptly told to be quiet that my noise was jeopardizing business but I didn't care being that the last time I screamed was when after the killer was supposed to be carrying out the final step of what is said to be a routine procedure though at that point, Esther's nerves were still functioning so he thought she was still alive, he then dismembered her. I couldn't bear to look at my baby when the man was done murdering brutally the life God put inside me (though under horrible circumstances) As a direct result of the "surgical operation" that was suppose to "cure" my problem, I am sterile (unable to have kids on my own) and have a messed up uterus.
 
I cried for days when it was over, tried to block it out of my mind, and went thru an emotional roller coaster that I can't put into words that the abortion people didn't warn me would happen that go along with the affects of having an abortion. They actually refuse to inform women seeking their services of the truth and dangers that abortion kills babies, and also can hurt and kill the mother. Abortion doesn't "cure" any conflicts, "solve" any problems... it simply creates more problems and is quite damaging versus the "healthy" propaganda it's deceptively sold as to those who are vulnerable! It doesn't help anything or anyone.
 
It wasn't until a night in July of 2009, over 6 years after I imposed death on the gift given to me, that I was able to realize that in spite of what I did... God still loves me and already forgave me so I was able to go through the process of forgiving myself and accepting God's love for me like never before! As one who conceived in rape and aborted as a result, I am a living witness to let the world know that no matter how a baby is conceived... they are still humans who deserve equal rights. Being conceived in rape doesn't change or lessen the value of life! Babies conceived in rape are inspirations to the sanctity of human life and are voices that need to be heard as much as any other Pro-Life advocates! Life begins at conception and being a basic human right, it should be protected even in the womb!
 
I recently testified on a bill in the Louisiana Senate that passed without a rape/incest exception as a result of my testimony so now abortion minded rape victims in Louisiana will be spared the pain I've had to endure.
 
Back on  October 9, 2010 I visited a place that is now a National Memorial to the Unborn which was once an infamous abortion facility located in Baton Rouge, LA. This building is the very location where back during the summer of 1992 at the age of 8 years old I took my first stand to protect the lives of the unborn during a week long prayer vigil which was years before I learned about my arrival into the world being at the same type of location. In the midst of pushing a stroller filled with ice packs up and down the street blocked off in front of the abortion facility passing them out to people on both sides, I noticed an older Camry approaching the clinic driveway with people holding blue and white "Keep Abortion Legal" signs on the windows. Unaware that I wasn't allowed to step on it, I stepped on the driveway close to the drivers side and after asking the lady to not kill her baby, I was brought to the ground by those in higher ranks and finally released after Pro-Life leaders ran to my rescue.
 
The building I described is the very place where the clinic I entered on the life altering day of May 8, 2003 was forced to move from though they kept the same name inspite of the location change. That day is when as a result of conceiving a child in a brutal rape situation, I was pretty much forced to follow through with what I thought to be the most unforgivable sin in the book, the murder of an innocent child before given the chance to take a breath outside the womb. By 2003 having known the horrific act I survived, I was certain that having an abortion myself would stamp my one way ticket to hell with no refund available. I experienced a variety of physical, emotional and other consequences as a result of that day... some which I grew to believe were irreparable and incurable. One of those was my value and dignity for starters.
 
While visiting the memorial for the unborn on October 9, 2010... I went through the 3 rooms where babies lives were ended and the lives of their parents forever changed which though I'd been there before it was a bit more real to me this time. I prayed as I walked through them as well as the rest of the building. After leaving I began to have the "how could I ever do this" thoughts and feelings which I'm asked often mostly by those who lack compassion and fail to realize no one is perfect but Christ. I got frustrated with myself and God thinking about it but that night by divine appointment with destiny, God revealed to me once again in a very clear and unrehearsed manner that in spite of that horrible day, His love for me has NEVER changed and my value in His eyes NEVER diminished as I was left to feel by the self-condemnation I beat myself with silently for so long.
 
I got on Facebook and saw someone posting links to a service they were having in a style that I wasn't raised in so out of curiosity and skepticism, I decided to watch it in spite of other stuff I could've been doing. Once again, Jesus hooked me like a fish and I couldn't resist the bait. The praise and worship service at the very beginning consisted of a few songs that stood out to me. One was sang nightly during the rallies in 1992 and the other in 1993 or 1994 at a crusade when a miracle happened with mobility in my right hand. The service continued and out of no where, the pastor went by a young child and started asking how old she was and saying how the devil didn't want her here but in the womb God turned it around.
 
That was the most clear sign from God I could've ever asked for because the young gal was the same age the baby I aborted would've been this year when a state law was changed as a result of testimony about my abortion experience and she also looked like me for the most part when I was her age. I could also relate to the devil not wanting her here and trying to end it in the womb because of my background. I immediately contacted the pastor and explained it all to him which I was a bit nervous about what his reaction to me would be considering things I've been through from non-Catholic clergy. To my shock, he was quite receptive and humbled by me writing him and there was not an ounce of being judgmental to me or anything which was a relief.
 
One thing led to another and we worked stuff out for me to be able to go there and also meet the young gal God used to transform my life.
 
My journey to Georgia began by saving a baby minutes from death on October 23, 2010 waiting for my bus to Marietta when I ran into a gal who is 20 weeks pregnant at the bus station in Atlanta that came from Jax. After hearing me talk to another gal I met from New Orleans, she burst into tears so I asked if she was ok and she said she came here to get an abortion but after hearing me she just couldn't do it and turned around to head back home. I will NEVER complain about unexpected interruptions and layovers again. I then met Bishop David R Huskins and the 6 yr old God used to totally transform my life in a way even I thought was impossible. I also experienced a few unexpected miracles that Saturday night which are turning heads.
 
At the service that night, as Bishop was telling everyone about that night... Abagaile walked down the aisle to me and that moment was God saying to me that my restoration was complete and WOW. After that moment of God using that child once again to bring healing to me, my wholeness manifested not only with that but in my physical body as well which left me speechLESS and at a lost for words in awe of Jesus.

8/16/10

Blah blah blah, and then there are those women who actually feel their Abortion was the right decision. The end !

I use to come to your nonsense site when I was 16 to laugh at the content back in High School. I know now its pointless to bring any logic into this site so I wont try, but im 22 now, and I'll leave you with this: Abortion is legal, women have rights over their bodies, you people can moan about it all you want. Won't do a thing but brainwash ignorant people.

Good Day

-S

7/28/10

Ladies, I want to share my story with those of you who have gone through the traumatic experience of abortion, i also want to reach out to those of you who may be considering going through with this life regretting decision, or at least help you to some extent.
I am, today, a 40 year old woman with a decent job and two beautiful children God has blessed me with.
When I was 19, I was in the military, making big decisions, living on my own and was very well taken care of by my (military) family.  I was dating two different guys, nothing serious, just having fun and not thinking of true responsibility.  I found out I was pregnant, my life seemed to stop! How could i be so irresponsible to do this? the only thing that went through my mind was a carbon of how my life was growing up.  I could never have a child who didnt have a father around. Believe me, i knew neither of these guys would never be around, i saw my biological father skip out on us.  I told the one guy, and was honest. I let him know i was with someone else and there is a 50/50 chance. he actually understood but would you believe he got down on his knee and asked me to marry him.  i told him no.  it wasnt fair to him, or any innocent child. 
I was so determined to not ruin another childs life that when i found out i was pregnant, the nurse in the dispensary asked me what my decision was that day. if i was going to have the baby or abort.  i had to make a decision that day. i decided on abortion.
i told the guy who asked me to marry him my decision, he was against my decision but said he would be there for me. i pushed him away, i already started my self destruction when i found out.  I never told the other possible guy.
When I went into the clinic, I was so sick, like the baby was telling me no no no no no!! i kept throwing up, i had to be pushed back two times because of my sickness. I was 4-6 weeks along and was told it was just material not a fetus yet.  I did not know what i was going to go through or what the procedure was until i got on that table. The nurse got me on the table as quick as she could, the doctor came in and quickly went over the procedure. I, of course, did not understand and wanted to know more but they told me to lay back before i get sick again, turned on the vacuum and inserted the tube.  i kept my head to the side and cried. i cried the whole time, i cried my way into the recovery room. i did something so very wrong i could not take back nor ever be forgiven for. How could God forgive me for such a sinful and selfish act?
Almost a year later, i met and married a man. I found out i was pregnant again and was so excited to have my opportunity back for what i did a year earlier. To our dismay, I carried my daughter for 39 weeks and delivered her asleep. I became extremely depressed and questioned God why He had taken my precious daughter from me.
It took me 9 years to even think of having any more children, but i lived with the guilt and shame of my abortion for 18 years until I got saved. 
i would like to start off before us women have sex, deeply consider the consequences and other possibilities.  some women are not built to be nurturing and motherly, please consider what the act consists of.  If you do not want to become pregnant, please use protection, or no sex at all.
i pray for all those little souls with our Father and will one day see my son.  I pray he forgives me and will fall at his feet when i do get to meet him.  I also pray for the souls Father has given and are not wanted.  I pray for you, women, please consider other options before you make a self destructive or shameful act.
Thank you so much 

7/26/10

Hi. I am so glad that I found your website and like many others, who has had abortions, I wish I had found this website before I had mine. In 2007, at the age of 25, I found out I was pregnant the Tuesday after memorial day, I was completely in shock; but in a good way, as I was told as a teenager that I would possibly not be able to conceive. I had already knew what my boyfriend would say and what my grandparents would say (being of the white race and having an African-American mixed baby, it would be a disgrace and I would be disowned.) I waited a couple of days to tell my boyfriend and when I did the first words out of his mouth were, "YOU HAVE TO HAVE AN ABORTION." I fought with him for days and days; however he wasn't backing down. It was either do it or we wouldn't be together anymore. His way of justifying it was "it was an accident and wasn't planned!" Finally, I told my mom, she was fine with it and asked me what he said, I told her he wanted me to have an abortion. My mom wasn't trying to talk me into an abortion nor was she trying to talk me out of it. I tried to explain to him that I was a catholic and was pro-life and it wasn't right because it kills children. Unfortunately, I chose him over my unborn, precious child. I kept telling my boyfriend that this child was a gift from God and that we shouldn't be unappreciative and give it back. He didn't want to hear it. I cried myself to sleep and I kept rubbing my tummy and telling my poor baby that I was sorry. I asked God for forgiveness. I was an emotional wreck, not that being pregnant wasn't already emotionally and physically draining enough, I kept fighting.

Finally, I was tired of fighting so I went to the clinic. The waiting room, with about 10 other girls, stayed eerily quiet. I was called in by the nurse and I as I laid on that table I prayed the rosary. The doctor came in and he gave me a shot and I nearly said that I changed my mind and didn't want to do that, when my body just fell numb. It was done and I stayed with my boyfriend.

About three months later I slumped into deep, deep depression. I couldn't look at children. I didn't want to be around my friends. I cried every day at any thought of "it". I denied invites to baby showers, weddings and any joyous occasions. My boyfriend wanted to know what I was acting so depressed. I tried to explain it to him; however he just continued to justify the situation as an accident and that some day I would have another baby.

In March of 2008, 9 months to the day after my abortion I found out I was pregnant again. My birth control had failed. HOW? I didn't even miss a pill. I knew it had to be "meant to be," because things like that just don't happen by accident.  By now I was tired of fighting and completely emotionally drained. I told my boyfriend and I got the same answer as I did with the first one, except this time, he punched a hole in the wall.  I didn't fight. I told him you want the abortion, you pay for the whole thing and he did, all $450 of it. I reacted the same way as before.

It's now 2010, none of my pain has gone away. The depression is even worse. I mourn the loss of my unborn babies every day. I even found a prayer on a website to pray for my unborn children. I am haunted with the fact that I will never know how my babies would have looked, what gender they would have been or what I would have named them. I regret the decisions I have made and how that decision changed me. I don't look at life the way I used to. I'm not as cheery or as fun to be around as I once was. My smile is just a facade. I'm now bitter and cold. I keep thinking how badly I want my babies back and how I should have just left him and had the first one and how if I did I would never had to have had the second abortion. I have shed so many tears I have nothing left.

Ladies, if you find yourself facing this decision, please don't do it. A child is not an accident it is a gift. DO NOT allow anyone to make your decision for you. It deserves a chance at life, whether it be with you or another loving family. Never have a reason to look back with regret otherwise you will live your life the way many of us women live ours. Always remember, "where is there is faith, there is hope" and things will work out even better than you imagined.

Crystal
Florida

6/3/10

Today I was reading through some of the letters from the YellatUs column.  I came to the website not as a volunteer today but needing some inspiration as to why either keeping your child or giving it up for adoption is the best option.

Some of you have come here for answers.  Maybe to make a better informed decision. 

I know of some people who just left to go overseas to adopt a child recently.  I can't begin to tell you how blessed I am to know these people and have them in my life.  It feels like whom ever reads their blog or talks to them about their adoption journey is on it with them.  Make you feel like your part of their family, even if it's just for the journey.  It's practically just like having a child!!

I'm not trying to convince you to make a decision..............I'm just trying to maybe enlighten you as to how the adoptive parents feel if you were to give your child up for adoption.  Not just the parents but their whole family.  Your child would be so blessed and you could rest assured your child would be in good, loving, supportive hands. 

The love I have for this child that their adopting...............there's not enough words to describe the love we all feel for her. 

Just a thought....................

Have a blessed day,
Ms. Lacey

5/26/10

I learnt recently that http://www.abortiontv.com/ has had some of its pages censored in Australia. As some of the pages (under the tab 'abortion techniques' & 'photographic evidence') on my own http://abortsa.com/ site -- which is hosted overseas, has been given a R18+ classification, I was wondering was there anything that can be done about this?

I have contacted a Federal senator who I hope is sympathetic to the situation, but other than that I am at a loose end in knowing what I can do.

It is amazing that the Australian Government can be allowed to prevent teenagers looking at the facts about abortion, when thousands of them are having abortions each year (and many of these are well under 18 years of age). Surely, teenagers should be able to independently access information on abortion, especially when abortion clinics fail to tell them the full reality.

All the best,

Trevor Grace

Thank you for your letter and concern.  We�ve been aware of this for some time, and have been disappointed that any government would take part in censorship.  It�s truly a shame.

AbortionTV

21 April 2010

Thank you for the education, I am a 47yo man and I use to politically hold a pro-choice position for women, but the reality of abortion and what it really is,- has changed that for me.  I'd say much but won't, suffice to say I beg women and young ladies in particular - to NOT go down the path.

Please ladies, avoid ever being in the situation where you face such a dreadful question, treasure your bodies and accept in your mind that *no man*, that no unprotected activity - is ever worth risking unplanned pregnancy.

I note that this website is filtered (to be) from Australian internet users under this countries developing internet censor.  Australia was once a free country, but some dangerous PC nanny-state types are changing all that, and in regards this adult topic,- will have negative consequences for the unborn and young ladies and women in general in the time ahead.

 That aside, men and teen males in particular, must take full and absolute responsibility for their personal actions; its *not* cool simply to bed a girl and walk away like a gutless worthless coward.  Such males should never-ever suggest 'abortion/termination' or whatever sanitized name you might apply resulting from selfish actions.  If as a man you cannot handle that reality, then keep to your damned self,- till your grow up some more. 

I am not a church going Christian, but nonetheless I am compelled; may these precious unborn human beings so finished, find sweet peace in gods comfort, and may we be forgiven for our deplorable ignorance and arrogance, amen.

Jeremy
Australia

4/15/10

Dear Friends of life:
 
My name is Jim Baltrinic and I am the Director of Saint Cecilia Classical Productions Inc.. Our pro-life singing group, �The Ladies of Cecilia�, has just released their first pro-life single, �Let Me Be Born�, at Amazon.com. Through music and songs that young people can relate to, the goal of this group is to inspire and encourage today�s youth to embrace the Culture of Life, This song accomplishes that goal in a most beautiful way.
 
Can you help us spread the news about this new message of �life�. We are asking as many people as possible to download the song and give it to a young person, girls especially. You can put it on a CD, iPod, etc. It would also make a great teaching tool for Life Teen and other youth group leaders. It could, for example, be used as a follow up to a discussion about abortion. It can be downloaded from Amazon.com for $0.99. You can also order a CD of the song from us. See attached order form.

