Letters from some who considered, and then declined abortion. 
 

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4/26/08

I just wanted to write in and thank you so much for all of the information I NEVER even imagined could be true about abortions. I am 19 and found out I was pregnant just last week. My boyfriend, my mom, his mom, and his sister are the only people that know so far. The only opinions I have really heard come from my boyfriend and my mom. All they can say is "you're too young." I just moved in with my boyfriend in our apartment not even 7 months ago. I just financed my first car. I have a good job. I am in college. And I have to admit, upon finding out about my pregnancy, I thought the same thing and immediately thought of having an abortion. Thank God I had the sense to do some research. I know that my mom will be upset, and once I finally bring up enough courage to tell my dad, he will be livid also. But I know that they will evetually support me and will be estatic to welcome their only grandchild into the world. My boyfriend is what I am not too sure about. He has not necessarily been pressuring me to have an abortion by saying "I want you to have an abortion," but I know that's what he wants. Well tough for him, I am having my baby. I knew even before I took the first of my 6 pregnancy tests that I was pregnant. I had this feeling and I was more aware of my body. I am so attached to my baby already, and there is no way I am giving him/her up. Whether my boyfriend decides to be there or not, that's up to him, I honestly think he will come around too, but still, it has no bearring on my choice. Your website opened my eyes so much and I could do nothing but cry for even having the thought for a second to get rid of my baby. My heart goes out to all of the women who had the courage to keep their babies, despite what everyone else was saying. And it also goes out to those who were educated too late on what abortion really was and the fact that no matter how far along in your pregnancy you are, it is still a living being. Again, thanks so much and I will be sure to post my baby's beautiful face on your website along with all of the other beautiful babies saved by their courageous mothers. Best wishes to everyone! 

10/10/07

To the creators of this website,

When I was 15, I became pregnant. I was in private (Christian) school, my boyfriend and I were straight-A students, etc. My boyfriend really pressured me to have an abortion. I had never thought either way about abortion or how I felt about it. This was years ago. I looked up abortion online, and I found your website. It was the first time I really saw the facts about abortion and I was horrified. I refused to get an abortion. I had the baby, and he moved out of state to live with his (physician and "Christian") father and he dumped us. My family was supportive and I was able to finish high school and graduated with honors. I am now about to graduate from college with a bachelor's degree in nursing! I am married to a wonderful man who my son now knows as "daddy" and I have a beautiful, genius six year old son that is the biggest blessing of my life. I genuinely don't know what my life would be without him.

I get scared to think what could have happened if I didn't find your website those years ago, and just went along with the pressure from my boyfriend. I pray every night and thank God for showing me the way to go and that I made the right decision. I wanted to thank you all for caring so much about this.

I volunteered for a pro-life clinic in high school after I had my son, and I have met so many people in random ways that I find out are pregnant and they just need someone to talk to, and then I will see them a year later- with a baby! Thank you so much, for inspiring me to help other people and save baby's lives.

As a nurse, I wanted to go into this profession in order to help girls make the right decision when under pressure, much like me. I don't know what to do. I know this is random, but I know you all feel strongly about this. What way do you think a nurse could help in the general pro-life effort?? I know this is what I need to do with my life, but I don't know where to go now.

Thank you again- for my time, for my son, for EVERYTHING.

6/9/07

I am 16 years old and the mother of 2 babies. One of them did not make it. When I was pregnant with my 1^st child I was being pushed into abortion. When I was 9 weeks along I was seriously thinking about aborting him. I was going through everything that most pregnant teens go through. I had jus broke up with my boyfriend, he didn’t want anything to do with the baby, my parents were angry. I just didn’t want to be a teen mother. I didn’t know how I was going to raise a child by myself. I went into depression and started searching the web for information on abortion. I then came to your site an stated looking at all of the pictures and watched all of the videos. Thanks to this site, I changed my mind. I was going to keep my baby. Unfortunately when I was 24 almost 25 weeks I lost the baby. He was with us for 6 hours and then passed. I named him Machia Anthony and he was 2 lbs. 3 oz.  Holding Machia in my arms was the best feeling in the world. I can not believe that I was so close to killing my baby.   

