Aborted Abortions, Page #19

9/20/04

I am 27 years old, I have two children at home already.  I am also 17 1/2 weeks pregnant.  I was so ready to have this baby because of the fact that when I was 16 I had an abortion at 20 weeks, and believe me I suffered physically and emotionally for a long time.  My boyfriend of 4 years decided all of a sudden that he did not want the baby and wanted me to get rid of it.  I have made an appointment to do so also, but after looking at your web site I have come to the conclusion that I can't go through with it, and if need be, a single mom is better then the hell I would be putting myself through if I were to go through with it, so thank you, thank you for saving this babies life....

9/14/04

My name is Pru. I am 19. I was 16 when I found out I was pregnant. I had 2 abortions before and was pretty sure I would do it this time too. I got on line to look up abortions and found this site. I looked over all the stories and pictures and I cried for hours. I was sick with depression for weeks. Luckily all that stress didn't interfere with my pregnancy with I chose to continue. How could I have gone through with another abortion after knowing the whole truth??? My then boyfriend Richard was glad I decided to keep the baby. His parents let me move in with them. His mom helped me get free health care and Wic and all that, she even drove me to my Doctor appts. I had my son, Dean Amory, Jan. 13, 2003 he weighed 6 lbs 0 oz and was 18 1/2 in long. He’s 20 months now and he runs and jumps and dances. His new words are "ah-low" for "Hello" and "giek" for "drink" he also says "uh-oh" when he drops something, and he blows kisses when you say "I love you". He's my sweet baby. Any way my friend Kelli got pregnant a while after Dean was born. She thought about abortion and adoption but ultimately decided to keep her baby too. I showed her this web site recently and I believe she wrote a letter as well. Now our kids will grow up together and pal around all thanks to your site. I love all you guys and thank you from all four of us!!!

9/13/04

I’m Sam. I just want to share with the world that me and my son are both survivors. My father tried forcing my mum into an abortion 20 years ago when I was 8 weeks old because he never wanted children and his job in the RAF was more important. She didn’t do it obviously although I am forever called Daddies little girl but if it wasn’t for my mother I would never have experienced life. Well the same story happened with me. I found out in September 2003 that I was pregnant (6 weeks gone) when me and my boyfriend found out he wasn’t impressed and subsequently abandoned me alone and pregnant. He left for a month and there was no word at all from him. Then when he finally did get in touch he demanded I have an abortion because he didn’t want any more kids - he has one from a previous relationship. I was heart broken - I was pro choice and I was in two minds - do I become a single mother or do I abort and keep my boyfriend? - Well I chose the abortion even though I wasn’t sure I wanted it I promised to book the appointment. Now I have always been a complete push over and will do anything to keep the people I love happy.  Well I was so naive at 19 that I decided to investigate the procedure after my doctor told me it was simple I just had to know exactly how it was done. So I got on the computer and found AbortionTV. Watching the live abortion with my baby in me made me physically sick. Then I read the exact procedure and my heart sank - I couldn’t do that to my baby (he was nearly 3 months at this point) Well the next time I told my boyfriend I couldn’t do it and he hung up on me after shouting for half an hour so I decided to become a single mum. My best friend Feroza was my rock

- She came to my blood tests and was there with me to hold my hand at my first scan - I fell in love the moment I saw him - my little angel and snuggly and safe inside me. I knew id made the right choice. Well I texted Owen that night to let him know his baby was ok. and shockingly he asked to see me and a scan picture the next day. He saw the picture and my little bump starting to grow and he had a change of heart. I think he realised I was serious and it is the first time I have ever defended myself and something I care so much about. He was there for me when I was kicked out by my mother and I lived with him and his family. And he was at my side through my labour and cried his eyes out when our son Benjamin (see pic) was born.

Him and Ben are completely inseparable now and it is hard to believe that the man I love even attempted to get me to abort especially when I see him cuddling Ben to sleep. we r still together though and he is already planning another baby when Ben is older so thank you again girls it is people like you who saved my life, and you who saved my sons.