Also, could you please forward this message to as many of your contacts as possible? If your prayer group or organization has a news letter, could you insert the attached notice in it? 

�Let Me Be Born� was written to help educate today�s youth about the evils of abortion and to refute some of the more common misleading pro-choice slogans: �it�s my body�; �it�s my choice�; �it�s just a blob of tissue, not a baby", etc. It clearly states the Church�s teaching about the evils of abortion, and positively shows that there is new life in the womb, a life that is a child, not a "choice", a child who wants to live, love and be loved in return. 
 
The song is basically about an imaginary conversation between a little baby in the womb, and it�s mother. The baby overhears it�s mother talking about having an abortion and decides it�s time for a serious �mommy-baby� talk. As the song progresses, we see that the baby is really talking to all of us: asking us to pray for an end to this scourge on our nation; asking us to proclaim, to all young people, the truth about abortion. The baby in this song represents all babies whose �mommy�s� may be considering an abortion; it is speaking for all those unborn children who are unable to say: "mommy, I want to live�.  

See:http://www.amazon.com/Let-Me-Be-Born/dp/B003AXIWAE/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1268602231&sr=1-1 

The website for �The Ladies of Cecilia�, is: www.theladiesofcecilia.com 

1/30/09

Hi,

 I don't care what you all think. I care what God thinks. Now without preaching a sermon, there's heaps of Scriptures about sacrificing people (including little unborn babies) to Molech. And if you don't think babies are included, have a good look at the Bible for yourselves with the help of someone else if necessary. But don't go carrying on about this and that but then sitting back and saying you'll do nothing about it! It isn't gonna work with me I'm afraid.

My Mum wanted to abort me for family reasons but cancelled. She's lucky she did, and she's lucky I'm Christian, because the wall between me and the intention of killing her is Jesus. Yes, I still think I could kill my mother, but I know it's as bad as aborting babies, so I immediately give that evil thought to Christ. I'm not perfect, but anyone who thinks it's perfectly all right to kill are less perfect than an ant! The fact that they don't even care how others feel until it's too late proves to me how selfish they are and they're worse than selfish pigs, excuse the pun there. I will appologise for the sake of repentent people out there, but I'm not appologetic for the unrepentent abortionists and I don't care how you feel when you read this. All I care is, that you reading this might make you wake up to yourselves just enough to realise where your life has gone crooked.

I'd like to thank Abortion TV for letting me voice myself! If it wasn't for you I'd still have this opinion bottled up inside me, because I've found that you who run this site, and the Lord Jesus Christ are the only ones who truly understand how I feel on this subject. So thank you once again.

Anonomous

11-14-09

Good morning!

I've been looking for websites to post information about our post-abortion support program.  We're located in the western suburbs of Chicago and offer Bible studies (group or individual) for women as well as men.

Many of our study leaders are post-abortive themselves and have found healing and forgiveness through this study.

If you'd like more information you can contact me at Restore@carenetdupage.com.  We have a temporary website - the new and improved should be up by the end of the week!  The web address is:

Restoreafterabortion.com

 Thanks and God bless your work!

Jean Mulder

      Restore

  After Abortion

CareNet Services of DuPag

Thanks for contacting us.  We just added your information to our page, "If You've Had an Abortion."

AbortionTV

11/9/09

My name is Melissa, and I am the survivor of a saline infusion abortion attempt.  When my 19 year old, biological mother entered the hospital for the abortion attempt, she estimated herself to be 18 to

22 weeks pregnant.  Medial review of my birth records indicate that she was likely closer to 24 to 28 weeks pregnant. 

Over the course of a five day period, I endured the deliverance of this toxic salt solution into the amniotic fluid around me, while numerous rounds of Pitocin were delivered to my mother with the intent to induce labor and dispel my dead body from the womb.  When I was delivered in bed by a nurse that fifth day, I was believed to be dead.

 However, instead of being scalded to death from the outside-in, I had survived! Gratefully, the doctors and nurses stepped in and provided me with the medical care that I needed to survive the abortion attempt and my premature birth.  Although doctors believed that I would likely not live for very long, and if I did survive, would be disabled, I am now 32 years old and am perfectly healthy, happy and successful. 

Although I had always known that I had been adopted, I didn't find out about the abortion attempt until I was 14 years old.  At that time, my older sister, who is also adopted, became pregnant as a high school student, and was considering having an abortion.  Our mother told her about my survival in the hopes that she would choose life for her child.  I am proud to share that my oldest nephew is now 17 years old!

I spent over 10 years of my life searching for my biological parents and attempting to obtain my medical records.  It wasn't until May of

2007 that I obtained my records and found my biological parents.  Since that time, I have been reunited with a number of relatives on my biological father's side of the family, and I have had communication with my biological mother's parents.  My life has also come full circle, as I gave birth to my first child, Olivia, at the very same hospital where my life was supposed to end.  I have now founded an organization in honor of Olivia, to share my story of survival with the world, to give testament to the grace and glory of the Lord, and open the hearts and minds to the true reality of abortion, the intergenerational impact that abortion has on families and communities.

 Finding out about the abortion attempt was not pleasant, and processing through my own personal feelings of grief and loss have not been easy or simple, but I wouldn't change a thing.  This is who I am.

I am a survivor, a believer, a living testament to God's grace and the power of hope, love, and healing.

Melissa O

Wonderful letter, thank you for sharing this with us, as it's an inspiration to all of us.  We're also posting this at "Aborted Abortions."

AbortionTV

6/26/09

I had and abortion with twins. I was getting married and I convinced myself that it wasn't the right time. So did my fianc'. He made me do it. I wish I could have changed my mind and just kept them. I got laid off from work we were just starting out and I didn't want children with someone who didn't want them. I'm so depressed and I have no one to talk to. He doesn't want to talk about it with me he just rather forget it ever happen. But I think about it everyday.  I try not to because I have two kids that need me but didn't they need me too. I feel so worthless inside. It's like no one understands my pain. I don't know what to do. I can'at tell my mom it would kill her. Abortion is never the answer. Trust me you will feel like giving up, depressed and just confused. That's how I feel confused. It's been three months and I still don't have a job. Everyday I look at him and I hate him sometimes.  How he can just walk around like nothing never happened. But who am I to hate him I might as well hate myself while I'm at it. I ask God to forgive me but it seems like I can't forgive myself. U don't want this monkey in your back for the rest of your life. Trust me. I need counseling because this cant be a quick fix like and abortion. So if you thinking about doing it think again and again and again. It's not worth the pain.

M.N.

Dear M. N.

I have been through a similiar experience.  You have passed the most painful and difficult obstacle in the healing process.  Please know, there is no sin under Heaven so unforgivable as to render you unable to heal with Jesus' help.  Once you are able to accept His forgiveness, then forgiving yourself is the next step. 

Please accept that forgiveness is for you also, and not just for those who have offended, hurt, and damaged your heart.  You are angry with your fiance' and he may be angry with himself. Perhaps it is time to move on?  That anger cannot be the basis for a healthy relationship until it's let go.  If you can do this, maybe the relationship can survive.  If not, please re-examine marrying this person.  Jesus does not want us entering into the marriage commitment lightly.  Harboring resentment, bitterness, and hatred will bring toxicity into the marital relationship and potentially damage any future children you may have.  Marriage is for the nurturing and protection of children as well as a loving union.  Please ask yourself if you can commit to a lifetime with this person?  Do you trust he will love, support, and care for you as you have needed?  I am not seeing this in your writing. There are loving, good men who will commit to their wives and unborn children; and every woman deserves nothing less when she brings a child into this world.  Letting go would be difficult, but it may be a path to a broader healing of your heart.  I ask you to forgive him, regardless of the outcome in this decision.  Forgiveness allows you to move on.  Many times, while we spend years beating ourselves up and hating the people who hurt us, they move on.  Don't allow those who hurt you to continue to hurt you through self-victimization.  Often, they move on while we continue to beat ourselves up for years.  It's a waste of time and energy.

Your little ones are in Heaven in the arms of Jesus Christ.  I urge you to find a competent, loving counselor through Catholic Charities or CareNet.  You can move toward healing and there is a chance to move forward.  You cannot take back the past, but you can be confident in your future.  Please feel free to e-mail me if you like to request my address through the site.  Big loving hugs to you!   

Eleanor

6/24/09

Dear Abortion  TV

I am 23 years old and my husband is 23 years old too! We have been together for 5 years and we are married for a year and is still going strong! I remember the first time that I got pregnant and I was scared and wondering what to do? I couldn't tell my mother right away and I know how mad that she will get with me and my boyfriend! The whole problem my boyfriend and I were 21 at the time and we just graduated the year 2005 together at the age of 19 years old. My own mother wanted me to have a abortion or a adoption!!! There is no way in hell I wouldn't do that!! I wouldn't forgive myself ever!!! So my boyfriend and I  thought that we should get married and prove to them that we mean business keeping our child! I was 6 months pregnant at the time! Even I went through a tough time with my mom while I was pregnant and that she just had to get use to it and thank god she did when my baby girl was born! My baby girl was born April 2nd 2008. She was 7 lbs and 12 oz. 7:05 am

      I am really thank full to have this sweet baby angel to be born and now she is a 14 months old!! Her name is Elizabeth and she is a sweet baby to have and her daddy and mommy love giving her kisses!! Thank god I didn't do the wrong horrifying thing to hurt my self and my child is ABORTION!!! I hate the word ABORTION!! To me its a hateful word to hear from young woman that just to do it to make parents or boyfriends feel better and not the mother!!! God didn't give us a choice to have abortion ever in the bible! Now I am pregnant again and this time I am having a baby boy in July 16th!! So that my daughter Elizabeth can have a brother to play with when he gets bigger! I am planing on having another baby in the future! I am thankful to find this website and learning about abortion and its a crime to see a innocent baby that is getting murdered every year!!

Thank you!,

S. M. Boyer  

6/19/09

No yelling, just a woman's observation.

   I am pro-life but i am also pro-woman --- it is my hope, in the same way that Jesus and God the Father is/are.  The problem that i have found with almost all Pro-Life supporters is that they treat the mother like a non-person ...as if she is nothing more than the incubator in which the child is to become a person in ----- a means to an end (in the same way that Pro-Abortion supporters do).  I think that we Pro-Life supporters would make A LOT of headway in the public arena if we started answering the needs and concerns of the mothers and the effects that an abortion will have on them, physical, emotional,  while also helping them understand about their babies and bringing them to term, whether they decide to keep their children or give them out for adoption (Note: i like open adoptions; it enables the mother to keep in contact with her child while still being able to give him/her to someone who is better able to raise him/her). 

   By the way, as a woman, i do not see that Pro-Abortion people view women as people either.  They deny women just the basic human rights adequatly trained medical personell, aseptic envirnment, anesthesia, medical emergency care, freedom from forced "concent", of FULL and TRUE patient informed consent concerning the developement of her unborn child and the consequences to her health physically and emotionally.

   So i hope you can use my comment to help increase Pro-Life's ability impact our world. 

Gail 

(PS: You website had some great information ---- that i hadn't known, too).

6/12/09

Unfortunately the world is full of story like mine. I could write a book on the flow of emotions me and my girlfriend went and, above all, still go through. I will write only few lines on my life experience, and if only one person who would read me will change idea my life will have been worthier.
We lived and still live in two different cities (Paris and Luxembourg), seeing each other over the week end. We love each other, but this, as you will read below, doesn't count for what happened. Two moderate salaries and in junior positions, but smart and ambitious. We both study besides work. Sometimes we where speaking about children, we both wanted in the "future".
She got pregnant. Emotions in order: incredulity, surprise, light happiness for a little miracle of nature, thoughts on money/time/small house/study/work, rising preoccupations, discussion, waves of panic, proposal of abortion, silence, discussions, silence, cries, lack of sleep, decision to abort.
Decision founded on arguments like not enough money, impossibility to pursue our career and studies, living in 2 different cities, apparent simplicity in doing an abortion through a pill, and maybe we are always in time to do a baby in the future.
She goes to abort within 4 weeks, through the RSU pill. It goes smoothly, although with a lot of belly pain in some moments for her. We go back home. We don't speak for hours, both silent. In the days after we avoid the subject. The nurse at the hospital told us that usually couples realize fully what happens only some time later. She was right.
For me it happened in a subway, when I looked to a mother holding a baby. I looked at the little hand of the child holding the mother's one. I didn't see them, but only the hands connection. The reality opened in my guts, cutting them alive. Through that abortion, I refuse to hold that hand, I turned my shoulders to someone having part of my blood in his veins, my skin, my eyes. My face. I didn't let that face encounter mine.
It doesn't matter I love my girlfriend, it could have been a one night stand, that was part of me. That little hand looking for mine is haunting each and every single night. Sine one year, and it doesn't slow down.
I once had lunch with the CEO of my company. He had a son when it was still at university, without any money, he continued to study. He said that keep the baby was the best choice of his life and formed is character more than a MBA. You can imagine how I felt. No, I think you cannot imagine, and I hope you'll never feel that. Being aware of you biggest life mistake. Aware you will never do something worse in life, because you can't.
If the satisfaction, privilege, miracle, of seeing yourself in another human being is not worthy a little sacrifice, what is it, a job like millions, a diploma like millions, a house like millions?!?!? I feel ashamed for the reasons on which we based our decision upon.
Besides, I found out I have varicocele, and my fertility is very low and we will probably struggle to have children in the future.

Just don't do my mistake, save your sleep, your conscious, yourself into another human being. Think longterm, what is the value of a little hand looking for yours.

Stefano T. , Luxembourg

6/1/09

I wasn't happy that Tiller was murdered, at all!   Yet I rejoice in the number of kids' lives that will now be saved.  I'd like to know:  

* How long was Tiller's "career"?

* What is the latest-term he ever aborted?

* Was he suspected of aborting for underage girls without parental notice?

* Est. of how many total abortions he performed, and the number on an annual basis?

* How much $$ did he make doing this, annually or total? 

I prayed that our Lord would have mercy on his soul. That guy was one sick, cold-hearted dude! 

Thanks,
John G

5/23/09

 had an abortion a couple of years ago to twins. I didn't know anything and they told me that it wasn't a baby, there was no beating heart so there was no pain at all. They lied to me. I was 11 weeks to twins. I only did it thinking it was not harmful in any way. After finding your website and looking it up on you tube I now learn what happens and the truth. I am broken hearted for what I have done to those two precious babies. I will never forgive myself. I think it's so important for women to know the truth before going ahead. The clinics lie to you to make you go through it. I was stupid enough to believe them. I am having trouble with life now realizing what actually happens. I now have a 1year little girl and she is the love of my life. I am getting married this year but Every time I look at my daughter I think about those two angels everyday. I really need help, I am struggling to go through this. I cry myself to sleep every night. My fianc' doesn't know what to do. He was devastated to see the procedure as well and said he wouldn't have let me go through with it if he knew. But I just want to say thank you for telling women the truth. I just wish I found this website before I went through it. It would have saved two gorgeous babies lives. I talk to them everyday. I try to think they are in heaven, but they would hate me so much. I don't blame them. I wish I could turn back time.

Thank you for doing this for babies sake.

Sarah

Brisbane, Australia

3/17/09

Dear Sir/Madam,
 
I just wanted to write to you to thank you for saving a life.  For helping me to save a life.  I am a 22 year old woman.  I already have 1 son from a previous relationship.  He is 2 years old.  His dad left before he even turned 1.  We had been together 4 years and it was hard to say the least.
 
I have just discovered that I am pregnant again.  To my boyfriend of only 9 months.  My immediate reaction was that I don't want it.  I was on contraception.  We weren't trying for a baby.  We are not a match made in Heaven.  I didn't want to have an abortion.  I live in Ireland so it's actually illegal.  I would have to travel to England.  But the abortion pill did cross my mind.  After viewing your website I realise I wasn't thinking properly.  How could I do that to my unborn child?  I look at my 2 year old son and ask myself, "What if I'd done that to you?".  It doesn't bare thinking about.
 
Yes, I am going to have a hard time telling my mother.  Yes, I am going to be judged.  And yes, if my partner leaves me it is going to be hard.  But I will do it, comforted by the fact that I done the right thing.  My baby is a gift from God.  A little miracle.  Thank you for helping me to realise that.
 
