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| 9/10/00
HI, My name is Amanda Grimm and I am 18 and from a
little town in Texas. I got pregnant almost a year ago and I kept my
little one. I want to help girls make the right decision about what they
are facing. My baby boy (Trace) is now two months old and the greatest
thing that has ever happened to me. He did not "ruin" my life I
am going to a massage therapy school in two weeks and my life is better
than it has ever been. I get in chat rooms every night and ask the same
questions over and over "hi is any girl in here considering an
abortion if so please lets talk" I have changed the minds and helped
about 20 girls now, I keep them on my yahoo messenger friends list so they
can keep me updated...just as I had told all of them the reward of letting
their baby have a chance at what we all got a chance at is the greatest of
all. I really really want to be a part of your website. I love it and I
have referred hundreds to it so far...pro lifers and pro choicers. If I
change the mind of just ONE woman all my time and effort is worth it. I am
a born again believer I have been saved now for about 5 years. I give
great advice based on strong Christian values, I want to let the whole
world know you do NOT cover sin with sin. If you committed the sin and got
pregnant pick up the tab and make the best out of the situation...you will
be blessed. Please allow me to be apart of your WONDERFUL crusade you are
working for, I want to help and believe I could be a big part of your
cause.
Love
Amanda |
| 8/25/00
Today is my son's birthday. I now look back
a little over a year and a half ago when I first found out that I was
pregnant. I thought of how desperate I was then and how my life had
stopped abruptly with that same news. I had gotten pregnant in the most
"inconvenient" time in my life...I was about to return to
college, I had no money to my name, and worst of all, the man I had been
dating was just in town temporarily to complete a job for his company. In
other words, neither he or myself had plans for a family. I found out
(about being pregnant) exactly two months after we first met. I didn't
want to tell him. I told my family and they were upset but supportive
(well, not my father). I looked up in the phonebook about abortion
services. I couldn't believe I was doing this. I also couldn't believe how
easy it
was to get in touch with an abortion
clinic. When I made my appointment for the following month for the
"procedure", I was overwhelmed by the impartialness of the
receptionist. I could tell that she was definitely used to these calls. My
cousin had underwent an abortion a few years earlier and when I asked her
what happens in the clinic she would not say anything to me until I had
made my choice whether to keep the baby. After the initial shock wore off,
my family nudged me to tell my boyfriend who had just moved to another job
site 100 miles away. That night I drove 100 miles to tell him. We were
both upset. He didn't want to tell his family and he was just as confused
as me. We both thought that I should go ahead with the abortion since it
was not the right time for either of us. Well, somehow during the next few
week I managed to make and break
those appointments at the clinic. One night
after endless talks with my mother I decided that I had to do what I felt
was right in my heart. I told my mother that I was going to keep this
baby. It was only then
that she told me the answer to my question
that I had asked two months earlier about the experience of being in an
abortion clinic. She knew what it was like when she went with my cousin to
support her emotionally. She told me that it was cold. There were a
significant number of women in paper gowns in the waiting room
awaiting their "turn". My mother
told me that the worst of it all was the wait. I told my boyfriend the
decision I had made to keep
this baby. He accepted my decision and told
me that maybe it wouldn't be so bad. Well, his support was short-lived
when he started to get confused and scared during my third month of
pregnancy. I was not showing so it seemed like just a dream that wasn't
really
happening. He told me that he wanted me to
have an abortion. He couldn't face telling his family. I was confused from
that talk and I left his apartment thinking that I too wanted an abortion
now. I know
that the clinic I called didn't do
abortions past 12 weeks. I then, at the urgency of my boyfriend called a
clinic outside the state. Next thing I knew I had an appointment for the
following Saturday. through that whole agonizing week I saw how hurt my
mother was. I was feeling a pain that wouldn't go away...a pain that told
me that something wasn't quite right. Then on Friday the night before my
appointment, it just hit me like a ton of bricks. Tomorrow I would be
going to a place to end my "problem" at the cost of $500.00.
Furthermore, I would be going at the insistence of a man who clearly had
no idea what I, as a women, was going through!! But most of all, I would
be doing something that went against what I felt in my heart.
My heart told me that ending a life for a
mere $500.00 because it was an inconvenience was not right. It was not
right for me anyway. Different people have different reasons and solutions
but I knew that an abortion was not an option for me. So I told my
boyfriend that night that I had made my choice and I was keeping my baby.