I am now in a happy relationship with a man that I love and we have a 5 week old baby named Zaidyn. Zaidyn was born on April 30^th at 5:30 p.m., he was 7 lbs 10 oz. and 21 inches long.  He is my life. I wouldn’t give him up for anything. I have attached a picture of him when he was about 2 weeks. Thank you for being here for me. If it weren’t for you, my 1^st baby wouldn’t have been born.   

5/7/07

I was 16 years old when I found out I was pregnant. I thought my world was falling apart and that I had no one. My mom wasn’t really supportive in the beginning. She was the main person that wanted me to have an abortion. My child’s father was told not to talk to me anymore by his mother and I received phone calls from her everyday pressuring me to have an abortion.  And no one in my family really supported me.  So I was surfing the web when I found a teen mom message board and a link to AbortionTV.com.  I think I visited the site maybe three times a day for a whole week. The last day that I visited the site I saw the ultrasound of a real abortion being performed and how the fetus was trying to get away from the vacuum before it was eventually sucked up and I decided that no matter who didn’t approve I was going to have my baby.  And now here I am almost six years later with a wonderful, brilliant, beautiful, precious daughter and I wouldn’t trade her for the world.  Neither would my mom or anyone else in my family.  I am glad that AbortionTV is here to help confused people, like I was, make the best decision of their lives. 

4/17/07

When I was 18 years old I became pregnant by a 21 year old man I had been seriously dating, we had just broken up a week before when the two pink lines showed up. I was terrified, I had always wanted children but was unsure of what to do, when I told him I found out that he was already living with another woman and began verbally and emotionally abusing me, threatening to take our baby away when I did have it and all kinds of other things. I decided abortion was my only option,  I begged my parents for the money to have one done but they refused and rightfully so, in the back of my mind I knew I would regret it so eventually I just resigned myself that I was going to make it work.  I was only 18 years old, I had no job, no money, no high school diploma, no wonderful husband at my side but I made it through. I'm now almost 21 years old, my son is almost 18 months old and he is the light of my life, I love my son with all my heart and soul and not having him would have been the worst decision I could have ever made, I have a very nice job with benefits, my own apartment and am getting ready to begin college courses again. I want all the girls who are considering abortion to know that you do get through your struggles and there really is a light at the end of the tunnel. God Bless. 

9/13/06

My husband and I were done with 3 boys. We decided not to have any more children. So we were both very upset to find out we were expecting number 4 and the shocker was I was already 10 weeks along and we got the news on my birthday. Since I was on the pill and was taking it regularly without missing a day. We were not rich and going through bad financial times. Seemed at the time the best thing to do is to abort this baby since money was an issue and our marriage was rocky at the time. My husband refused to let me have the abortion. So we didn't have the abortion and when I was 4 months along. He left me; I reconsidered having the abortion but by the time the baby was moving and kicking. I couldn't do it. Since it was more real. But it was constantly on my mind. My friend who went through an abortion herself told me not to do it. I was very depressed for the reminder of the pregnancy.  As time went by; at 8 months along. My husband came back and was very sorry about leaving me and we went to a marriage counselor to work out our marriage and it turned out having the 4th baby was the "problem" to our marriage but unlocked a lot of other issues. So we worked it all out and had a healthy baby girl who is our JOY and we are so glad to have her in our lives. She's now 20 months old and the apple of my husband's eye and our special little girl.