Regards,
 
Anonymous, 22, Ireland

Thank you for a truly wonderful letter!  Yes, this is a gift from God, and we guarantee that all of the people in your life who object now'will truly see this in a short time.  Best of luck with your pregnancy, and please send a picture along after delivery. 

AbortionTV

3/16/09

It was just my son, Ethan and I in his own little room, in our own little world.  We rocked. I sang. He smiled. I know the songs.  I sang them sixteen years ago for my lovely, daughter, Laura and before that to her three brothers, Jesse, Robby and Skyler.   

We rocked - Ethan and I, back and forth and higher and higher my spirit soared until it met up with a restless memory that jolted me back to reality.  Then, suddenly, like a summer storm on the ocean the tears came, and so severely that I held on to Ethan as if he were my life preserver.  There was little I could do but hold on and ride out the currents of regret and waves of sorrow and shame. 

I never know when the storm will (hit) but it seems to stir during the sunniest moments I share with my children.  My heart warms and is so stretched with love for them that it easily rips, then the cold, familiar ache seeps in and swells.  His silence is the thunder and his absence like a whirlpool pulling me in to despair.  My first child.

 He's gone.  Perhaps it was a she.  I never knew. I never sang to him or saw her smile.  I never held him or comforted her in the night.  I let them take her.  Violently.  Heartlessly.  Indifferent, insensible people ripped my child from me in the middle of an April day in a vague, sterile room.  I don't know what they did with her.  I don't want to know.  I went home.  I left her there and I went home.  I believed I left the memory of him in that room, but, although I didn't recognize it, it visited me often.  When my children celebrated birthdays there always seemed to be something missing or someone I forgot to invite.  After kissing my children goodnight I didn't want to leave their rooms.  In my nightmares I secretly buried a faceless, lifeless, little body in my garden and was so afraid that someone was going to find out.  I remember waking up confused and frightened and wondering why I would dream such a thing.

 Thirteen years after that April afternoon God woke me up -- gently but justly to the reality of what I had done.  It was time.  He showed me by His Spirit and not without mercy the sin I had committed against Him.  I attempted to plead innocent due to my youth and ignorance, but it was no excuse.  I tried to blame my mother, the father of my child, my doctor, the abortionists....but His Truth manifested and I was held accountable. 

 My eyes were finally opened and I confessed my sin. I forgave all those who took part in the atrocity and though I repented, my grief was so deep and my soul so weak that it took time to reach up and receive His forgiveness. 

 Ethan is his own person and yet at times an echo of my child of 25 years ago, but more than that, a miraculous reminder of God's forgiveness.  The wound is healed but the scar remains. The nightmares have ceased, yet the storms continue to come.  If David is right, there will be a final storm and through the last mortal tears I weep, my child will come to me like a rainbow.  I believe that then I'll sing again and hope my child smiles.
 
***Ethan is six years old now. 

 Tomorrow I'm going to speak to the youth at my church about my experience and found this site as I was looking for literature.  After reading much of your information and testimonies I've I find myself once again grieving for my child.  This year he/she would have been 31 years old. 

2/10/09

    I get so mad whenever I see people blatantly going out and saying that the child growing in a woman is not human until it is born.  I'm 14, and right now in school we have to do a speech on something. I chose to do my speech on abortion. I've always felt strongly about being against abortion, but I had never known the details until recently. When I found your web-site I was like "Yes! Finally, a site with facts!" Lots of facts. I read all the methods  for an abortion that are on this site, and I felt sick for days. I don't normally feel ill when I read about something totally and completely disgusting, but, reading about murder -the murder of unborn innocents-, something that is legal I just got so upset and sickened. If killing innocent children before they are born isn't murder, then all those people in jail for killing someone out of the womb shouldn't be in jail. 

    I know that there are many women who feel that an abortion is the only way. The only way to save their rep. The only way to save a relationship. The only way to live a "normal" life. Or maybe someone forced them into an abortion. A boyfriend, a parent, a "friend". If the women who got an abortion out of free-will just stopped and thought for a moment... Just one second, what they were doing, the pain they would eventually feel, the pain someone else would feel because of their choice.. So much could have been different. Maybe the barren woman would have had a child to adopt. Maybe the original mother would fall in love with her child and wonder how she could have wanted to part with him/her. Maybe the aborted woman would not have breast cancer in the future. Maybe she would not die of abortion complications. (That is unlikely, but still possible) Maybe she wouldn't fall into depression, abuse substances, become violent, have future miscarriages... So much could be different. If they had thought. For a second. One second is all it takes.

    I know that a lot of people don't listen to teenagers. After all, we are teenagers. What could a teen know about abortion? What could someone who has never had an abortion in her life know about that subject? Not a lot I guess. I will never know the pain an abortion can bring. I will never know what it is like to be pressured to have an abortion. I can only tell you what I, as a teenager, think about abortion. What I feel about abortion. I hate abortion. I hate the prospect of it. I hate the FOCA (Freedom of Choice Act.... {some choice it is}) and  the fact that it might actually be legalized. I hate the fact that so many people just walk away. Ignore it. Don't think that abortions have anything to do with them. That the death of millions of innocents has nothing to do with them. Those that choose to stay neutral during the vote.. If only they realized that just one NO to the FOCA could make a difference. I wish no one had ever invented abortion, but what's done is done. I can't vote yet, but I can choose to go against abortion. I can choose to save an innocent child's life.     

    I want to cry whenever I remember I'm too young to vote against the FOCA. But I know that I will fight for abortion to be illegal. I WILL continue to make it clear that abortion is wrong. Whether you believe that the child that grew/is growing in (gf-sis-mom)/ is growing is not alive, I do. Many people do. Abortion kills.

     I am pro-life, and doing my speech on abortion has further cemented my belief. Abortion is wrong. No candy coated "Oh it's not living until it can support itself on its own" crap can change that fact. Abortion is wrong. Get over it.  

I don't mean to be mean. I just hate the idea of anyone wanting to kill their child. It hurts just thinking about it. 

January 30, 2009

Thank you for your site and all the information you have regarding abortions (murdering). I was researching your site for information to help my 21 year old daughter and after reading numerous letters on your site, I realized I have a story that I can share with everyone including my daughter. When I was 17, I was very dumb about a lot of things.  I knew I didn't not want to be with my then boyfriend for a long time. I was just playing around with him and having sex until I graduated from High School and then I was going to be off to UCLA. The University of my dreams. Well, I finally ended up pregnant. We had played with fire so long, my boyfriend didn't think I could get pregnant.  I was scared to death. My dreams were being dashed before they started.  I could always go to college with a child, but I could never live in the dormartories with a baby. All my thoughts were about myself, not my beautiful unborn child. My boyfriend and I broke up just before I found out I was pregnant. So I was alone.  I went to a clinic to schedule an abortion and I remember seeing a brochure out the corner of my eyes and I told myself don't look at because they are going to try and scare me to not have the abortion. Well, I looked anyway. And they described the procedure of the abortion. I remember reading about the vacuum and how it has to dismember the baby in order to suck it out. This is murder. There is no other way to describe it. I decided I couldn't kill my baby, even though there were people that allowed me to have that option, I just started seeing how God was going to help me carry and provide for my baby. I knew I had to face shame and embarrassment. I had told my grandmother I would never be an unwed teen mother, but that is what I became. God was working everything out as he always will. My boyfriend and I got back together and  married then I gave birth to my lovely daughter. To walk in the hospital as one person and come out as two, was a sheer miracle! God had allowed me to participate in one of his modern day miracles! When people saw my baby, they would say, " You have a big pretty baby". She was 9lbs and 3 oz. She had and still has the most beautiful smile! She is now 23 yrs old, about to graduate from college and does poetry across the United States. Her words of encouragement and enlightment encourages people everywhere. And I know God is not through with her yet. There were hard times in her teenage years, but between the joy she has given me now and the job God has for her to do, I don't see how I could have ever thought about killing my child.  Ladies, sometimes we find ourselves in situations that seem unbearable, unbelievable, undoable, impossible, but take heart Ladies, you can do it.  You have been hand picked to be the bearer of a modern day miracle on this earth. There are lots of help aids out there in this world.  Seek out the help. Where there is a will, there is a way!  I actually have four beautiful daughters now.  Unfortunately, one of other daughters did have an abortion with my first grandchild. That tore me, my husband and her babysister up. We were on our knees praying for my pregnant daughter and the unborn baby. My daughter had the abortion. I can't imagine what my daughter must have went through, but I know it hurt me to my core.  The baby was going to be my first grandchild and I was getting so excited with grandmother duties, and then I found out there was no more baby. It's then I realize abortion affects everyone, not just the mother, but everyone.  My daughter is pregnant again and we are pleading with her to not kill this one and that is why I am writing, to encourage her and everyone else to not kill their children.  God will make a way!

Linda 

1/19/09

Horrific story that I have to live with every day of my life.  In l969 abortions were not legal.  I found myself all alone.  The boy who was the father, was whisked away by his mother and hid from me, not his decision, but his Moms.  My Mother flew in from Florida and told me I had two choices.  #1//Have the baby and they would never speak to me again, or #2 go back to Florida with her and they would take care of it.  They had found a Doctor who would do the abortion.  After meeting with him and having an internal exam, he found that I was three months along.  My parents had to take me to Miami Airport where he would pick me up, they had to pay $2500.00 and upon my return another $2500.00.  He promised to have me back in one hour, or they could call the police.  So I was whisked off to his home where a nurse was waiting.  I was taken into a back bedroom, where he cleared off his dresser and a garbage can placed at the bottom of the dresser.  I remember a shot given to me and next think waking up to him slapping me across the face to wake me   Blood was flowing every where. with him yelling  at me back to the airport in time.  My parents then paid him the balance and away we went.  I was in horrific pain.  I was rushed to the emergency room where I was told 1/2 of the fetus was still in me.   I was rushed to surgery and was never the same.  When I was married five years I had an atopic pregnancy and lost my appendix, half my intestine, right tube and ovary.  It was an ordeal that no one should ever have to endure.  Two years later on the front of the Miami Herald stating he was not or, but an immigrant from Jamaica.  I fell into a deep depressant and was in therapy for over two years.  My parents never forgave themselves, they only thought they were saving me from a life time of misery.  I never blamed them.  and yet if abortions had been legal I would have never gone through a life time of suffering.   I am still for abortion, only if it was done by a real doctor.  Please prayer for me..........I would never want any woman to go through what I did.........Abortion should be legalized.

Abortion IS legal.  Unfortunately, you were a victim of selfish, uncaring parents more than an illegitimate 'doctor.'  Had your parents not been worried about tarnishing their reputation, you could have had your child, given her/him up for adoption, and went on to lead a normal life without medical complications.  Instead, one dead, one injured. 

AbortionTV 

1/7/09

I have had 2 abortions in my life, both around 15 years ago. Never has my choice ever bothered me.  I knew that at that time in my life, that I did not want to procede with a pregnancy. As far as me "killing" a "living" being, I don't agree.  In my definition of living....I list one of the attritubutes of being a living being as breathing air (of which my fetuses could not do)  A living being would have the ability to sustain itself, outside my womb.  These fetuses did not posess that ability.  I did nothing more than have some unwanted tissue removed, much like having a tumor removed.  I fully support a woman's right to choose, as long as her choice is made and completed within the first trimester.  I have 3 children that are the light of my life, I would lay down my life at any time for them.  2 of them are grown and aware of my decision of abortions.  Neither have ever held my decision against me.  I do not now, nor have I ever regretted my choice to abort.  I also am more than happy that my children are very intelligent and educated young people who know to trust their instincts and not waste their lives regretting decisions that they have make in the past, that mean nothing now.  I support a woman who choices to procede with her pregnancy, as well as a woman who decides the opposite.  Women need to realize that decisions that they make, are not to be regretted and mulled over and over again.....but yet, accepted and even celebrated as part of being strong in will and mind.  Thank you for letting ME share my story. 

12/08/09

As I'm sitting here writing this, I can only hope my experience will be a lesson for young women contemplating abortion.  I'm a healthy 42-year-old mother of 6.  I had an abortion at 25, seventeen weeks into gestation of my son, Jacob Matthew.  Through the years, I've read and researched many articles and studies relating a link between abortion and breast cancer.  I believe it.  Now, I'm living it. 

Last month, I went for a normal mammogram.  I was called back a few days later for suspicious microcacifications in the left breast.  A biopsy was done on December 2nd.  The results are back and the diagnosis is clear; Atypical Ductal Hyperplasia bordering Ductal Carcinoma in Situ.  When I got the diagnoses from my physician, I threw up, screamed, and cried.  Immediately, I thought about my abortion and all the studies I've read.  The memory of my son has been with me these last few days.  I have missed him every day since the day I aided the abortionist in taking his life.  (Jacob is with Jesus.  Praise Him for that blessing!) 

So, here I am.  I'm still quite young (from this standpoint there's a long way to go) and have beautiful children (I'm an adoptive mom).  I cannot help but feel my abortion contributed to this.  The "issue" is in a milk duct, which is exactly what studies have stated due to the immaturity and inability of cells to mature following abortion.  So, for those considering abortion, it may be a decision that "relieves" a temporary problem now.  But, many years from now when you are situated in life and going along happily, I believe it may revisit in a way no one should have to deal with. 

To those who know me at AbortionTV, I ask you prayer for me, my family, and my sisters dealing with this issue.  I hope my case will sway someone to choose life.

11/18/08

Twenty nine weeks ago, a little over seven months ago, I had unprotected sex.  I knew within two days I was pregnant and told the father I felt different. It would be three weeks later that the first pregnancy test showed positive. I was sure that I was going to have an abortion, I hardly knew the father, I didn't have a steady job, instead I worked as a stripper and knew being pregnant would end all source of income on that end.  I went to the abortion clinic, where I had recieved the pill five months earlier to terminate and four week old pregnancy when my boyfriend left me after he wanted me to get pregnant.  I was out of control and out of touch. I was only focused on myself and the imediate future. I didn not want any responsibility to anyone or to myself. I  think that was the foundation for the first abortion. I took the pill, had some minor cramps and bleeding and felt relived that it was over and not so bad.
 This time, I waited a few more weeks trying to decide what to do. My heart wanted this baby. I wanted this baby. I just couldn't see raising a baby. I couldn't see how others would react to me being pregnant. I knew my firnds would be shocked, I knew I would have to get a real job, lose my car, lose my clothes, lose my party lifestyle of going out and getting high and drunk and listening to music.  I knew everything would change. And I was very very afraid. The only thing that seemed to comfort me was knowing that I had my baby inside of me. It also brought me alot of stress. It is a weird contradiction. You feel the flutters of it and yet you know you don't forsee yourself being a mother, getting big, and giving up your freedom. It seems really overwhelming all at once. 
I went in to get an abortion at 7 weeks. They showed me the ultrasound. Nothing but a small ball of blur, no movement. They talked of products of conception and the baby being no bigger than a dot at the end of a sentence.   I wasn't ready to end its life just yet, I wanted to be sure I was making the right decision. I wiated two and a half more weeks. Every day I changed my mind, at times I really wnted the baby, other times I really wanted to get it over with.  I made two more appointments at the abortion clinic and missed both. I just could not think of them going in and suctioning me out, my baby, my life, my creation, my responsibility.  I went in to a prental clinic, I wanted a second opinion, I wanted them to give me hope and an option. I wanted to pretend for one second I was going to have this baby and try to see how I could make it work. They showed me the ultrasound at 10 1/2 weeks. I saw her hand waving , her sucking her thumb, her bouncing from one side of me to the other.  Even though I couldn't feel her, and I didn't look pregnant. I saw five fingers waving, at ten weeks.  Two weeks earlier at the abortion clinic, I saw nothing, when I called back the abortion clinic to ask them why the ultrasound seemed so diffferent from those two weeks.  They interestingly told me, that those machines were old and were only legal to be used in the abortion clinic to measure pregnancy not as an actual ultrasound and they could not be considered as such becuase the technolochy of the machines and the law prevented them from using it as an ultrasound machine in a viable pregnancy.  So basically, they will use those machines on unwanted babies becuase those machines are outdated, blurry and not detailed.  I asked them, so if I wanted to pay you for another ultrasound photograph to decide if I wanted to keep the baby and see how it looked could I?  They said, no, we only do the ultrasounds on unwanted pregnancies, if you are considering having the baby we are not legally able to use those machines, and the technician cannot preform the ultraound.   
        HHHmm, I began to see a bigger picture of what was going on.  I decided to make it work and I found a way to make it work. It is scary, it is hard, but now I see how beuatiful my girl is and how fast she has grown, and nothing can take that away from me.  I am excited to see her, and I love getting ready to bring her home.  I found a regular job, I saved money, I got the father to help pay for the doctor and some of the bills. I told my family and they were happy, not mad. I have her crib waiting and her clothes waiting. I also have the first ultrasound from the abortion clinic, in the same little book as the ones showing her growing , her hair and her smile. 
 it is possible to make it work, and everything comes step by step. it is overwhelming to think of everything changing when I first found out. But everything changes slowly. You get use to your body growing, you get use to making less money and saving more. You do not get use to feeling her kick and seeing her elbow and legs moving on your stomach. You don't get use to her reacting to your voice and seeing her develop. 
               It is very scary but the joy outweighs the fear, and once you conquer the fear, you can be joyful.  You should not make any decision out of fear, becuase then fear controls your life and it is pure misery. Make your choices out of being strong, and you will get the rewards.     