He respected my decision and I told him that I didn't care if he didn't
want anything to do with us (the baby and I). I was ready for that
to be the end result of my decision. The
truth is, I knew in my heart that if I had gone through with the abortion,
we would've gone our own separate ways anyway. So, I told him that I
didn't want to hear from
him anymore. I didn't hear from him for two
weeks but finally he called. He told me he loved me and wanted to be a
part of our life and he asked me to marry him. I said yes. I knew that we
had a rough road ahead of us but we were both willing to give marriage a
try. Most importantly, we knew that no matter what, we would both love our
child. He eventually told his parents and we were married in my fifth
month of pregnancy. Standing at the alter I felt my son move
inside me as the pastor spoke of our vows.
Two weeks before I had my first sonogram, it was then that it seemed real
and not a dream anymore. When a mother feels a baby kick within them, it's
heaven on earth. Exactly a year ago today, I gave birth to our son. I
stare at him in amazement at the fact that he was inside me at one time,
growing, sucking his thumb, kicking and hiccupping. I still cry sometimes
at the fact that I even considered an abortion. I can't even
say the word anymore...only write it. I am
not a deeply religious person who spends every waking moment at church. I
don't even attend church. I just know that this so-called
"alternative" was not the option for me. I wish to remain
anonymous but please let
others know my side of the story. Thank
You.
Stephanie G
Stephanie, thanks for sharing your
wonderful story -- it's an inspiration to us all. We're also posting it at
Babies Not Slaughtered!
AbortionTV
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| 8/22/00
My name is Sharon. On June
8, 1992, I was date raped in my own home. I
found out I was pregnant at 4 1/2 months. I was in denial month after
month
until I finally went to a clinic for them to tell me I had a tumor. The
nurse came
in and told me "It's not a tumor, it's a baby". I told the nurse
"I'd rather
it be a tumor". It was the most terrible months of my life to feel my
baby
move inside me. It felt like every time my baby moved I could feel that
man touching me every single time. I had nightmares during the whole nine
months. I thought about getting an abortion because I felt I
couldn't take it anymore, I was afraid to go to sleep due to the
nightmares. I even became
too uncomfortable to go around my own father just because he was a man
too. In the midst of everything I was going through, I found it difficult
to give
my child the death penalty for something her father did. It was a struggle
but made it through with the help of God. I had plan to have the baby and
give
it up for adoption because I didn't think I could deal with looking in the
face a someone who constantly reminded me of my rapist everyday. I was
sure I
was going to have a boy, but the baby turned out to be a girl. When the
doctor pulled her out, a bond started. I thought to myself, how in
the world
could I keep this child knowing how she came to existence? I thought I
wouldn't be able to handle it until I got over my self-centered feelings
and thought
how would she feel if she ever found out she was the product of rape. I
couldn't abandon her, I felt I had to be there for her. It was slow the
first few months but I eventually got over seeing her father in her
and started
seeing me in her. My very beautiful and smart daughter is seven
years old now.
She have brought so much joy in my life. Whenever I am sick or sad, she
would come and kneel down on her knees and pray to God to help me. I
immediately felt strength. There have been some very hard times in my life
that my daughter, who prayed for me all the time, lifted my spirit to keep
going.
I think I would have committed suicide had it not been for her. I was
there
to save her life and she have been here for me to save mine. I don't know
how
to tell anyone how much I am glad I did not abort my Shauntae. I told her
I
want to change her name to Angel, because that is how I see her. I believe
God blessed me with my own angel to be there for me. I strongly
believe that every child should have a chance to live. Yes, a woman should
be able to do what she want to her own body but a child is a separate body
from a woman's body. The child should be able to live. The child should
not have to die because of someone else's actions whether it be the woman,
man, or nature. Live and Let Live.
Sharon : ) |
| 8/14/00
I am considering an abortion and the things that I read
and saw on this website was so heart breaking. I have three children
at home whom I love so dearly and to think I could do this to another
child is absolutely evil. God bless the poor tortured souls that
were murdered so heartlessly. I cried so hard when I saw the video
of the baby that was aborted via ultrasound. I never felt so sick in
my life. I can't yell at anyone for this procedure but all I can do
is feel mortified by what I saw. How can anyone bring themselves to
do this kind of procedure? They must be sociopaths. Just
had to state my humble opinion in this matter
Carey from MI |
| 8/9/00
Dear AbortionTV,
It was 1979, and on June 12th, when I was 15 years old, my Dad died.
I was numb, confused and really did not care about anything. Two
months later I turned 16, and at about the same time I met a guy, Paul.
I had not known him long at all, but one Saturday afternoon we ended up
'doing it'. I don't remember feeling anything
at all, even though it was my first time, I guess the grief was just too
'big'. That was the one and only time we were together in that way.