Anon

Glad to hear that #4 brought a new happiness to your marriage.  Too often, we view unexpected pregnancies as a "problem," when it often opens the doors to new opportunities.  We're also posting your letter at "Aborted Abortions" as an inspiration for others.  Best of luck,

9/11/06

I was searching the web when I came across your site.  I was very moved.  I was just 19 when I found out I was pregnant.  I was scared to death!  Even though I had a supportive mother and a boyfriend of 4 years that was willing to support me I was still terrified.  I cried when I saw the positive home pregnancy test.  I was very pro life as was my mother but I still considered having an abortion.  I discussed it with my boyfriend, I told him that I could tell my mom that the pregnancy test was wrong and abort the child and no one had to be the wiser.  He told me it was my decision.  I didn’t know what to do, I was one week away from starting college, I had recently broken up with my boyfriend and then had just gotten back together with him when I found out.  I wasn’t sure if I could do this or not.  I had done a debate on abortion in junior high and had called a prolife group who had sent me some pamphlets.  I just remembered seeing an aborted baby lying in a bucket.  I was horrified and I kept replaying that image in my head over and over again.  I was lying in bed one night and I was crying, I cried out to God and said tell me what to do?  I felt a sense of peace come over me and I heard him tell me that everything would be ok and I knew it would be.  My mother and father were incredibly supportive of me; my mother was excited that she was going to be a grandmother.  My boyfriend and I got married when I was about 5 months pregnant and on April 18, 1991 (2 days before my dad’s birthday) we gave birth to a beautiful baby girl that we named Bethanny Rose.  That baby is 15 years old now and has a voice like an angel.  I am so proud of her and I am so glad that I decided to choose life for her.  It wasn’t easy raising a baby when your not ready for it but the hardship is worth it.  Because my mom was so supportive of me, I have a really though time understanding parents who turn on their children in their greatest time of need.  I am very open and honest with my children and I talk to them about sex all the time.  I tell them that there is never a situation that they are in that they can’t come to me and that I will never stop loving them.  I have enclose a picture of the three beautiful children that I have now. 

July 4th, 2006. 

When I was just 17yrs old I found myself in a compromising position; I was pregnant and my boyfriend of over a year decided he was done with me and ditched me.  He told me quite frankly that he wanted nothing to do with our child.  My pregnancy was very hard, I had very little emotional support.  I was even told at 22wks that it wasn't too late to abort my child!  A woman I knew and had cared deeply for told me that to this day she regretted becoming a mother, her child nearing the age of 15yrs,  and that if I was smart, I would just abort my baby.  Being a parent just wasn't worth it.  I hung up the phone feeling numb and in shock.  Of all the things that had been said to me, including that I didn't deserve to be a mother, having someone actually spend over 30mins trying to convince me to kill my baby was the worst.  I delivered my son, 8lbs 10oz, 22inches long just two short months after my 18th birthday and he is the love of my life!  I am now 23yrs old and the mother of four beautiful children that my husband and I love dearly, and also the mother of 3 dearly missed babies that I lost to spontaneous miscarriages at 12wks, 7wks and 8wks gestation.  To this day, people feel its their place to degrade my husband and me for having a large family at our age.  And my only response to them is, "Take it up with God.  He's the one who gave us these children."  This website is wonderful!  Thank you for putting it in black and white a choice that shouldn't be ours! 

05/09/06

On July 21, 2005 I found out the child I was carrying(20 weeks) had a fatal birth defect called anencephaly. This is where faliure of the brain & part of the skull fail to form correctly. Of course I was devestated my husband & I wanted this baby sooo much, I had already felt him move inside of me. We were told we could terminate the dr. said most people do, or carry to term. Our baby would only live a few minutes or hours if not stillborn.

I did not know what to do, I had always said I would never abort if there was a defect like down syndrome or spina bifida, but this was fatal. I considered termination, but before making my decision I went online & researched anencephaly & read other mothers stories who had carried these babies to full term. They talked of the joy these babies gave them even though they only lived hours or even less. I knew thats what I wanted. I wanted every second that I could have with my son, hopefully to eventually be able to hold him alive.

It was hard to carry my son to term knowing he would only die after birth, but it was worth it ! I had my son at 40 weeks & he lived for over 33 hours with no help at all, all by himself. He was so wonderful & beautiful ! I never regretted my decsion to carry to term & have talk to other mothers that carried their anencephalic babies to term & they didnt either. I know of mothers who induced early & they do regret that.