11/14/08

Hi. I am an 18 year guy that fell in love. Emilee and I started dating on Chirstmas Eve in 7th grade. I had just turned 13. she was 12. we went to all of the dances and parties as a couple. All of the other kids wanted to be like us. Flash forward to our 3 three anniversay.  I was 16... she was 15..almost 16...  On Sunday, December 24, 2006, We had sex for the first time. That day changed our lives forever. 

Then the day after her 16th birthday party, January 13, she told me the two words i never wanted to hear... Im pregnant. We knew we loved each other and thought our parents would help us raise the baby.  But that wasnt the case. We told all 4 of them together. they told us to go upstairs. we thought that they were talking about where we would live..  

That wasnt the case, They told us that they had came to the decision that we were going to have an abortion. we got in a huge fight.. but sadly... by the end of the night, Emilee and I gave in to our parents. On February 12, 2007, Emilee, 7 weeks pregnant, me, and our parents killed our baby. 

Emilee moved to her aunts house in California in March... she needed a break.  During this time, I started to hate my parents for what they did to us. 

When Emilee moved home in June, she was still  mourning our baby. She said that she regretted that decision everyday. I felt the same way.   Even though at the time we were angry and heartbroken... we knew we needed each other. So we got back together, and when we both had turned 17, we moved in together.  

Now, here we are, I turned 18 on the 4th. Emilee is again pregnant with a little girl. She is 5-and-a-half months pregnant.  We both are graduating at semester to start our family.... We are not on speaking terms with our parents. THey know we are pregnant and have made the decision to stay away from us. We are getting married on Valentines day of 2009. And Aleigha Kate is due March 4, 2009.  

It has been almost two years since we made the biggest mistake of listening to our parents. Not a day goes by that my fiance and I dont think of the child that we killed... our child. We havent decided if we are going to tell Aleigha about what we did yet. But we are going to love this girl... and never will we let her make the same mistakes as we have.  

We also mourn our relationships we had with our parents. We loved them so much. We trusted them. They broke that trust. They arent all to blame though... We made the ultimate decision to do what we did.  Some people that know our story criticize us for starting our family so young. We dont care what anyone else thinks. We are doing everything to save this family that we are building. 

10/27/08

I would like to say to all of those who posted their comments online Thank you so much ,from the bottom of my heart. You all are most appreciated. I have honestly taking time out to say a prayer for you for your troubles and sorrow. and I know you will find peace again. Your babies didn't die in vain, because you helped me with my decision, to keep my baby. You have made such an impact on my life, I am forever grateful to you all. Again thank you so so so much.

Nicole R

Nicole, congratulations on making the right decision to save the life of your child.  Please send along pictures after the birth and best of luck during your pregnancy.

09/28/08 

 I had an abortion this past spring. My baby would be a few weeks old if I had of had the strength to stand up to social pressures and just give it a chance at life and love. I know some people looking to this website are either considering abortion or trying to understand it, I really hope you don't walk away thinking everything you're reading is correct. I hope you seriously take some time to yourself to let it all sink in, without the pressure, without the drugs that the hospital gives you and just figure out what is good for you? And how a life with a baby is possible. My sister had a teenage pregnancy and we live in a lower middle class family. She was left alone by her partner, and I can honestly say that with hard work and loving family/friends she was able to finish school and college and begin her own business within 9 years...I am very proud and almost envious of her...I love her and my niece.

I however, wasn't able to process everything. I made a serious connection with the baby, I even promised I would love it even if its father did it approve of its being. I am an educated woman with no real work opportunities; in fact, I am not finished school yet. Living at home with my family was a major reason, that and my then boyfriend was a teacher in a catholic school system. I seriously regretted my abortion. It causes me to be depressed and change as a person all together. I stopped hanging around my friends or anymore who tried to make me feel good or happy, because I didn't think I deserved the attention or love. I never visit my family and it's usually short visits...I have increased my alcohol intake significantly...I would rather be living happily at home with parents with my baby, than being someone who is living at home unhappily, with a drinking problem not to mention mood swings and depression. I have serious anxiety issues now too. I wake up crying and end up messing opportunities up with work or social functions...I have serious sleep issues and I try to shake it off and smile and act like I'm okay, but I'm really not.

Please, if you can raise the baby you are carrying, just do it or at least think about it. If you can live with it, then go ahead....I thought I could live with it then 6 months later I am still severely upset and cry. You can't escape the reminders of life, someone is going to show you a picture of their ultrasound at some point and what can you say? awwwwwww how cute, I killed something that look just like that picture you are smiling at.....seriously....it's rough, unpleasant and you like I said, you cant escape life, it's all around you and it will remind you.

I was at a funeral for a baby 2 weeks before I terminated my baby's life....that attributed to my pain on many levels....I still talk to my baby, I thought it was a girl, but I will never know. She / he is in the hands of my loved ones who went before me on the other side...they are with her soul and I know she forgives me and will come again when and if I am blessed with life inside me again, she will enter my body and I will give her the best life that I can, I long to feel her again, to feel her love and the connection.... 

if you are a boyfriend reading this....offer love and only love and support....don't even mention doubt into your g/f, wife or friends ear...it's wrongful and causing a lot of problems on top of the hormones. If it's right she will know...but if she has time to think about it, I know she will make the right choice....men become fathers and fall in love with their child when they see it, women do when they feel it.

If you won't love it, then simply let someone else love it. but don't leave her, support her as a friend, if anything.

 I hope this helps anyone out

LL

Great letter, with good advice for all.  We also published this in our "Letters from Those Who've Had Abortions."

9/15/08

Although I do agree that abortion is not the answer and that it is a moral wrong, AND I do accept that the world is getting less 'populated', we still have a huge problem with the population issue. Why? Because, since this earth is a place of limits, where everything (that would include all manner of resources) in it dies and ends, at some point or another, then we still have the problem that we SIMPLY DO NOT HAVE ENOUGH RESOURCES TO ACCOMMODATE THE SIZE OF our Worlds' population WHILE decreasing TO your QUOTED 2.3 BILLION BY 2300. That is the problem!! If you can give me a cognizant and intelligent answer that tackles this, am interested.

Regards

Anon

We think that all of the misconceptions outlined in your letter can be explained in our section on overpopulation myths. 

AbortionTV

9/15/08

9/9/08

hi, my opinion about abortions is not a good one.  i think more should be done to educate women about abortion and the fetal developement before an abortion is an available option.  when i looked at the pictures of the aborted babies i cried for them and i prayed for them and the babies that will soon be joining them.  i thank GOD that i never dont anything like that.  for the women who have.... or should i say the women who have been pushed into it.... i feel terrible for you and i will be praying for you.  i do think it is an irresponsible thing to do, especially concidering the people who would love and care wonderfully for a child but are unable to have one, but people make mistakes in life and are also very misinformed about abortions.  if everyone who is against abortions would come, together we could do a few things to help prevent as many babies being murdered everyday.  for instance... if we all got together and made the government come up with a law stating that a woman, regardless of age, would have to go to specialized counseling and be properly informed of what she is doing when getting an abortion and shown how post-abortion women felt after the procedure and shown exactly how it is done, the babys stage of development (other than them saying you are so many weeks, tell them it has a heartbeat, fingernails, nerve endings that feel pain)  and inform the woman of different options that do not involve the murder of an inocent child,..... i think it would greatly reduce the number of abortions, at least in the united states.  i also think there should be a law that states that a woman cannot abort a child after 20 weeks of gestation.  at 20 weeks a child can still be born and live.  a person is sent to prison for murdering a baby but it is ok for the mother and the doctor to deliver it and drown it, stab it in the back of the head with scissors, and other horrid ways, it think they should go to prison as well.  i also think that after a woman has 2 abortion that are not medically required that they should be required to have thier tubes tied to prevent them from destroying more innocent lives.  for the women out there that had to end thier childs life due to medical problems, i am deeply sorry for your loss and will be praying for you also.  for a child is a blessing from the lord. i know people feel differently about many things, this is how i feel.  as far as getting something started to confront the government..... i dont know how to.  im only 23.  but if there is someone out there who knows how... think of what i have said.  outlawing abortions is not going to happen, preventing as many abortions is very possible.  if you would like to contact me on the issue my email is jonathongosnell@yahoo.com.  thanks for reading my opinion and may God bless you. 

2/1/08

For one thing this site shouldn't even allow 12 year olds on here. First of all do 12 year old girls have an abortion when they are 12?.. no I don't think so. Also this is so so wrong to destroy a life like this and also please change the age because this will scare and scar them for ever . I don't care if you don't care it's my own concern, please consider it.

Cori C.

There is a simple reason why AbortionTV has this particular age warning:  It is because some girls are able to bear children as early as 12--and unfortunately, sexual activity seems to begin at an earlier age each year. 

1/25/08 

24 Jan. O8

Dear Culture Of Life, 

I think it a real tragedy that many that say they are for life do not speak up.  I do not understand how anyone, in my country, can sing, "God bless America," while the American Holocaust (i.e., Abortion) advances. 

On the home page of this site, the numbers of abortions performed, increases.  With each ever increasing murder of persons in the womb, there are equally ever increasing violent and murderous acts of persons out side of the womb. In my U.S. culture, the value of life--the fact that people--all people (including unborn persons) are created in God's image--is becoming a fading cultural memory--even subject to ridicule! 

In the Genesis (the first book of the Jewish-Christian Bible) Persons, created in the image of God are distinguished from animals, plants etc.  The Creator God breathed the breath of life into the first person--created in His image--and all the persons following are a part of that initial image of God.  That is something to be proud of, in a good sense, for our Human dignity and self respect are linked to the Creation account of the First Persons. 

When we, as a Culture, allow ungodly laws to go unchallenged, for in our system of law--the laws as written are what is followed and enforced.  In the infamous "Roe" decision (1973) the re-definition of life not only violates God's written revealed Word--it violates the spirit of our laws--that are based on a the Jewish and Christian principles of right and wrong. "All men are created equal, and are endowed by their Creator with certain inalienable rights," reads our Declaration of Independence.  Our birth rights comes from God, pre-dates Human Government, and cannot be taken away.  When God's Word is violated--and, in the same manner, our Nation's founding documents, not only does our Nation's unborn suffer--our whole culture suffers!  We are known the world over for our founding principles of "life" and "liberty" but the whole world can see our hypocrisy! 

We need a National Day of Repentance!  We are society that murders our own!   It must be an insult to the Creator-God, when we sing "God bless America," and continue to, like Herod in the Jewish-Christian New Testament--slaughter our own!   

Arguments for life from science are good, but the evil hearts that support the abortion industry--are based, not on science--(evidence-based proof of non-life), but are based on sin.

Sin is total rebellion against the revealed will of God. It is a continuion of our fallen nature, when our first parents decided to rebell against God. We have a National Sin--against the Creator-God, in the murder of the lives He has placed in the womb. 

Not until we fall on our faces before God, and repent from this evil national heart condition, will we have His blessing!  We, as a Nation, will most likely rot from within, or self implode like many great nations before us--that forgot about God. 

Abortion is not our only National Sin, but it, like all other social evils--are symptoms of an evil heart!  When We, as a Nation, stop this crime against God--and Humanity, then and only then, can we sing,"God bless America," without the world laughing at our hypocrisy--with the curse of God in the form of judgemnet--hanging over our heads! 

My questions are, how long will God allow us to destroy our selves--or will God, in His mercy, do the honors Himself--perhaps let another Nation to destroy us--or will we turn to Him? 

I hope we return to God, and, once again, can be a blessing to the world--instead of continuing to be an immoral laughing stock to the world's community--and a stench in God's nostrils. 

12/17/2007

I am a young woman (20). I believe it is reasonable to state my opinion though others might attack me for it. I don't believe in abortions. I believe this site gives accurate information that might allow someone to be against abortion. However there are more sites that have pro-choice information. After stating this I feel I must tell you all something. When my sister was 12 or so my mother decided to tell her she wanted to abort her when she found out she was pregnant. Years later she told me (youngest of three), "If I wanted to abort jennifer, don't you think I definitely wanted to abort you?"  The only reason she didn't is because she was married to our father and he did everything to convince her not to.  Though some pro-choice women may say "its bull, you can't tell us what to do because its our bodies! We're the one carrying them, we're the one who has to suffer and we can't live our lives freely!" or whatever you might say. Let me explain it to you in a way that might make sense to you. When someone in your family is murdered, wouldn't people attend the funeral saying "they were too young."?  If someone went and attempted to or succeeded in killing one of your children, or even your parents, spouses or someone deeply close to you, wouldn't you be angry?  Life is not about what you want! It's about what god wants. Some might say, sex is so hard to resist with all the media focusing on sex. I'm sorry but I'm 20...I'VE RESISTED TILL NOW. If you don't want to take the risk get birth control or don't have sex at all. All the immature brats who think "It's my world to do what I please." Your WRONG!  Abortion is legal in some states with technicalities, but in my opinion it should never be legal. There were times when abortions were done in backyard clinics and women would get sick or die, or become sterile. That's where abortions should stay! If your going to be stupid enough to spread your legs for someone your not dedicated to, you should be forced to go to backyard clinics. You deserve any ailment that you get. Babies are people too. They have 10 fingers and 10 toes. IN MY OPINION, if you dumb women feel abortion is imperative to your one night stands, its obvious which babies should have been aborted when they were younger. These again are only my opinions, and I don't care enough to drag on the debate. I do hope that God blesses you all with the strength to understand what each act in your life does to you in the long run. If you have sex be responsible for your actions, including taking the necessary precautions. Birth Control, condoms, keep track of your cycles if you have to.......but if you get pregnant, at least give your child to someone who will love it and respect it. 

Vanessa

Thank you, Vanessa, for a great letter in support of Life, Family and God's Law.  We are to love our enemies and pray for those who wish us ill: MT 5:44: But I say to you, love your enemies, and pray for those who persecute you,

Not many write here as you have done. Have a Merry Christmas, a Happy New Year and may God bless you with

--
Peace, Matthew

P. S. I am Pro-Life-choice. Some choices are great, but Life is a GIFT and the sine qua non of all our choices.

P. P. S. Your life, my life, all lives are gifts to you, me, each other and well-lived to The Sine Qua Non.  Amen.

Vanessa

12/17/2007

I wanted to make a comment about what you said about the abortion issue, that you did not want to "drag on the debate." 

Recently I obtained a book and accompanying DVD on the slavery issue (Amazing Grace).  The persons involved became sick--and some had nervous conditions and even premature deaths from the stress of the "debate" over the slavery issue.  Though set in the late 1700's, the issue still rages on, as the issue of human slavery is still alive--and persons are still enslaved.  Though then and there in England--God's will was enacted by godly people that were willing to sacrifice--to enact godly principles--from a position of political power--even so, Statesman Wilberforce and Friends appealed to the heart--and the slave trade ended.  