In September, I realised that I might be pregnant, and as my Mum had gone
to Aussie for a holiday after Dad's death, I felt so alone and did not
know what to do. Fortunately, I had an older
Brother, and he gave me the money to go to the Doctor's for a Pregnancy
Test - which was positive. I was so scared, but it was strange as
there was a part of me that was also excited - I was having a BABY!
Maybe this 'excitement' was just desire to fill the emptiness and void
that was deep within me after losing Dad, at least that is what I think.
A week or two later, Mum came back from her holiday, and my brothers and
sisters gathered around when it came time to tell her. You know, we
didn't really need to tell her - the conversation went something
like this:
Me: Mum, I've got something to tell you.
Mum: (jokingly said) Are you pregnant or something?
Me & Family: Well, actually, yes.
Mum handled it very well, considering all that she had gone through, and
said that she would support me no matter what my decision was. In
those days you weren't allowed to stay at school if you were pregnant, but
I was fortunate as I got pregnant near the end of the year so I would
still be able to sit my School Certificate
Exams. But the Guidance Counsellor at school seemed to find my
'excitement' about having a baby unusual (which it probably was), and it
was recommended that I go to see this 'panel' of Psychiatrists,
which I did. I think it was as a result of that meeting that an
appointment was made to see a Specialist to discuss the possibility of me
having an  abortion.
Because Mum encouraged me to carefully look at ALL my options before
making a decision, I went to see the Specialist, and Mum came with me.
I might be wrong, but I believe that here in my Country it was not legal
in 1979 to have an abortion except for certain reasons, but purely because
I was so
young and also because I was so mixed up as a result of my Dad's death, an
abortion was offered to me on a silver platter. When I saw the
Specialist, he really didn't tell me much about the abortion itself, the
only thing I remember him telling me was *the risks involved* in having an
abortion. Today, I thank God for that
Specialist - as soon as he mentioned the words 'abortion may affect your
ability to have children later on in life', I was out of there! No
way!!!
No, it wasn't easy, but I chose to keep my child, and on May 6th 1980,
Matthew Vivian was born. Now, 20 years later, I am so grateful that
I did not choose an abortion, for at least I had an opportunity to know,
hold, cuddle, and love my Son. You see, on July 3rd 1980, Matthew
died of Sudden Infant Death Syndrome.
Thank You God, for giving me my Son.
Yours sincerely,
Martha2Mary
Dedication to Dad and Matthew: http://find.at/HisGraceIsSufficient/dedication.htm |
| 8/9/00
Last night I was online and I met this 15 year old girl
who is 28 weeks
pregnant, she said her boyfriend wanted her to abort her baby Partial
birth abortion her boyfriend had told her that she would feel a lot better
if she did. I started crying because I knew there is this baby out there
that has done nothing that might not have a chance in life. I was crying
thinking to myself what can I do to make her change her mind I wish I
could just drive right over to her house, but then I received a sign from
God I suppose, and sent a link of your web site to her she wrote me back
she said she was crying and said how could I even of thought of doing that
to my baby. She did change her mind and its all because of your site.
Thanks to your web site and staff members you have just saved another
life. Thank you so much,
From: 1 person can make a difference |
| 8/2/00
Dear AbortionTV.
You asked for people to write who chose not to abort well
here's my
story.
At 15 I started dating the "LOVE" of my life or so I thought.
two years
later I found out I was pregnant, he left (left state) never looking
back. I was 6 weeks pregnant. I chose to go through with it. My baby was
due February 5th, 1992, in September after taking numerous test the
doctor called me into his office. At the appointment the nurse took me
into an office saying the doctor would be with me shortly. I then knew
something was very wrong. Here I am 17 and in the private office of my
doctor. The doctor walked in, sat down looked at me and said this "
Rachelle there's something seriously wrong with your baby, the test
results are not coming back the way they should. I would like to do an amniocentesis.
but before I do that I think we should discuss your other options."
What options if your talking about abortion NO, now give me a minute to
think about the amniocentesis. He walked out, the minute he left the room
I sat and cried. Thank God my mom was there. I looked at her and said if I
walk out now I'll never come back. My decision was made. Within the
hour I was prepped, looking at my baby on the ultrasound screen and seeing
how beautiful he was. It seemed like forever before the results came back,
but during that time I PRAYED hard. Please don't let anything be wrong
with my baby. I made the right choice I gave birth to a HEALTHY 7lb., 6oz.
boy on February 5, 1992 the exact day the doctors had predicted. He's 8
now and still the light of my life along with his 3 brothers and the baby
that I'm carrying now. I thank GOD everyday for
my beautiful sons ALL 5 of them.