I cant judge a mother for not carrying her anen. baby to term becasue I would have terminated had I not had time to research & think about what I was doing. He was my child & even though he was gonna die didnt mean that I couldnt love him & enjoy the time I had with him. Dr.s are lying to mothers tellinf them that carrying thesee babies can put their lives at risk, which is false. There is no risk other than polyhyramions (excessive amniotic fliud) which can happen in any pregnancy & if monitored wouldnt put the mothers life in any danger.

Also I got pregnant at age 15 with my first son, EVERYONE pushed for abortion. I had no support ! I didnt have one & ended being homeless the first few months of being pregnant. It was hard, but for my child I got by. Nothing in life is easy (well not for me) your child doesnt have to die because things "might go wrong". Alot of things have gone wrong with my life, but I kept on fighting to give my child a good life. He is 6 now & the light of my life. I shudder thinking about how everyone wanted him dead (all of those people couldnt imagine life without him now). You can do it too ! Just try

2/28/06

Dear AbortionTV 

This is pretty hard for me to write without crying. . . When I was 17 I became pregnant. My boyfriend and I thought that our only option was to have an abortion. It seemed like the easy way out. So, I scheduled an appointment for an abortion, tried to get myself ready, and I ended up canceling on the day of the appointment. I just couldn't go through with it. Today, my son, Nicholas, is a very healthy (almost) 2 year old boy. I couldn't be happier. He is BY FAR the BEST thing that has ever happened to me and I wouldn't have given that up for anything in this world. He is my pride and joy and I can't even think about what I almost did to him without crying. He has definitely changed me for the better and my life would never be the same without him.  

Thank you for listening,

2/7/05

This photo is of my angel when she was a beautiful 8 months old. 

Her existence could very easily have been extinguished by getting an abortion. We were young (21), financially unstable, scared and being pushed into making decisions that we didn’t want to make. 

I cannot describe how thankful I am that I had the confidence to make the unpopular decision to continue with the pregnancy, against parental/peer advice. 

Please, PLEASE consider the life inside you when you are thinking of abortion. Babies are just so precious. 

11/22/05

I was scared, lonely, angry, and depressed. I never wanted to be pregnant out of wedlock. I lost my reputation, friends, respect from my family. I hated my situation and my psychotic boyfriend who wouldn't let me pursue an adoption. I understand why women get abortions now. I had always been prolife, but until you are faced with those fears, you don't know what it's like. Now, I am going to start up a Feminists for Life group on my college campus because I was the only person I ever saw pregnant on campus. My daughter is 16 months old now, and everyday I give her a thousand kisses because she is so beautiful and I love her so much. Women don't know how much they will truly love their baby until they have one. 

I love her more each day.

Chantal, 22 yrs. old

6/4/05

Dear AbortionTV,                                                                        

My name is Genina; I emailed you in the year of 2003. I think it was February. I was 14 when I was pregnant and I almost had the abortion when I was living in Brooklyn N.Y.  I had moved to Texas because my father was pressuring me to get an abortion I lived with my mom in Texas. My family tried to force me into having the abortion I went to the clinic and even sat on the table, and I just jumped off and told them No I don't want to kill my baby! So I went back out and told my aunt (she took me to get the abortion) she told me I was being selfish.  But I knew it was my decision and I decided to keep her.  My daughter Arrianna Celine Torres was born on July 28, 2003 in Brooklyn N.Y. when I was 15, I am now 17 and she is about to be 2 yrs old next month.  I am now in Texas again back into school graduating next ear and will be attending college, also working part-time. And if I could go back I would change absolutely NOTHING! She is a Blessing to my life opened up my eyes to what I needed to see, and I thank god for her. She is a wonderful little person and the love we share is the greatest love I have ever felt in my life.  I can’t even explain it.......   I knew that I was responsible for my actions and that it was time for me to step up to plate if I could step up for sex I can step up for my daughter's life! And I want to inform all the teenage mothers out there that no matter how much people tell you that you cant make it and that you cant do it, and how they base it all on the statistics of teenage moms, its all lies you can make it, You can break all those teen statistics you can be a good mother and be educated, and still go to college and still get a good job just a like a regular person, you just have a little more baggage to it. It’s not easy at all! But with the effort and dedication to your kids you will succeed.  Don't let the statistics determine who you are. Life is what you make it!   