Not all godly activist--or culture warriors (members of The Culture Of Life) will do battle from a position of power--but, indeed all culture warriors have power--for all are armed with God's truth. Though we live in the world--we are not "of this world," but each, in our sphere of influence, has a job to do.  

As it is with the Gospel (God's answer to the sin question)--so it is with any righteous issue, the debate rages on, for, as long as we breath, evil must be challenged.  The sin question, unanswered, is the root form which all evils flow, be it slavery or abortion--anything else for that matter.  

Yes, God must first win the heart, and the culture will follow.  Look at all the Revivals of Religion--that changed [transformed] hearts--and changed culture!  All cultures have had their godly champions--not just the American Charles Finney (1800's) or England's Wesley brothers (1900's)!  

The weapons of prayer--truth and the Word (Ephesians 5, New Testament)--are an unfair advantage over the Culture Of Death, that has no evidence for their belief system--or World-View.  Sad it is that many Christians, not only have not led any one to Christ, few have spoken on the abortion issue!  God can bring Revival--God can transform hearts--God can transform culture! 

We are to give a reason for what we believe--and why we believe it (1 Peter, 3:15, Christian New Testament). 

I urge you, Vanessa, and all others visiting this site--in what ever capacity in life--to join this good fight!  With God's power, we can win it!  With God's power, abortion world wide--can end! 

Until Jesus Christ returns and set up His Theocratic Kingdom, there and then--we must all join in, and continue the debate--for just as the powers of evil, here and now, will not cease--we must not quit! 

Though matters may be settled in our minds--we are still responsible for our neighbors, even if our neighbors are in the womb! 

12/17/07

Rape is a horrible and traumatic event in the life of any woman who has suffered its indignity. It is the forcible act of sexual intercourse against the will of the woman.  Should she become pregnant, not only must she bear the memory of the rape, but she also carries the child of the rapist.  The question, then, is whether or not a woman should abort the baby that is the result of a rape? This is a very difficult question to answer.  After all, it is a highly emotional issue.  Of course, I am a man and cannot possibly relate nor understand what it would mean to be in the place of a woman whose body has been invaded in such a way. I can only speak from what I know and what I believe about the sanctity of life that is derived from God's word.
In my opinion, a baby that is a product of rape should not be killed. It is not the fault of the baby that it has been brought into the world. Why should the life of the baby be sacrificed because of the indignity suffered against the woman?  Yes, I know the rape is horrible and that it is wrong.  I know that the woman has the right of self-protection and emotional security.  But I also know that love is greater than all these things, and few things on earth have greater love than a mother for her child.
I know that some will strongly object and say that my attitude is callous and insensitive to the needs of the woman.  Indeed, a woman impregnated through rape has suffered greatly, and bearing the child would certainly be a reminder of the horrible incident.  The "father" would not support the child and the mother would be left to raise the child on her own.  Without a doubt, the woman gets the raw end of the deal.
It is only natural, then, for a woman to want to protect herself physically, emotionally, and financially by removing from her very body that which has invaded her through rape. I cannot blame a woman for desiring to justify an abortion intellectually and emotionally in this case. But still, in spite of the great indignity against the woman, and in spite of the emotional and financial hardship she would bear in the future, must the child be required to pay for the sin of the rapist? Is it right to kill the child who is not at fault?  Is it right to take the life of someone who has done nothing wrong?  In civilized nations, protection of the innocent is a primary concern.  In the hearts of mothers, love should win out.  Love that sacrifices and gives life, instead of taking it, should be the goal.  Just as Jesus loved us and sacrificed Himself for us so that we might have life, so too should the mother give life to the child.  Is it fair?  No.  Neither was it fair for Jesus to die for us, but He did it anyway.  He showed us what true love really is.
But for those who place no credence in God's word nor the sacrifice of Christ, it all comes down to the persons' values. If a woman considers the life in her womb to have human nature, even though it is the product of rape, then she will be more likely to spare its life. However, if she considers what is alive in her to be nothing more than an invasive parasite, then killing it would be easier to do.
In today's world, sterile medical terms are used to describe the life growing in the womb, thus making it easier to detach oneself emotionally. "Embryo" and "fetus" are clinical words that do not carry emotional baggage. Terms like "baby" and "child," however, do.  Which words do you use?
How can anyone not realize that what is alive in the womb is human in nature? How can anyone so easily dismiss its life?  

That is easy for you to say

Of course, while sitting here in the comfort of my office, it is easy for me to urge women to keep the babies who are the product of rape. After all, I don't have to carry the child, suffer the emotional trauma, or bear the financial burden.  This is true.  The closest I can come to experiencing their situation is to try and imagine what I would do if my wife were raped and impregnated.  Years ago, I decided that if it happened, I would want to raise the child as my own.  I dearly love children and could never simply want to get rid of it.  My wife feels the same way.
Jesus showed me His great love by sacrificing His life for me, a sinner.  I deserve to be judged harshly by Him, yet He is gracious and kind.  So too, I must be gracious and kind in response.  Therefore, I would keep any child given to me and raise him or her as my own, with all my love and dedication....by God's grace.   

C.A.R.M

12/17/2007 

I find your use of the word "faith" within the context of abortion, fascinating, yet, at the same time, troubling. 

Since Darwin's "science," mid 1860's, that is supposed to be the death of God, and the final solution to the Christian question, there has been a religious void . . . and to fill that "gap"--all kinds of religiosity has seeped in.  I see the resurgence of ancient female worship and fertility cults--in the book and movie The Divinci Code--to the earth worship behind the Environmental Movement, in my U.S. culture.  Darwin spoke of origins, that was, is and ever will be beyond the realm of true science--because his "guess," cannot be tested by any measuring device by humans--his "guess" went beyond the limits of time and space.  Interesting, an ancient earth worship (naturalistic) religion--is now Fundamental (naturalistic) Atheism--called "Science." Psalms 14:1, Jewish-Chirstian Old Testament, says "The fool hath said in his heart, there is no God."  

In order to properly worship and make a god out of human reason--one must take a blind leap of "faith," since there is no evidence-based reason in mere human assumptions.  God was there, He created--and man, the creature, was not there.  To speak about matters of origin--to include the definition of life--takes such "faith," that you, RW and others like you, must exercise.  In the Jewish-Christian Old Testament, God asked Job, "Where were you when I laid the foundation of the world?"--where you there, Job?  A rhetorical question (something to think on, that has an obvious answer.) to Job--and to the modern Darwin religiosity.  Sometimes God has to use the absurd to demonstrate the absurd--it is painfully obvious, no human was there! 

You speak of human emotions--yet you take a non-biblical based "faith" and dehumanize your gift from God--and you take a blind leap of "faith," of self worship and human reason--that you made the right "choice" to abort.  That "faith" is not biblical-based, and is the moral equivalent of thanking God that one is an atheist--or asking The Creator God--once again, to bless the pagan god's--that one serves. 

You, RW and I, and anyone else, for that matter--was not there, at the "In the beginning," that Moses wrote of, in the Genesis Account in the Jewish-Christian Bible.  The Culture Of Death, that re-defines life--takes the blind-leap of "faith," re-defines life, within the context of pagan "faith"--and worships "choice." 

I can lay out the biblical argument for life, from God's definitional position, as the Creator God, but only the Spirit of the Living God can change your heart, RW, and the hearts of those in The Culture Of Death, like you. 

Yours is a very chilling "faith," and I hope some one does not consider you less than human, and murder you--and hold the Death Religion that you hold--I have "faith" that I made the right "choice."  May you never have to live in the living hell on earth--that you just made your child go through!

12/13/07

I believe it is OK to abort a pregnancy if it is done VERY early on. For this reason I think a woman should be aware and of her body and be careful when she has sex and if she knows she could be pregnant and doesn't want the baby abort within 2 weeks of conception.  

When I fell pregnant to someone I had been with when I was very lonely and not really interested in and the condom came off when he withdrew I knew it was the right time of the month to fall pregnant. I had a test as soon as I could possibly tell I was pregnant and had an abortion within 2 weeks of intercourse. I told my partner and he told all his friends I could not have possibly known I was pregnant that soon and that I must have been pregnant to someone else and I must have been a slut and gotten pregnant to someone else.

He and his friends could not conceive that I could be that aware of my own reproductive capacity and my own bodily cycle and so he decided I must have fallen pregnant to someone else weeks before. In truth I had not had sex for over a year and I was very aware of my cycle and my ability to conceive. I did not want to abort a baby or even a foetus like your disgusting pictures portray.  

Not all women who abort are unaware of what they are doing. I think you are intimidated by a women's ability to conceive and the power that gives her and you think she should have no choice if she falls pregnant. It takes two to make a baby and the fact that the woman has to carry the baby and go through tremendous physical and emotional trauma through pregnancy only to give it away to adopt to some barren woman who cannot conceive and has no idea what she had gone through is evil and misogynistic.  

I cannot believe that there are people so full of judgment and hate that they will try and tell other people how to live their life. 

Buddhists do not lobby meat eaters to stop murdering animals, why don't you mind your own business. 

I now have two beautiful children with a beautiful father and we provide a loving happy family home. I hate to think what kind of life a child of mine with no father would have had. I believe a child needs a strong family and lots of support not just a guilty powerless mother with no choice. 

Our world is full of references to sex. Advertising, films, magazines telling us we want sex and that it will satisfy us. So, if a woman falls for this and seeks satisfaction this way and then falls pregnant, as is likely, should she be trapped into motherhood or giving up her child for adoption to a family she doesn't even know? I believe that sex education and teaching responsibility, love and respect is the best way to stop unwanted pregnancies and no one can dictate to the unfortunate victim of casual sex what they should or should not do.

Kirra

    G'day Kirra,

    You started out sweet and innocent and then became a raging monster while all the while pathetically and immaturely screaming, "It's not my fault, I'm a victim"

    Those disgusting photos aren't ours - they're yours. If not for people like you, there wouldn't be anything to photograph. . . hmm, something to think about. You advocate the murder of little children - you just don't like to see the results of what you advocate. . . Pull your head out of the sand!

    You say it's evil to accept the responsibility of the result of your fornication and to let the child live by giving him or her to one of the many families who can't conceive and are on a long waiting list for adoption? Do you really believe that it isn't evil to massacre that innocent child instead?

    Do you really believe it's better to kill a child just because you don't have a man in your life? Isn't that a bit sexist? If your husband were to suddenly die, would you still see that as grounds for killing your two younger children also? Why not? You do say it's unacceptable that a child not have a father.

    "No one can dictate to the unfortunate victim of casual sex". Yes, I've quoted you.

    Lady, you're not the unfortunate victim of casual sex, your eldest child was - and it cost him or her their life.

                                                                                                                                        Peter Erbacher

Dear Kirra, 

    If the advertisements, books, films and the references they contain are as bothersome to you as they are to me, don't buy the books, don't see the films and don't be referred by what you may see in them.

    How are you going to tell your two beautiful children that you might have killed them as you might have done to their sister or brother, because you "Believe it is OK to abort a pregnancy" whenever it is done?  Kirra, women don't fall pregnant; Mothers become pregnant.  Your falling was a failure to respect yourself enough to wait for the husband that would respect you with the dignity you so wonderfully deserve.

    It takes three to "Make a baby: Father, Mother and God who created them both; and Kirra, to offer an untimely presence in your life to a family unable to pro-create their own is the very antithesis of misogynism, but to demand that it be killed for money comes closer to it. 

    I cannot believe that there are people so full of judgment and hate that they will try and tell other people, unborn ones, that they cannot live their lives.

    Since I am not a Buddhist, it is permissible for me to have an opinion and voice it. God bless you and your family.

12/5/2007

I think abortion should always be a legal option.No politicians will make decision for my body and my life. I am pro-choice (whatever the choice may be ). Each women should be able to decide what is best for her specific situation. If men could have babies, we wouldn't even be having this conversation. Abortions would have been leagal since day1.            

11/27/07

I am 31 years old. I had an abortion a year ago. It was a very hard thing to go through. I received zero support from my boyfriend. One thing that is hard, is that you can never be completely sure that you made the right decision. But I do believe deep in my heart, that I did do what was right. It's a tricky subject. You can't even tell some of your co-workers, because your afraid how they may judge you. Or if someone who doesn't know, brings up the subject of abortion, what do you do, but say nothing. It is something I will live with for the rest of my life. All I can do is make smarter choices, with the people I date. And make sure that this wasn't in vain. It is something that changes you. But it doesn't have to defeat you either. It is a grieving process. It is a loss. But for me, I have to be strong and have faith that I made the right choice. And I am happy to say, that I had a choice. 

RW 

RW, your boyfriend did not support you because you made the decision to kill his child.  This sounds harsh, but this is the truth.  No one is saying that having a child was right for you at that time'but 'planned' children only happen about ' of the time.  No, we're not trying to make you feel bad in any way'for you certainly have had a range of emotions in the past year to keep your mind busy.  We're only saying that you should at least accept the truth about your choice.  Only then can true healing begin. 

AbortionTV

Dear RW,
 
Isn't it true that had birth for your baby been chosen; even birth and adoption, the loving option, you would not have written a letter for all to see about the difficulty of knowing you made the right decision?   I am happy you had a choice, too, but not at the expense you caused your baby to pay of never having the same happiness.  When you realize one day that another choice should have been made, please don't hesitate to seek and find the help that may be necessary to learn that God loves you.  May God bless you with peace in this blessed Season celebrating His Son's birth.
--
Sincerely, Matthew

P. S. I am Pro-Life-choice. Some choices are great, but Life is a GIFT and the sine qua non of all our choices.

11-13-07 

my appointment was at 11 today.  I found out that i was pregnant a few weeks ago and i  fought with myself on what i should do. i am 27 and already a single mother. My sons father passed when i was 7 weeks pregnant so i had to go through 9 months alone with him. i have been dating my current boyfriend for a little over a year and we just were not ready. he already has a child himself. without going into great detail.. it was horrible. the pain was way more than i thought it would be! i was told that i would be numb and that i would not feel a thing by friends. this was a lie. my only comfort is the doctor and nurse's were really understanding an nice. im cramping like hell and this monster pad i am wearing is not very comfortable. i feel like i have done the right thing now but im sure that my feeling will change once things set in. im always going to wonder the sex or what my baby would have been like. my son would have loved to have a brother or sister. i just dont know if i did the right thing. 

Anon

Dear Anon, 

13 Nov. 2007

It pains me to read the same evil arguments from the Culture Of Death. The same old lies, from the god they serve--Satan!  

If it is Death they want, it will be Death they will get, except it will be on God's terms, not theirs!  Those that worship death will end up with their fallen god in the lake of fire!  I pray that the arguments from the Culture Of Life penetrates the evil hears of the Culture Of Death--for it is only the Spirit of the living God, that can change the evil heart. As a young boy, in 1973, I saw graphic pictures of the Culture Of Death's religious works--and those images are burned into my mind, forever!

The same sick, stupid old arguments and the same old evil reasons . . . the Culture Of Death is both mentally and spiritually sick--even if it is not a recognized illness! Keep up the Good Work, Culture Of Life! Culture Of Death--you will face God! 

10/31/07

Well, today is Halloween. the ickiest day on the calendar. Why don't we have some REAL horror? Have George tiller give a tour of his clinic.

Maybe even a tour of his crematorium, then we could all see his victims. And then we would all be truly horrified by a real live monster. Just a thought// he is so evil, i do not see how he can look himself in the mirror every morning do you??

Anon

No, we do not as well.

10/12/07

I am sad to see such a biased source of information used as a reference for SO many people. I study at university and have spoken in great detail with many authorities on medical science and many of your statistics and data are skewed heavily to prove your view. Any educated individual knows that statistics can me manipulated to prove almost any point of view. 

Under your definition of human life, taking many form of contraceptives would be murdering a human. Several forms of contraceptives allow for conception but do not allow for the embryo to join to the uterus lining. Abortion, no? 

You say that the morning after pill is ok but if the egg and sperm have met and fertilised then its Abortion, no? 

The concept of judging something on its POTENTIAL is ok but is flawed! My stem cell are capable of regrowing myself in my genetic entirety but if I remove them from myself it is not considered Murder, abortion or even a potential human. 