Eternally grateful, 

Sam and Benjamin

9/10/04

Hi my name is Ashley and I was 16 when I suspected, and later found out that I was pregnant. I was pro- choice (but not really educated on the abortion process) and told myself if the doctor says I’m pregnant I'll have an abortion (didn't really want to) ,but figured it was for the best. The doctor said "let’s see if we can hear the heartbeat, but it's probably too early" (this saved my son's life). When I heard my baby's heartbeat I started to cry it was the most beautiful and amazing sound I have ever heard. My mother and sister were pushing me for an abortion (they both have had one done). I felt like I had no choice, but I held out I seemed miserable for a while until I finally decided not to hide how happy I was about my son. I knew I loved him and I wanted to be able to look back and be able to say I enjoyed my first pregnancy that he was a surprise but not a mistake! I was faced with that choice again two years later when I was pregnant with my second child (a girl)at 18 I was so embarrassed to be pregnant again and so soon that I considered an abortion even though having my son had made me completely against it, but my Then Boyfriend (now husband) refused to let me even consider it (he knew I would regret it and I didn't really want it).  My husband was also pro-choice, but after having our son he was against it completely, so now we have 2 wonderful babies a boy and a girl who are our life. And even though we were young we are doing fine. I finished High School and am now in college, and he completed some college and joined the navy where he too is continuing on with his education.

9/7/04

I'm currently 17 weeks pregnant. Yesterday I had an appointment at a family planning clinic to get an abortion, partly because the father didn’t want it. I wanted to show him what an unborn baby looked like at 17 weeks just so he would know what WE were doing. I fully intended on going threw with it no matter what the pictures looked like....As I gathered information to show him I started reading more and more and looking at more pictures and I decided to skip my appointment. And even though I'm scared out of my mind I'm 100% sure I made the right choice by missing that dreadful appointment. Thank you so much for this site. It saved my babies life.... 

9/6/04

Hello. I am a 17 year old girl. I am not, have not, and will hopefully never have to personally be in a situation where I concider abortion. However, I have recently found myself in a predicament. I found out about a week ago that FOUR of my friends are pregnant. I was overwhelmed by the news. All of them trust me and respect me, thus they are counting on me to give them good advice in a time of need. They all know their options, but none of them know what to do. Being a pro-choicer, I was automatically thinking that they should get abortions because they are all 17 or 18. But I also was unsure, because I knew that the abortion process can be unsafe.

So, for the past week I have been debating on what to tell my friends. Then today, I came across your website while researching the topic. I realized how disturbing the process is, and that no one deserves that treatment. So at this very moment I am calling each one of my friends and telling them that they should keep their babies.

I don't know if I would say you have completely changed my views from pro-choice to pro-life, but I now think that abortions should only be used in cases of rape or illness. Thank you for opening my mind and helping me potentially save four lives.

9/1/04

Dear AbortionTV 

What a wonderful site! I myself have never had an abortion but know many who have. I however am married to a wonderful man whose mother considered aborting him 26 years ago. Thank GOD that she didn’t go through with it or the world would be less without such a great human being and I would be less a love of my life and two of the most wonderful, beautiful children anyone could ever hope for. This nearly aborted man now has served our country and continues to serve in law enforcement. I’ve never had an abortion but today viewing your site, I cried for all those who have. Your womb is sacred and so is the life growing inside it!!! God Bless you all.

7/12/04

Dear AbortionTV and mothers-to-be considering abortion, 

My name is Kelli and I am 20 years old with a beautiful baby boy, Damien Ozzy, 6 weeks old.  I am writing today to hopefully change the minds of women considering adoption and to give them a newfound hope.  I found out I was pregnant one day after my 20th birthday.  My boyfriend and I were already planning to be married the next year, but did not plan on having kids until I was 25.  This pregnancy was unwanted by me but made my boyfriend ecstatic.  I was not ready to be a mother. I was not ready for the pain of giving birth.  I could not afford it and I wasn’t ready to “grow up” quite so fast.  I told my boyfriend I was giving myself until the 3rd month to make a final decision on abortion because I thought that was the dead line on any abortion. After 3 months I would have felt like a murderer.  Little did I know, I would be one at any time during the pregnancy.  And the messed up part is that I would “get away with it”.  During that time I went to many websites that only gave me information on costs, procedures, and side effects.  I wanted to be fully informed on what would happen to ME.  How selfish.  My doctor knew of my thoughts and strongly suggested an adoption plan, as did my mother.  She told me for the first time I was not one of four kids, I was one of five.  She had given her first up for adoption because she wanted that life to have a chance at a good life she apparently thought she could not provide at such a young age.  As you know, I decided on keeping Damien only because I did not want to have the painful cramps and nausea that come along with abortion.  I am sad, now, that my reasons were not the right reasons. 