InShelle@---.net |
| 7/31/00
Dear AbortionTV,
Hi I am 17 yr. old female that came across your web
site while doing a report for a class. When I was 13 years old I was raped
by a 25 yr. old man that I had never met nor knew. About 3 months later I
started gaining weight, I was very tired and had stomach aches all the
time...my mom just assumed that I was coming of age so she didn't pay
anymind, about a month or so later my mom noticed that I was getting a
tummy and took me to the doctors. After blood test after blood test they
finally told me that I was pregnant. They set me up with an appointment at
a local Planned Parenthood, but my mind was already made up, I wasn't
going to kill a living human being !! It wasn't the babies fault that I
was raped and I am not going to punish him for it. I went through and Had
a beautiful baby boy about 1 month before my 14 birthday. The only good
thing that came out of that terrible incident was my baby! I am not
going to say that it was all cake work, cause it wasn't, I had to work and
go to school, the only help I received was WIC and Medicaid for my
baby, and I made it! My son Daniel will be 4 in November, I work 2
jobs go to school and have an apartment. Some adult people who call
themselves "responsible" have an abortion cause there not ready
in there "lives" to have children....well then you should NOT be
having sex !!! By telling you this story I don't want your pity or
anything, I just thought that people should know its hard, but you can do
it !! I made it and I was 13 !! I love this web site !! You really do show
the facts about abortion !
Thank you-
Felicity
NY
PS...God bless ! |
| 7/21/00
I came to your site looking for information for a
project for school. I chose
to do the project on adoption. My birth mother was 17 when she gave birth
to me. I thank God everyday that she did not chose to get an abortion. It
brought tears to my eyes to read the letters at your site. I feel for the
mothers who got abortions, but God will forgive them. for the rest of you
thinking about getting an abortion, please think of me. I have had a great
life with my adopted parents. I would not be here to day if my mother had
chosen to get an abortion. Instead she endured those 9 months of being
looked down upon and gave me the best life. I eventually plan on looking
for my birth mother just to say thank you, if not more. now I am 19 and
attend UCF. I have a horse and a dog. and most important a loving
family.
Julie |
| 7/17/00
Hi, My name is Christy. I am 27 and have 4 children. I
had my first when I
was 17. When I found out I was pregnant for the fourth time I seriously
considered abortion. Even going as far as to schedule the appointment. I
had
gone to a Christian crisis pregnancy center to get the pregnancy test
done.
When it came back positive, I thought that I had no choice but to get an
abortion. I had trouble with my previous pregnancy and it almost cost me
my
life and the life of my daughter. I left their office and never called
them
back or accepted any of the calls they made to me. I was sure that they
were
 going to try to talk
me out of having an abortion. I was afraid that if I
listened to them that I would not be ale to go through with something that
I
knew was murder. Well the day of the appointment came and I was a nervous
wreck. I was in a deep depression and even thought of suicide knowing what
I
was going to be doing to this child. One hour before I was supposed to
leave
for my appointment I got a phone call. By the blessing of God, my caller
ID
did not register who was calling and I answered the phone. In my heart I
will
always believe it was divine intervention. As you can probably guess it
was a
counselor from the pregnancy center. It had been two months since I was
there, and they had given up calling after about four weeks. The ladies
name
was Hope. I will remember that for the rest of my life. She said that she
had
an unexplainable urge to call and check on me. I completely broke down. I
cried harder than I had ever thought possible. I cried so hard that I
couldn't catch my breath. I talked to her for the entire hour before my
appointment. When my friend showed up to take me I told her I couldn't go.
I
refused to go! There was no way anyone was getting me to that appointment.
I
had disappointed everyone again I thought, but I didn't care. No one
wanted
me to have this child. I had my hands full with 3 little girls already. I
was
not in a stable financial situation. Everyone told me I was doing the
wrong
thing by keeping this child. Well, now it is 2 years later and my son is
18
months old. He is the light of our lives. His father can't bear to think
that
he wanted to kill this child. There is no one that sees' this child and
thinks he is a mistake. There is no one who thinks I did the wrong thing
now.
I suffered through 8 months of dirty looks and harsh comments about how I
should have had the abortion. It caused problems in my relationship
through
out my pregnancy. Eight months of having everyone look down on me was
worth
the lifetime of pleasure this baby will bring to everyone who meets him.
He
was born on January 22, 1999. His name is Dylan. Coincidentally, he shares
a
birthday with my oldest daughter. They were born exactly 8 years apart to
the
minute, in the same hospital!! I was blessed to have the courage to stand
up
for what I thought was right. I hope everyone considering abortion will
stop
and think first. There are other options to killing you child.
Christy |
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