A site who claims to be a site for the supply of information should not be this biased otherwise it is verging on mistruth and deception. 

I have many more arguments for and against but I will first wait to see if you will post this before I waist my time. 

Arron
Australian Uni Student 

The fact that you believe our statistics to be skewed is indicative that you have already been hopelessly swayed toward pro-abortionisim.  Our stats are simply a statement of truth'what you do with this truth is up to you.  Our section on contraception is also clear:  many of the methods are abortive.  This is not even debated among the medical community.  As always, we post letters of opposition as a contrast to the truth herein.  If it's not too late for you'try to keep and open mind and revisit the sections herein. There is much to be learned if you only allow the truth to enter. 

AbortionTV

G'day Arron, 

Why did you sign your name 'Australian Uni Student'? Are you trying to impress us? Perhaps you think your opinions have more clout? Forget your indoctrination! Start thinking for yourself. You and all pro-aborts are stuck on stupid and you don't even know it. Just like pigs don't know pigs stink. 

Who cares for your arguments. It's pretty simple, you're either killing a person, or you're not. As far as uni goes, who gives a stuff? The creator of this incredible site has more degrees than a thermometer. Not only that, he can think for himself. You should try it, you may surprise yourself.

                                                                                                Peter Erbacher

                                                                                                Australian Real World

You appear to take great pride in the fact that you are at university, but first I'd like to point out that at the end of your post, you use "waist" which is a part of the body.  I believe the spelling you need is "waste".  So, continuing your rant with comments about "an educated individual" seems a little odd to me. 

Now, are you trying to make us believe that other sites on abortion don't have a bias?  Are you trying to pretend that people who discuss this person to person don't have a bias?  There is NO fence riding on this issue. 

You mention authorities on medical science - and that's great, I'm sure.  But have you discussed biology with them?  Biology dictates that contnuation of the species leads to pregnancy.  Biology shows that a fertilized egg has it's own genetic code thereby being it's own person. 

Statistics can bce skewed by either side.  Do you honestly believe that pro-aborts don't skew their stats??  I would hope that as "an educated individual" you would understand that fact. 

As for you removing own stem cells, that's not murder, because you've killed yourself - that's suicide. 

This site is an information source.  It is a source of information on the cons of abortion.  It would seem foolish for a anti-abortion site to try to provide pluses for having an abortion, don't you think?  That would be like "Mothers Against Drunk Driving" having ads for Budweiser!! 

HQ

Dear Arron:

No, it is sad your education does not let you know the reality of events  that the stats here prove are true or that your bias obviously rejects. 

 Arron, The barrier method doesn't murder, but if The Pill is taken by a woman who then engages in Intercourse with a man and conception is achieved the new life begun then very likely will not implant in her uterus to continue a normal development leading to birth and a life similar to the ones you and I have. Instead, it will be flushed down the toilet.  The Pill or other form of chemical contraceptive, acting as an abortifacient, will have caused the child to be aborted. Some call this murder. I don't know, but the child has been killed. We are destined to meet him/her.  

The presentation of Plan B (Morning after contraceptive) is not,  "OK,"  Arron, but a fact of life to be avoided as the Black Plague, but it is designed to cause an abortion.    

Adult Stem Cells are no longer potential  therapies.   Something that is flawed is by definition not OK, but your rhetoric is a failed attempt to make a point.    If you remove one of your own adult stem cells, depending on how you do it, your death  may result.  I suggest having trained medical professionals do it as is done often in successful attempts that cure diseases to heart muscles, and for other purposes.
--
Peace, Matthew

P. S. I am Pro-Life-choice. Some choices are great,  but Life is a GIFT and the sine qua non of all our choices.

Arron, I don't think you spent much time viewing the many different links provided within AbortionTV.  Look again and you will find references from many sources, including abortion providers such as Planned Parenthood.  We have also cited the Guttmacher Institute, a very well-known non-profit organization for abortion "rights."  Yes, statistics can be manipulated to prove any point of view.  Do you think only organizations opposing abortion are capable of such manipulation?  Or, is it only relevant when not agreement with your opinion?

There are many abortaficient types of birth control, including the birth control and morning after pills.  My point of view is a fertilized embryo is human, but is not viable until it has implanted in the uterine wall.  Personally, I have no issue with birth control, but respect others do not agree.  However, once an embryo attaches itself within the womb, becoming a viable pregnancy,  I do consider artificial termination, i. e., medical abortion, immoral.  Certainly, there are circumstances which abortion is necessary, particularly to save maternal life.  However, less than 1% of abortions occur for these reasons.  The vast majority are for nothing more than convenience or perceived crisis on the part of the mother.  Many women would opt out of abortion if they had a support network in place.  Been there, done that. 

Using your statement of judging something based on potential as flawed, this same argument could be applied to anything.  Future employers will be judging your potential after graduation.  Now, you are merely a student, continuously learning, maturing, and developing into a potential professional. Everything has potential to be something; even a rock can become the cornerstone of a building. There is no one point from conception to death which humans stop developing.
So, when then, is it okay to take a life for the sake of another's convenience? 

There are no mis-truths or deception on our part.  The deception, which you've bought into, is that terminating the life of an unborn child, whether for convenience or a birth defect, is somehow justifiable.  Pro-abortion organizations go to great lengths and spend millions to convince you just that.  Since Margaret Sanger to present day, they have waged a very successful propaganda war to convince society the unborn are merely "products of conception." 

I have many arguments to answer yours.  I'll be happy to debate you via e-mail in a respectful manner.  If there is anything within this site you deem deceptive, please bring it to my attention.  I will provide a rebuttal to whichever information you have an issue with. 

10/11/07

First off I would like to state that I'm pro-choice and also childfree. What one woman decides to do may not be the best decision for another.

I was 27 years old when I chose to terminate my unwanted pregnancy,and it was the best choice I made considering the circumstances.  I was very much in love with the man I was dating who had gotten me pregnant but we were not ready to become parents. 

I had been taking birth control pills since I was 17 years old but had gone off of them at the age of 25 due to high blood pressure but I was always meticulous about taking them and not missing any days. When I first missed my period in February of 2003 I had this inkling that something was wrong. Well..when I took 3 home pregnancy tests and they all turned up positive there was no escaping the fact that I was pregnant.  My boyfriend at the time and I talked out all options and decided that abortion was the best thing.  

I got to the clinic on March 1 and was told to come back in 2 weeks because they couldn't find the fetus (or my uterus for that matter because it was small),so I went back on March 15 and paid the $400. I sat in the waiting room watching all these young girls and women sitting with their boyfriends and crying...I was there by myself being that my mother didn't approve of my decision and left the clinic and would be back to pick me up. I didn't mind because it gave me plenty of time to mull over what I was doing.  When the nurse called my name I got up and went into the room. The doctor was very professional and told me to put my feet in the stirrups,then told me he found the fetus. I breathed a sigh of relief thinking "good I don't have to come back again and get the surgical abortion" (I opted to have the non surgical abortion since I was only 5-6 weeks by then). I was told to go into another office where the nurse gave me pill to take orally then explained that I had to go home and insert 4 pills deep into my vagina to expel the fertilized egg. I asked the nurse if I could see the sonogram (I'm a morbid person by nature) to get a piece of mind that I wasn't "killing a baby". The nurse told me "sure" and I saw the sono,to me it looked no bigger than a golf ball. She said it was just a sac and there was no reason to feel any guilt,but I didn't anyway. 

After I got home and inserted the other pills,I started to bleed profusely,very much like a severe menstrual cycle with twice the cramps!  My boyfriend wasn't allowed at the clinic with me but he called me every hour on the hour when I was home and was very attentive. Do I regret my decision? NO! I'm now 31 years old and childfree...I never felt like I was pregnant and I certainly didn't have that "glow" that pregnant women have. Then again I lack the maternal instinct. Please do not bash the prochoice people,we just have different views and not all of us are "baby killers".  Thank you for letting me speak my piece. 

Diana 

Diana, with all due respect, you weren't ready to become parents'but your child was 'ready' to start his/her life.  The truth is that about ' of all pregnancies are unplanned.  Should ' of us not 'be here' because of this?  Further you obviously weren't ready to become parents (by your own admission), but other couples were ready to become parents for your child.  Yes, we know it's not an easy decision to give a baby for adoption'but it's not 'about' the parents'it's 'about' the life of a child.   

Finally, we're not here to 'bash' anyone.  We're only here to present the truth'no matter how hard it might hurt. 

AbortionTV

     G'day Diana,

    So you're pro-choice are you? You're not anti-anything? . . .  So you're not anti-rape, right, because you're 'pro-choice'? Obviously, you're also not anti-paedophilia, anti-racism, anti-terrorist, anti-domestic violence, anti-wife bashing, etc? I mean, you are 'pro-choice', right?

    You think we shouldn't 'bash' pro-aborts because you have different views? By that logic you think rape, paedophilia, etc, is acceptable because these people may have 'different views' to you?

    Just keep telling yourself you don't regret killing your own flesh and blood, and you'll continue to believe it, for a time. But, sooner or later, the truth is going to hit you hard. It's going to knock you over like a Mack Truck.         How selfish of you to write in trying to incite others to kill their children also.

    I wasn't ready to be a parent either, but I lost the right to choose the moment I had sex.

10/10/07

To the creators of this website,

When I was 15, I became pregnant. I was in private (Christian) school, my boyfriend and I were straight-A students, etc. My boyfriend really pressured me to have an abortion. I had never thought either way about abortion or how I felt about it. This was years ago. I looked up abortion online, and I found your website. It was the first time I really saw the facts about abortion and I was horrified. I refused to get an abortion. I had the baby, and he moved out of state to live with his (physician and "Christian") father and he dumped us. My family was supportive and I was able to finish high school and graduated with honors. I am now about to graduate from college with a bachelor's degree in nursing! I am married to a wonderful man who my son now knows as "daddy" and I have a beautiful, genius six year old son that is the biggest blessing of my life. I genuinely don't know what my life would be without him.

I get scared to think what could have happened if I didn't find your website those years ago, and just went along with the pressure from my boyfriend. I pray every night and thank God for showing me the way to go and that I made the right decision. I wanted to thank you all for caring so much about this.

I volunteered for a pro-life clinic in high school after I had my son, and I have met so many people in random ways that I find out are pregnant and they just need someone to talk to, and then I will see them a year later- with a baby! Thank you so much, for inspiring me to help other people and save baby's lives.

As a nurse, I wanted to go into this profession in order to help girls make the right decision when under pressure, much like me. I don't know what to do. I know this is random, but I know you all feel strongly about this. What way do you think a nurse could help in the general pro-life effort?? I know this is what I need to do with my life, but I don't know where to go now.

Thank you again- for my time, for my son, for EVERYTHING.

Lindsey Parker 

Lindsey, thank you for sharing your touching success story.  You are living proof that an unwanted pregnancy can be a true blessing for all'including the preservation of an individual's life.  Further, you have used your experience as a springboard to help others in an altruistic way.  Please send along a photo of your child when possible, and we will include it along with your letter at 'Aborted Abortions.' 

AbortionTV

  G'day Lindsey,

    Good for you! Thank you for sending in your story. As you know, there are a lot of air-heads that write in, (just look around us). There are many ways you can help. On the pages at this link, you will get a few ideas.

                               http://www.abortiontv.com/Misc/aus_bethany.htm

10/10/07

Your site is ridiculous. People know what abortion is. As long as a fetus/zygote is in a female's body, its her right, and her right alone to decide whether or not she wants to continue with the pregnancy or terminate it. And im glad Abortion is legal. If it isn't a female's right to decide then who's is it?  

Its not a matter of whether or not a fetus/zygote has rights. Its alive, its made of living tissue, but its more of a 'who's right do you value more' type of situation. And I have more sympathy for the female standing before me, rather then a being that hasen't entered the world yet and has lived life. Sure, its probably selfish, but even so, its still a females right. Everyone should have the right over their own body. The fetus is inside hers, so thats the end of it. Doesn't matter what anyone else thinks. 
A female has the right over her body before shes pregnant and after. Being pregnant shouldn't mean she loses that right.  Regardless of whatever bullsh** religion anyone belives in, or whatever your morals may be, as long as it involves a female losing the right over her body, your wrong. 

Why dont you guys change the name of your site to something like "#1 Pro-Life Site" or something with the term "Pro-Life" in the title? No site that supports one side of an argument is the complete truth. Your all bias. Do everyone a favor and give your pathetic site a proper title instead of the misleading one you have now. 

S.

Not probably, it is selfish.  In fact, it's the ultimate selfish act'whereby one chooses to kill another simply out of personal convenience. 

AbortionTV

   G'day S.

    Your silly little rant of gibberish is the sort I always find most amusing. Using terms like "fetus / zygote" may fool you into believing you're some type of intellectual. The truth is, it just shows you as one of the many who have been brainwashed / indoctrinated by an institution which tells you what to think.

    We can play semantics 'till the cows come home, but in the end, you'll discover that a baby is still a baby; And "terminating a pregnancy" is a fancy way of describing "murdering a baby". Of course, so-called 'educated' people, such as yourself, are just too bloody stupid to understand something so simple.

    Obviously, like many 'educated' people, you're also so stupid as to think that a child is part of a woman's body. Since a baby is either a boy or a girl, you must believe that 50% of pregnant women have a penis! Yeah, pretty stupid, eh? That aside, Miss or Mr Intellectual, anyone with a basic understanding of DNA knows that a baby isn't part of a Mother's body.

    As for religion, your views are based on the religion of the evolution theory. Yes, it is a religion, and it requires more faith than all of the others put together. Just look up the Second Law of Thermodynamics. If you want to know the truth, you can get it here:

                                                     http://www.creationontheweb.com/

    Incidentally, S, your name, what does it stand for? Stupid . . . or something else?

                                                                                                                                      Peter Erbacher

10/10/07

S.

With that reasoning process, another time and another place--you could add another S, for Hitler's SS.  Hope you are proud and satisfied with your stance--Oh person of dust with feet of clay. 

10/03/2007

    There are some who visit this site that are void of basic qualities that make people human. These are the creatures who believe that plants and animals, such as swine and rats, have more of a 'right to life' than a little boy or girl.

    These people should consider having done to them, that which they are adamant be done to unborn children, or, in some cases, children who are in the process of being born, or even those who have already been born. Yeah, sick isn't it?

    In fact, it's pure bloody evil.

    To those who are 'with child'; Firstly, congratulations on being a Mother. Secondly, you don't want to be an 'ex' Mother.

    I'm not going to preach, I'll let Madonna do that. You just keep your baby!

                            http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_UvnaV-Hw5Y 

September 4, 2007 

This is probably going to be one of the longer submissions to your website, but please read everything if you have the time.

I'm sure there is probably someone out there like I am, that is one of the main reasons for this submission, but I also have an abortion story to go along with it. I have been on both sides of the abortion fence, and actually as of right now I still am. I seem to go back and forth every day about whether I'm Pro-Choice or Pro-Life. 

I am a very well educated, 33 year-old college graduate with a well-paying job and a degree in Computer Science. I became interested in the abortion topic in my high school debate class when it was the topic of a debate.  I was not on the debate team, I was actually a judge. However, I did not research it for several years.  But when I did decide to do the research, which was 10 years ago (3 years after my personal abortion), I have probably visited almost every abortion website, blog and fact site on the web. Sometimes the facts are different, but most importantly almost all the stories are different.  I have read stories of regret and stories of relief.  To kind of give you an idea of how my opinion goes back and forth, here are some of the points I seem to consider often:  

Rape/Incest Cases.  While I know the facts state these are few and far between, I do know that these cases do happen. Sometimes I feel that a woman should never have to have a child that was conceived in an act of disgust, such as rape or incest, but then I feel that the woman should choose the option of adoption. Then I talk to a woman that works in my office that is in the adoption process, and it has taken what seems like forever.  I believe almost 2 years now.  Her husband and herself are very well qualified individuals with plenty of love and material possessions to give a child.  I then wonder if the foster homes the children awaiting adoption are placed in, are foster homes that actually have people who will molest/abuse the child/baby. That's when my mind changes again, and I feel no child should ever have to go through molestation/abuse.  The list goes on and on in these cases. 