I just saw this website for the first time yesterday.  And before visiting here, I was undecided on my feelings for abortion.  Had I known there was an actual HUMAN living in me, because of me, with a beating heart and even feelings, I would have never given abortion another thought.  Another reason that helped me make my decision was the support of friends and family.  Assuring me that whenever I needed help, they would be there.  And they are.  Even if not, there are places for women to go and people to help them. 

Giving birth is such a miraculous experience no one should pass up, given the chance.  It changed my life.  I used to be depressed a lot.  Now my life seems to have meaning.  When ever I feel sad I just look at my son and I am instantly happy again.  He needs and depends on me and that makes me feel SO good.  It would make any one feel good to love someone unconditionally.  Love at first sight really is possible.   

I love this website so much.  I am now a firm believer in pro-life!  I do wish more people were.  If you are reading this and the many other letters like mine, thank you.  And I hope you decide to have your baby.  There is always someone to help or somewhere to go.  If you still insist on not keeping the child already developing and living inside you, please chose adoption.  As you are wanting to terminate a life, there are many people that can’t even create one. 

Sincerely,

4/30/04

I'm nineteen years old and pregnant with my third child. My boyfriend and I broke up before I found out I was pregnant. I'm three months pregnant, and I was considering an abortion. My appointment was set for today April 30. My sister was one of the first people I told, and I told her I wanted an abortion. My ex-boyfriend doesn't believe in abortion, but I was going to do it any way. My sister called me this week, and said before you have an abortion, I want you to look at something. She pulled up your web site, and I read the truth about abortions, and now I'm keeping my baby. I don't think I could live with knowing that I killed my child. Thank you so much, if I haven't seen this, today my unborn child would've been dead.  

4/3/04

I had just gotten out of a serious relationship and was on the rebound. I ran into a guy I knew at the bar one night and we started seeing each other,  a whole lot of drinking and fooling around was basically our relationship.  Just having a good time. We quickly broke up...

I was a day late for my period, and began questioning maybe I was pregnant! So after work that day I went and bought a pregnancy test. I didn't think I could possibly be, but to be sure I went and bought one. Well I did the test at my friend's house. I just left it in the bathroom and went back to check it later, being sure it was going to be negative. But when I picked it up OH MY GOD I was pregnant, I started laughing and crying at the same time, I couldn't believe it. My friend suggested I get an abortion. Basically free myself to non-responsibility. When I was seeing this guy, I didn't give a rat's ass about anything, I thought to myself, "if I ever get pregnant, I'll just get an abortion and be done with, no one will ever know or care, including me". Well I decided to talk to Dustin, my X at the time, about it. He didn't want me to get an abortion and wanted me back. I said I didn't think it would work with us. Every day it was a battle. I didn't know what to do! I even decided to talk to my own parents about abortion. My dad was easy to talk to, my mom was pissed when she found out I was pregnant. I even went to a counselor at the abortion clinic. It was a place of death. I found myself disgusting, but I still wanted to just end what I had begun, as if it never had happened. But I realized, you can't just make it end as if it never happened, and I am killing a life. I left the clinic, feeling a sense of relief, I knew I was going to keep my baby. I figured if I miscarry then this baby was not meant to me, still scared I kind of hoped I'd miscarry.

But I decided to suck it up. When I told my doctor the news, she was so happy. The day my baby Joshua was born, my doctor actually cried. She said she cried because she was so moved by my decision to not abort. I had my baby 2 months ago, and I've been the happiest damn person since. I'm completely in love with my son. I can not explain how grateful I am. I would never take back my decision. In fact, I'm happy I got pregnant. This child is wanted and loved by me and his father. We are together, being responsible, raising our son. I love him so much and do not know what I'd do with out him. I am now so against abortion, little innocent baby's body's being brutally torn apart and out of they're homes in the womb. Baby's are so precious. No matter what the circumstances. Please if any one is reading this who is thinking about abortion, don't murder your child, give it a chance no matter how afraid or down you are about your pregnancy. When you get to look into your baby's eyes and have shudders when you think about what you so easily almost did, you will cry, tears of joy and sorrow. Please let your baby stay in your womb, it's loving nest, to grow and see the world some day, to love and laugh and live. 