Not enough money/Enough children already/Not ready for children/Not convenient.  While the facts state that these account for almost all abortions, again, I am stuck in the middle. If a teenage girl is acting irresponsibly because her parents never had the "talk" with her and winds up in a situation where she engages in sexual activies and becomes pregnant, should she have to have the child? What if she doesn't know she is pregnant, because she doesn't actually know what pregnancy is? What if she thinks the child isn't alive, isn't growing or that it will "just go away"? Then I wonder whether to blame the parents or the school system for not educating these teens on this topic so she would never have to be in this situation. I have several cousins who are teenagers, both sexes, and at one point in time, I have asked each one what their take on sex/abortion/birth control is? I know that this isn't considered a survey or analysis by any means, but this is the answers I got.  Every single male cousin except one (exact number of male cousins - nine, aged 12-19) said in almost the same words, "Every one of my guy friends in school has to get laid to fit in by one those girls.. You know those girls that will do that.. I guess you can call them hoes..If we have a mess-up our parents will pay for an abortion because we are too young."  As I was picking my jaw up from hitting the floor, I went on to ask them what exactly they considered a "hoe".  They said, "You know, those girls who will give it up to any guy, in all kinds of positions and will usually go down on me."  I am sorry for the languange, but this is the talk of most teens nowadays.  My permission to blank out any words not appropriate.  That's when I get back to the top and think "irreponsible girls"? What about the guy involved? Shouldn't he also take 50% of the blame, and not just the part to come up with money for an abortion if they have an accident? As for the female cousins, I asked each one if they were virgins (they trust me completely, and knew I would never tell their parents if they didn't want me to), and I asked their take on abortion/birth control.  Four of the five female cousins (aged 11-20), said "No, we aren't virgins, we have had several partners. We are pretty much scared to talk about sex/birth control with our parents, but I'm sure if I became pregnant they would help me with an abortion." Then two of them stated one of the most disturbing things I have heard in a long time. And I quote, "Most of the girls in my school who are having sex have started having anal sex just so they don't get pregnant. We also like sex with girls and guys and oral sex."  Again, my jaw dropped and I started to give them a long speech about AIDS/HIV and other STD's, but they just didn't seem interested anymore.  Diseases don't happen to "girls" like them seemed to be their mentality.   

Back to my opinion, as educated as I am about abortion and the aftermath, I am more confused than ever.  I get one opinion in my head and then throw up the other side of the argument, I just cannot decide.  Yes, I have seen every single picture of aborted children (yes, I do believe they are children), and it is absolutely terrible as to what the methods of abortion do to the them.  Ripping them limb from limb or sucking them into a vaccum is horrible.  Seeing a child in an underdeveloped country or from a very poor family in the United States that is barefooted, very dirty and very malnourished is also horrible.  I have not ever talked to one of these children, so I am not sure how they feel about their life, whether they feel as if they are better off dead or never having been born. I did, however, have the pleasure of speaking/typing with a teenager who has Celebral Palsy along with a number of sensory diseases, and her response to her take on life is that does wish that she had never been born.  I asked her why and her repsonse was that she had been through so much in her life - with all the doctors and teasing that she hated life all together. She said she has never got to enjoy it because she is in pain and agony all the time. So with that conversation, I was stuck on my opinion of parents who find out their children have a disease or disability and whether or not they should abort.  

I'm not looking for anyone to try to sway my choice in one way or the other, I was simply stating all that because like I said in the beginning, I assume there is someone else out there that has the same problem I do. However, all opinions are very welcome. 

Now, on to my abortion story. I DO regret my abortion.  I was 20 years old and living with my soon to be husband, who was 26.  I was working on my college degree and he already had a well paying job. We were already planning our wedding, and I was on the pill, which I took everyday like clockwork. We also used the rythym method (which I know isn't reliable), but since I was on the pill, I figured that the combination would be okay.  My period came every month at the same time, and I kept it written down in a book. I noticed a change in my body, and even before my period was late, I went and bought a pregnancy test, and sure enough it was positive.  I then started getting severe morning sickness. I would throw up every morning around 6:30, try to eat, get sick again, go to college, throw up there, come home in the afternoon and throw up about 8 times before I went to class.  I immediately told my boyfriend, he told me it was my choice, and either way he was there to support me.  I know now that he wanted the child, but he wanted me to have my own choice. I didn't want to wait very long to make a decision, because I didn't want to be any further along than what I was. I live in a small town, and we don't have any Planned Parenthood's, we only have one abortion clinic and it's about two hours away from my home.  I called the clinic to get some information. They basically explained the procedure, asked me if I would want to be under twilight sedation and how far along I was.  I told them around 5 to 6 weeks, and they asked me if I wanted to make an appointment or call back.  I told them I would call back.  However, despite my close relationship to my parents, I chose not to tell them.  My mother had me when she only seventeen, and her and my father had a difficult time raising me. That is why I am so much older than my cousins, because I was born several years before they were. I'm not sure if I was afraid they would try to convince me one way or the other or if I was afraid they would be ashamed of me, because they would think I was following in my mother's footsteps.  I still haven't told them to this day. After a week of doing nothing but thinking about my choice (and basically putting all my schoolwork off), I decided at that time abortion was the best and most logical option so I could finish school, get a well paying job and then have a child.  I called the clinic, made the appointment for a Monday, told my boyfriend and he immediately scheduled off work so he could be with me.  I cried the entire night before and wondered if I made the right decision.  I slept on the couch for fear that I would keep my boyfriend awake, little did I know, he was awake the whole night as well.  My appointment was for 8:00 a.m., and I was ready to go at 5:30.  We drove to the clinic and checked in. There were no kind of protesters, and to this day there never have been because like I said, this town is so small, people just basically don't address the subject frequently.  I filled out a ton of paperwork and the nurse finally called my name. My boyfriend had tears in his eyes, and kissed me on the cheek as I left.  The nurse did several things and talked to me all the while.  She put me in a room and the actual doctor came in a few minutes later.  Although, I do not think this is common, the doctor himself explained the procedure and did the counseling session. He definitely did not try to convince me one way or the other, and he did ask me about adoption. However, I was under the impression a separate counselor do this. I then went to have an ultrasound to find out exactly how far along I was.  They started the ultrasound and the tech looked kind of puzzled. She asked how far along I thought I was, and I said around 6 to 7 weeks. There was an image of child, but he/she was not moving and there was no heartbeat at all.  A second ultrasound tech and the doctor came into confirm this. The child was already dead. They asked me if I wanted to miscarry naturally or I wanted to go ahead with the abortion.  I didn't think I could handle seeing all the blood, and possibly seeing the child, so I told them to proceed. The very very strange thing about this clinic is they did not collect any sort of payment beforehand.  They waited until it was over with.  I often wonder what if someone went in there without enough money and had the procedure and wasn't able to pay.  Anyway, an anesthesiologist came in and started an IV. I do not remember anything. I did not feel anything and I did not see anything.  I woke up in a recovery room with my boyfriend crying. I waited for a hour and the nurse checked me again. All the while, the staff was excellent if I could say the least.  I was then ready to leave and my boyfriend paid the fee as we were leaving. I did not bleed any or have any kind of complications afterwards. I went back 2 weeks later for a checkup and to start my new birth control. However, I immediately started having regrets for not letting nature take its course. I felt so guilty over having the abortion I did go into a state of depression for a few months.  I cried and was very moody the whole time.  I do think about it every time that day of the year comes.  It is also very strange that women who say they do not regret their abortion, still remember it vividly.  They do not remember what they had for dinner a week ago, but they do remember an abortion.  I married my boyfriend a few years later, and we have been together ever since then.  We did have a few problems because of the abortion, but we always made it through.  Now, I do want children and am very ready, although we are not trying yet. I want one of my own and am also considering adopting from another country.  

Thank you for your website, and while there are a few things that are not up-to-date, such as your statistics page, I do find it very informative, and have been coming here for many many years, and will continue to do so.  I'm not sure why I decided to write in tonight and not years ago, but I hope you understand there are people out there like me. Strange, but true. Again, thank you, and thank you all for your honest responses.  I do respect your opinions, and wish that I could also have a one-sided opinion on abortion.  Maybe one day I will. 

Thank you for your time,

Bethany  

Bethany, thank you for a powerful letter.  Our stats page is actually up-to-date, as available statistics lag several years behind.  This is primarily because there are no regulations requiring providers to release information on the number of abortions they perform. 

AbortionTV

Dear Bethany,

First, I am sorry for your pain over the loss of your child.  There are resources to help, if you are so inclined, our resources can direct you to these.  You are not alone in your grief for your child. 
I understand "sitting on the fence."  I have done it many times myself.  Even though I am staunchly pro-life, I do question many things in this world of ours.  Children seem to suffer the most.  But, human suffering is largely due to our cruelty.  Every problem in the world can usually be traced to corruption, greed, and the ugliness of the human heart.  That said, people are also capable of great love, compassion, and beauty.  I do believe that children are innocent and should be cherished.  No child should be held responsible for his parent's faults, including the unborn.
I'm a foster/adoptive mother of six children.  I did want to address your comment regarding adoption.  There are many facets to adopting a child.  The fact your co-worker has waited so long may be in part due to that couple's expectations.  Are they seeking a Caucasian child?  Do they expect a closed adoption?  What are their expectations of a birth mother?  Are they listed only with one agency?
If open to race and/or special needs, that wait could be cut in half.  My children are African-American and biracial.  Our first adoption took only six weeks after our home study was completed.  My son was a newborn.  One of my daughter's was 14 months old.  My husband and I successfully adopted two healthy biracial children, a 2-year-old and his newborn sister, from the foster system.  Benjamin was legally free.  "Evangeline" was just freed for adoption.  Still another, Jaya, was adopted from foster care in another state.  Each of the latter three adoptions was little/no-cost to my family and my children receive a subsidy to help our family.  There is a $10,000 federal tax credit for adoption, including failed adoptions.
Foster parents are carefully screened and trained to provide care to the children in the system.  We are fingerprinted.  We have to have routine medical exams, TB and STD tests, as well as federal/state criminal background checks.  It varies state to state, but has become more rigorous and strict.  My state requires six hours of training yearly, and that will soon increase.  Additionally, my home is inspected by social workers routinely.  The fire marshal is also required to visit prior to licensing, and I have to have a minimum of three fire detectors, as well as other safety equipment.  The children in my care are not allowed sleep in any bed but their own.  To date, I don't know of a single instance of abuse/molestation by a foster parent in my area.
I can assure you, most foster parents are thoroughly screened.  The bad stories in the press are usually cases in which DSS failed to do their job or screening failed.  There's always a bad apple, somewhere.  The vast majority of us are interested in helping the children, nothing more.  Adoptive and foster parents go through more hurdles than anyone to become parents and have to do more than biological parents to have a family. 
I hope your friends will soon become a family.

Regards,

Eleanor Iadonisi
AbortionTV Volunteer

I read your post and wanted to comment.  I understand you're not looking for someone to change your mind - I 'm not trying to do that.  I just have comments for you. 

First - you say you're riding the fence and that you argue with yourself back and forth.  I think there are quite a few people who go back and forth - for whatever reason, maybe they don't have all the information or whatever.  Maybe it's a situational issue.  But, I happen to be pro-life and I'd like to tell you why. 

When I was in my teens (I don't remember exactly how old) I asked about abortion - what it was and why it was bad.  Now, my Mom (in all her wisdom) explained that it is removing an unborn baby before it's ready to be born.  She gave me no leading (I don't feel).  I was horrified and asked how the baby could live and she said the baby couldn't.  At that very second, I became pro-life and have never swayed in my stance.  For it can't be a situational issue. 

You mention cases of rape and/or incest.  Most people who are conflicted about this issue usually do eventually.  Again, here is my stance:  When a woman is in jail and going to be executed, but is pregnant, the execution is postponed until after she gives birth.  This has been the case thru most of history - with a few exceptions for "witches".  Why, some may ask, do they wait??  Well, because the idea is to execute the person(s) guilty and a baby is in no way guilty of it's mother's crimes.  We, however do not extend that same thought process to a child conceived from a rape.  The thought process seems to be that it would be better to take this innocent life than to give this life an opportunity.  Is it fair that a woman who gets pregnant from rape be "forced" to see this face every day for the rest of her life?  Well, that seems to me to be a personal question.  But, studies that I've read show that women who have an abortion after being raped feel doubly violated, and women who give birth feel healing.  They feel they have done something beautiful with the filth thrust on them.  I'm not saying keep the baby.  I think that is a personal decision.  But give that child the opportunity at life that they deserve as they are also innocent of that filth.  As for incest, again the studies I've read show that the girls are relieved as it shines a light on the abuse being forced on them. 

Your next paragraph is all about selfish reasons.  (Hold on while I get BACK on my soap box.)  If you're old enough to have sex, you should be old enough to accept the consequences.  The point of sex is to further the species.  I'm not suggesting that we go back to the very old way of thinking that no one should enjoy sex - but the point is not the pleasure.  The point is to get pregnant.  If you take a crayon and rub it across paper, are you surprised to see a mark left behind?  No.  Why?  The crayon did what it is designed to do - leave a mark.  Apply this thought process to sex.  Sex is designed to make someone pregnant.  This doesn't seem to be rocket science to me. 

As for your nieces and nephews - well, I don't know what to say.  This is a generation of kids who think oral sex isn't sex.  They use sex to fit in with the rest of the kids.  Everyone is so afraid of being thought a virgin that they will do anything to rid themselves of that "stigma".  And, I'm sorry for it.  I'm terrified that my daughters will think this same way - I can see peer pressure at play already with my 7 year old. 

Next, you talk about people with disabilities.  I'm sorry you've run across someone who wishes she had never been born.  I can honestly say my life has been greatly enriched on several separate occasions by those same people who would be thrown aside so casually.  I have a friend who has Cerebral Palsey.  This man is very badly handicapped.  You have to concentrate very hard to understand what he says.  He can't really write, he has to type with a pencil in his mouth.  This is a person who could rail at the unjustness of his life.  But this man is SO happy.  He can't use a glass to drink without a straw.  He will chase a single pea around his plate for 40 minutes to catch it - and DO NOT offer to help!!  He is the complete opposite of your person.  I love this man so much.  He came to my wedding - I have him on tape with a straw in his mouth waving it up and down in time to the music.  He dropped the straw back in his glass and smiled and said "I'm conducting!"  He wrote a book - it took him 5 years.  This man is an awesome friend and an inspiration to me.  Tossing him aside because of his diability would be a horrible injustice. 

And last - your abortion story.  First, I'm sorry you chose to abort.  But, I'll tell you something that very few people know.  I was in your shoes.  Not the deciding to abort part - all the rest.  I had a hard time getting pregnant the first time (6.5 years) so was surprised to find myself pregnant a second time.  When I was about 11 weeks into it, I started spotting, and was sent for an ultrasound.  The tech looked SO hard to make sure there really wasn't a heartbeat.  She was as kind as she could be when telling me.  But, had to get a doc to verify her findings.  The guy was a super jerk, but confirmed her findings - I was pregnant with a corpse was the only thought running thru my mind.  My doctor recommended a D&C.  I had it done.  Now, I have to tell you that I don't think of that as an abortion.  My cousin called me to "remind" me that I was having an abortion.  I've chosen to believe otherwise - and here is why:  abortion ends a life that is in progress.  My baby's life had already ended - I had the procedure to begin my healing.  I didn't stop the heartbeat - that was done already.  And that thought process is MY choice! 

8/20/07

My sons girlfriend is 7 months preg and now dose not want the baby - he does but she'd rather not have it or give it away. I agreed to help or take the baby , but she said no , she is talking about seaweead stick abortions and sniffing pinesole- i dont know what to do -my son is in jail.

broken hearted grandmother

any advise would be welcomed

socail services just said it was not against the law to give a baby away since she states she will not call anyone and say she don't know who the father is, and just to try be her friend

this is getting very hard, i have been to the doctors with her and have got her a 3 d sonagram and vedio of her unbourn child hoping for her to bond to the child.

Anon

Clearly, the most horrific abortion procedures are "late term," which is what you are referring to.  Try to get her to "humanize" the baby, e.g., ask her "What name would you give this child?  How would you dress her/him?  How do you think your child would feel in your arms? etc, etc."  Have her visit AbortionTV and read some letters from women who chose, and women who chose not to opt for abortion.  Can you also get her to visit a crisis pregnancy center in your area?