2/25/04

9/6/03

Dear Abortion TV, 

I write to you as an abortion survivor. My mother went to a clinic at 22weeks to get rid of me, most were appalled that she waited so long. Well to make a long story short they gave her the saline solution...or gave it to me rather. I was burned and poisoned but it didn't kill me. She never went into labor and so she figured she had to carry me to term but it didn't matter. I was dead or so she thought. 25 weeks came and went and much to my mothers chagrin she felt me still kicking. So she went back, the doc found me still breathing and he offered a partial birth abortion. My mom said she needed to think on that one and so we went back home. At thirty weeks, she never went back and she was starting to wonder about me, was I even still alive? I wasn't kicking as much anymore. Well she went into labor at 35 weeks, average gestation and all. I was born, my skin was red and scarred, my hair was gone and I was blind...the salt solution burned my eyes. The nurses were mortified from what my mom tells me, said I looked like Freddy Kruger. I had to have a lung transplant because my right lung was too burned up to function right. I was taken home, eventually my scars cleared up but I never got my sight back. I'm glad in a way that I couldn't see, after what my mom had done to me I could never look her in the eye anyway and hold back the contempt. Time passed, I'm 22 and married with a sweet baby of my own. My son Tristan came to me on February 27,2002 and was perfectly healthy. I have also had surgery on my eyes, my vision is blurry but I can see a world my mother never intended me to see. 

Becca. 

7/6/03

Hey first of all I love your site!!! I am very pro-life so it totally explains why I'm pro-life, I am 18 I have a 20mth old daughter named Brianna, I got pregnant at 16 had her at 17, I am lucky because her father has stayed by me all the way, I had to drop out of high school and get a job, I chose to breastfeed so I also dealt with that pain,lol I was raised to be pro-life my mother never agreed with abortion, there was a time in my pregnancy around 25weeks when they thought Bianna had spina bifida, luckily she didn’t, but even then killing my baby wasn’t an option, I want girls to know that life isn’t as hard as some make it seem when you have a baby, Bianna has changed me for the better. Life is so much better with my baby, abortion is just plain wrong and disgusting, hopefully one day it'll be illegal again. 

Holli

Hi my name is Layla, when I was 14 im looked at your website ,which really opened my eyes to how evil and horrific abortion is, when I fell pregnant at 15 everyone pushed me to have one even though I was 4 months. Thanks to your website I have an amazing two year old son whom has made me 100% complete in life. If I hadn't have been educated by your website I would have lost the most precious thing in my life.

I'm 16 and 10 weeks pregnant. I recently came along your site it was a day before I was suppose to get an abortion, I was scared and frightened no one was there to support me they much rather disown me. I was convinced abortion would be the answer. After I read some of your stories I cried what I was about to do is kill the baby growing inside me, not only would I feel guilty for the rest of my life but I'd suffer immense pain. Thank you all so,so much you saved my baby's life and mine I'll be forever grateful. Thank you.

I became pregnant with my fourth child when I was 20 years old. I DID NOT want to have another baby. I wanted my body back and to NOT be pregant. My last baby was only 4 months old when I found out I was pregnant! I discussed with the father what he wanted to do and he was dead set against anything but an abortion. I agreed. I didn't have to be pregnant or have a baby that way. I set up the appointment wrote down the directions and put it in my coat pocket. They told me I'd have to wait until I was at least 10 weeks along. That was 6 weeks of waiting and bonding with my unborn baby. When the appointment date came up, I couldn't go through with it. Especially experiencing the joys of giving life 3 other times. I still did not want to parent another child so I chose to make an adoption plan. My boyfriend wasn't too thrilled with this and at first took off. After about a month he came around and even if he hadn't I would've been okay. I found a wonderful couple and started a relationship with them. They lived in New York and me in Wisconsin so most of our relationship was done by phone. They flew out once to meet us and we had dinner. The time came to have a baby and I delivered a healthy baby girl on Nov. 27, 2000. I named her Kirsten Lyn. They later renamed her Isabella Kirsten Lyn. I must admit that it was hard at first leaving the hospital without my baby. But, I thought back to how I wouldn't even HAVE a baby had I chosen abortion and that helped a little. What really helped make giving her up easier was the 3 weeks I had to bond with her adoptive parents while she was in foster care awaiting the court date to give her up. (Wisconsin state law) I realized that I was doing a beautiful thing. My court date came and it was the hardest day in my life. It was emotionally exhausting. I came home the night that my daughter (who wasn't legally my daughter anymore) left state and cried. Tears of joy and tears of pain. I put my jacket on and went outside to sit by the fire with my boyfriend. I slipped my hands into my pocket to keep them warm and felt a piece of paper. Wondering what it was since I hadn't worn this jacket in awhile I pulled it out. It was the directions to the abortion clinic from 9 months ago. Then, I smiled.