AbortionTV

First, she may be experiencing depression for various reasons.  It may be a cry for attention or help.  Please see what might be done about getting her some support services in place.  Ask her questions, thoughtfully and forthright, why she is expressing such thoughts about birthing this child.  Quite possibly, sniffing chemicals may also be an indication of suicidal behavior.  I would most certainly bring this up to her family members, if possible.  It sounds as though she may have mental health issues.  Lack of support and companionship are HUGE factors which can weigh negatively on a pregnant woman. Desperation, is a driving factor for pregnant women which can lead to abortions.

If possible, perhaps you could offer her space under your roof.  This would offer not only support, but gives you the added benefit of looking after your unborn grandchild.  You don't have to supply that as a motivating factor, either. 

It is not against the law to surrender her baby.  However, substance abuse is grounds for having her baby removed from care once born.  I would report this to social services.  Also, see if your state has a Putative Father registry and get your son's name on it, ASAP.  Whether your son is in jail or not, he has parental rights, period.  No adoption agency or social services agency can legally terminate his rights without his consent.  Further, they have to advertise.  If she places the child without his consent, an adoption can be challenged and overturned on that point.  Also, I would suggest you contact social services and prepare to become a foster parent in the event the child is removed and just to be CINA (Child in Need of Assistance).  If your son's relationship with her is strained, get him to start repairing it, ASAP.

Try very hard not to be seen as overbearing, but supportive.  Ask how she is feeling.  Focus on her needs, too.  Pregnancy can be overwhelming, especially if she without a partner.  Offer to take her to lunch and give her a small gift of flowers.  Comment on how pretty she looks.  If you can, take her shopping for a pretty, trendy maternity outfit to boost her self esteem.  Get your nails done together.  Get a makeover at the mall.  Treat her to a pedicure at a spa.  Do whatever you can to make her feel positive about herself, and then she will feel more positive about motherhood.  If the baby's sex is known, start referring to him/her by name to affirm identity.  Tell her you are looking forward to a grandchild as beautiful as she is.

Plus, to help you, third trimester abortions are VERY expensive.  Likely, she cannot afford it.  I would shower her with attention that focuses on her and give her all the love you can muster.  Build a relationship with her and it will likely save her, and your grandchild.

Please e-mail me if you need further support.  I have been in this woman's shoes. 

Eleanor Iadonisi
AbortionTV Volunteer
kikibrando@yahoo.com

I somewhat disagree with you abortiontv. I think the girlfriend is angry and upset - perhaps because the boyfriend is in jail? or maybe for other reasons and is acting out her agression against her child as a cry for help. Perhaps she is feeling abandoned. Maybe focussing on the child here will only make things worse. Maybe someone needs to focus on *her* for a change. I get a real sense of "but what about me?", she could be resentful of the child who is getting all of the attention.  I would advise the grandmother to be slow to speak and quick to listen. I would advise her to take her to a counselor, not a pregnancy counselor necessarily, but a general counselor who can help her work out what is bothering her. If she is looked after in this way only then will she be able to reconnect with her child. This could actually be more urgent than this - I would contact someone trustworthy in mental health as I believe she could be a suicide risk. 

ML

Dear Broken Hearted Grandmother,

At 7 months for her to find a place to perform an abortion would basically be illegal. President Bush signed Partial Birth Abortion into law in 2003. http://www.nrlc.org/abortion/pba/PBAall110403.html

If you believe she is doing drugs or causing harm to herself that can harm the baby, you can report this to the police and DCYF.

She can give the baby away...I don't know the laws in your state concerning adoption but if your son agrees to sign away the rights, the baby can be adopted. Of course that is if she acknowledges that your son is the father.

I wish you luck with the situation.

MSG

Dear Broken Hearted Grandmother

8/20/07

I am sorry for the situation that you are in. 

I hope that you have a Bible-based Church to attend and a loving net-work of praying Saints to aide you. 

It is so hard to get some one to see that life is the only choice, because life is a gift from God.  In a cold, hard society that is drifting away from the Jewish-Christian ethic--the frame work of our laws, the spirit of the law--the higher moral function, also suffers.  "Life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness," as out lined in out Nation's Declaration, has morphed into the pursuit of happiness, at the expense of life, and liberty.

I cannot know the agony you feel--and how the situation violates the biblical world-view of life as God's gift, but I am sure that there are millions like you, that sees with the eyes God has given you, rather than the blinders of man's immoral laws--that violates the spirit of the law. 

It would do the the world much good, if more were broken hearted over the "right to life," rather than the Paris Hilton wanna bees that buzz about--in selfish, here and now sin.

It is an evil beyond words that would sever the bond between a woman and the life that God has placed in the womb . . . .  Abortion is not an empowering tool, for strong women, it is a law by fools, for fools that would play God and determine who is and who is not worthy of life, much like the U.S. government at one time determined Indians non-persons--and had an extermination program later duplicated by Nazi Germany.  As half Indian, I take offense at some one determining if I am a life unworthy of life--as I would if I were Jewish.  We repeat the ignorance of the Culture of Death--by exterminating our non-persons--in the womb!!! 

Though this seem an easy thing to say, despite all the evils--and abortion is one of the great societal evils, God is in control, 100% of the time.  His will, will be done! 

Take comfort in knowing that the Creator-God loves all involved, 

Psalm 139. 

8/17/07

Today I am 50 years old. When I was 16 I got pregnant and initially planned on having my baby...but my mother pressured me into having this "operation" and to forget about it. My boyfriend went into denial, and so I thought that if the doctors, government and my Mom thought it was okay, that it must be.  In my twenties I was again single and pregnant, my boyfriend pressured me to abort, sadly I did. This time I went to an abortion clinic, it was horrific, I was wide awake, it was VERY painful, I went into shock and felt like I had been raped again.

I got an infection, damaged cervix, badly scarred uterus, and was only able to have one child, a beautiful son, he is 15 years old and I love being a Mom.  Doctors said that due to the damage done as a result of those abortions, they couldn't believe I had him!  Children are a blessing, they will never hurt you. Don't believe the lies. God will help you, there is help. It's a baby. Abortion deeply hurt me, and killed my children, it is a wrong, and not a right! Rev. 12:11 

8/7/07

I'm emailing you in the hopes that Pictures of my son will help someone choose a better choice. 

This is my son Caleb Xavier. He died from unknown reasons at 8.5 weeks, I found out at 12.5 weeks and he was miscarried at home at 13 weeks.

He seemed to be perfectly formed...he had 10 fingers and 10 toes...he was amazingly beautiful.

We used the camcorder so we would never forget just how perfect he was...later I took pictures of the tv to send to women who wanted to see what a baby REALLY looks like at about 9 weeks, and I have been sharing him every since.

Hopefully our loss will help someone see that babies are not mearly blobs of tissue because they are small.

here is Caleb's montage -

http://www.onetruemedia.com/otm_site/view_shared?p=7209fc8931f519571d55e&source=category&category_id=26

5th August, 2007

                                                              Murder of 9mth old Babies is Being Promoted in Australia

The Australian state of Victoria is trying to decriminalise the murder of unborn children right up to, and including, the ninth month of pregnancy. All Aussies are being called to oppose this attack on our most innocent and vulnerable. Visit the link, enter your postcode and write a short email.

               https://www.makeastand.org.au/campaign/index.stw?campaign_id=15&pc=4869&function=polliemail#polliemail

7/30/07

A few respondents to "Yell at Us" have commented at various times on taking personal responsibility for a decision which is legal.  While I am a firm believer in answering to the consequences of one's actions and accountability, I have to question, where is the accountability and responsibility on the part of the abortion industry which claims to promote the interests of women and girls it "serves?" Like cigarette manufacturers, abortion providers market a product which can have long-lasting consequences for the user.  Unlike the cigarette industry, the abortion industry is coddled and promoted, even lauded for its ''achievements" and service to women and society.  Planned Parenthood receives millions in tax-payer funding to promote its agenda.  Unlike cigarette companies, it is seldom held to social standard outside a liberal one.  It vigorously attacks any opposition with smear campaigns, law suits, and counter propaganda.  No industry like the abortion industry is as protected and rewarded for a campaign which literally has been proved to market its deadly product to girls who are in a most vulnerable position. 

Abortion has long-lasting consequences.  I think back to the hot summer day in June 1991 when I "terminated" my pregnancy, ending the life of my yet-to-be born son, Jacob Matthew.  He was wanted, but suddenly became inconvenient when new husband, the father, decided he didn't want the burden of a suddenly pregnant wife.  Suddenly finding myself alone, I was desperate to find a solution to what I viewed as a crisis situation.  I was terrified of being a single mom. Further, lacking self-esteem and in an emotional abusive relationship, I allowed my husband to brow beat and bully me into thinking I couldn't raise my child alone.  I was convinced no one would be interested in raising his child and my life would be ruined forever if Jacob came into the world.  Yes, I understood the basic precepts of abortion.  However, what I understood, what I was told, and what was done to my body are quite different.

During the counseling session at the abortion clinic, I was not told a fetus is dissected into parts.  Jacob's arms and legs were ripped from his body and his skull crushed.  When I learned, years later, the horrific procedure done to this child, I was horrified.  I was merely told the "products of conception were removed."  My fetus was referred to as a "blob of tissue."  I don't say this to be dramatic, as this is literally what I was told.  Further, I was not allowed to see the ultrasound screen, even though I demanded too.  This was "against" Planned Parenthood policy.  Adoption?  "Why would I give my baby to strangers to be abused?" as the counselor stated.  I wasn't how rude the staff would be when I changed my mind with feet in the stirrups.  Or, how they would ignore my cries and those of other girls after the procedure. 

Never at any time was I advised that post-abortion, I would immediately regret my decision.  Contrary, there was little, if  any relief.  If relief is, "oh gosh, now I won't go bankrupt supporting my child," it was only momentary.  I was convicted by my own conscience the moment sobriety hit following anesthesia (and I was not  a Christian).  I wasn't warned the laminaria used in the procedure would so damage my cervix I wouldn't be able to deliver my daughter.  Or the complications which would arise in other pregnancies following the abortion.  I wasn't told of PTSD, which I spent the next 8 years suffering from after this. 

Now, 2007, when I think of that day, I cry for the young lady I was, but I see the bigger picture.  I allowed myself to be a victim, but I also chose to be a victim by placing trust in the wrong sources.  For my ex-husband, I feel nothing.  He's moved on to victimize other women, but I am free.  Regarding Planned Parenthood, I am saddened and disturbed.  Those who work for the organization genuinely believe in what they are doing.  I understand they are as convicted of their beliefs as I am they are dead wrong.  Legal doesn't equal moral or just.

Like the smoker, I chose to partake of the "product," taken in that it would be a quick fix to what really wasn't a long-term problem.  Like the smoker, I paid for my decision with consequences; emotional, social, physical, and other.  Like the smoker, my family has paid for my decision as well.  The mental health issues, aggravated by abortion, plagued my husband and daughter.  They got to witness the personal hell I put myself through each anniversary which came by.  My husband got to deal with my screaming nightmares (the worst of which was being in a room full of dead, dismembered babies trying to piece my son back together), anxiety attacks, and depression.  Oh, and ask my daughter how she feels about her missing brother.  She also mourns this loss, particularly since she discovered her two half-brother's recently.

I called a Planned Parenthood and asked about counseling.  Believing that since they provided abortions, they might have some referral network for counseling, I was basically told to pack sand.  Thanks, guys.  It wasn't until my mother-in-law directed me to a crisis pregnancy center and counseling that I was able to overcome any of this.  That's how I found AbortionTV and was able to further research this subject.  I finally got on a path to healing and found out I was only one of many women in this position.  At the end of the day, I'm older and wiser.  and realize my mistaken.  Never for a moment, however, do I let abortion providers off the hook for their role in continuing to mislead women into destroying their unborn babies for a quick fix.  I basically liken Planned Parenthood and any other abortion provider to a pimp or a drug pusher; it feeds off human misery. 

Not every women is in a situation to be strong and emotionally empowered, for various reasons.  For these women and girls, I feel empathy, because I was there.  Merely telling the victimized woman or girl to "think" or "be strong" won't work.  Easy to say for those who haven't grown in dysfunctional environments.  I am a foster parent and see traumatized people all the time.  Most of them don't recognize the very catalysts which drive their behaviors.  Perhaps it's time for both sides to stop arm-chair quarterbacking and provide real alternatives then protesters on sidewalks, morning after pills, signs of aborted fetus', condoms on bananas to teens, and rhetoric on both sides.  Women want abortion like they want breast cancer.  It's destructive, period. 

I know I'm on the right side.  

Eleanor, AbortionTV Volunteer

7/23/07 

   The latest Issue of Celebrate Life, a publication of American Life League, has arrived ( www.CLmagazine.org ) and an article on page 16, reports that the movie Bella is being released in Texas, August 15, nationally on September 15.  If you don't get the magazine, you can read the story by accessing the link, above.  One line in the story I enjoyed: "So, as the opening line in Bella goes, "If you want to make God laugh, tell Him your plans.""

7/23/07

I just visited your site about abortion and I was horrified at the pictures of the aborted babies. I had no idea that is what it was like. I haven't ever had an abortion but my mom did due to her having AIDS. The doctor told her it was the best thing for her and for the baby. I know she regretted it and I swore and still do that I'd never do anything like that no matter what. Your site really opened my eyes to what abortion really ins and I am going to pass this site on and hopefully it will help someone out there who is thinking about doing this horrible crime. Thanks so much for letting me see the truth. 

Sheila

G'day Shelia,

I know how you feel, I was clueless and 'iffy' about 'abortion' until I learned the truth at AbortionTV. There are so many ways to expose people to the truth. The best way is with an AbortionTV bumper sticker:

                                        http://www.abortiontv.com/Misc/HowToContribute.htm

Or maybe an AbortionTV banner. Of course, you can write letters to papers in your country, contact polliticians, etc.

Peter Erbacher

Sheila

7/23/07 

Years ago, as a young boy, I saw some graphic pictures of aborted babies, and the image stuck in my 11 year old mind--from 1973.

Since, I have educated myself on the subject, am compiling info--and am in the process of writing on the subject--in what form it will turn out, I do not know. 

For years I have participated in informal counseling, and have been motivated to learn the computer in order to write--and encourage the Culture Of Life--and expose the Culture Of Death. Not only does God's Word command that we know why we believe what we believe, but we are to expose (reprove) evil and error (Ephesians 5:11, New Testament). I know not where God will have me in this culture war--or what role I will play in the future--but at least I am trying to do something with the talents and abilities God gave me. 

Despite the time and resources, I have learned much more from this site--and have learned to be pro-active in a form of communication that I once feared. 

Sheila, I said that about myself in order to encourage another culture warrior--such as YOU!

It is not enough to learn, and hold a position--one must follow ones passions--and do something!  There are a few athletes on the field of life that are badly needing rest, and millions of spectators that are badly needing exercise!   

I am greatly encouraged by the responses on this site--and have become more active--in this culture war.  As a biblical-based Christian (salvaged or saved by God's grace) the greatest evil is to deny the love of God, and His offer of forgiveness of evil that we are born with.  The evil actions we do--such as abortion, are the out workings of our fallen nature. 

Sheila, I encourage you to find a Bible teaching--and believing Church, and get involved, if you have not done so.  Take what you have learned from this site, build on it, and run with it!

In this life, you may never know what lives you may influence--and how many physical lives you may help save! 

There is a base philosophy of evil--that sees no right or wrong--cannot discern between good and evil.  It plagues academia (called Post-Modernism) the Arts (such as all forms of music) and the political arena . . . .  It stands to reason why our American schools are dumbed down--not only are we not able to read and write--we do not even know what the definition of "sex," "is," and "alone," according to our Rhodes Scholar, former Law Professor and Ex-President.  This is by design.  Sheila, it is my life's ambition to confront my culture, stand and argue that their is a difference between right and wrong, and it is God, not the Clinton Dictionary or the Supreme Court that decides the definition of life.   

I hope you and others like you, joins the fight! 

For the Glory of God and my Neighbors Good,