I can’t believe those cold hearted emails from people of putting yourself first over your child's life everyone needs to wake UP; those babies are completely innocent why should they pay for your mistake?  Thank god for this site! Show everyone the truth!  

5/12/05

I was 21 years old and taking care of my four month old son when I found out that I was pregnant....again.  Dread filled me....we were a struggling military family, my husband was often deployed, and I was suffering from post-partum depression and having a very difficult time taking care of myself and my son, Aidan.  When I found out I was pregnant, my husband was out of town and I quickly became hysterical...how were we going to take care of TWO babies on a budget that was already stretched to the limit??  We payed almost $1200 in rent per month and we made only a bit over $2000 per month, with doctor bills that weren't covered by insurance, the needs of a growing baby boy who had just gotten over his first bout of the infant illness RSV, and car payments piling up, I was terrified that we would be bogged down and unable to survive if I had another baby.  Before I even spoke with my husband and told him the news I called the local Planned Parenthood and made an appointment to come in and get RU486....it was so easy...too easy.  I was scheduled to come in two days later and "everything will be taken care of"  After hanging up the phone I immediately felt ashamed.  I had a beautiful child in my arms, and another in my womb....could I really just throw all that away?  What would I tell my little boy about the child I had thrown away?  I finally called my husband...he told me that it was my decision, and I could do whatever I wanted to and he would support me...after a tearful conversation during which i told him of my decision, I hung up and proceeded to hold my son in my arms and just bawl.  Not a minute later my husband called back  "Honey, we CAN do this.  We CAN have this baby.  I love you and i LOVE this baby."  and with that, I decided that he was right, somehow we would make it, and we would HAVE this baby.

At 20 weeks we learned that I would be giving birth to the baby daughter I had always wanted.  We decided to name her Mikayla Grace, our gift from God.

At 30 weeks I was hospitalized with Pre-term labor and we almost lost the little girl I had almost condemned to death.  I knew that if I lost my little girl I would never be able to forgive myself for not wanting her in the first place....but after 6 weeks of strict bedrest, Mikayla Grace came into the world, she wasn't breathing very well, but she soon recovered and went home with us two days later.

Today I am blessed with two beautiful healthy children and would love to have even more.  Both of my children are gifts from the Lord.  We have survived as a family, with the help of our family and friends, we are raising two children who will not want for anything.

My own experiences have led me to join a group called Heavenly Angels In Need, where we make burial gowns, memory boxes, mother's tears hankerchiefs, and other items for babies who are stillborn...things for those families who were less fortunate than mine.  I am now staunchly PRO LIFE and would like to start a local group for supporting teens who are pregnant.  I am also studying to become a doula (birth assistant) and have already contacted a local crisis pregnancy center to which I will be donating my services.

All children are gifts from God.  They are beautiful, special, and unique, and worthy of our love and protection.  I have attached a picture of Mikayla, to show you what beautiful gifts God gives us.

I know that there are girls out there who are afraid, who think that they can't do it, that they can't raise a child, that there is nobody who will help them....but there is, there REALLY is.  Churches help, crisis pregnancy centers will help, even local women like me...we have tons of baby clothes that we need to get rid of as our children grow and lots of advice and love for ALL Moms.  Sometimes we can even offer a place to sleep or a shoulder to lean on.  Try us.  We want you to keep your baby, we want to HELP you keep your baby....because a baby is a miracle, an everyday miracle, not to be ignored.

Love in the Lord

5/9/05

Hi . I am 18 years old and pregnant. My parents wanted me to get an abortion; because I was Just 17 when I found out I was pregnant. I thought about it, because I graduated school early, and was off to college. Basically just not ready. I was single, and all confused. Until one night I saw this web site. It was wonderful, because it gave me the strength to say no. Now I am 8 months pregnant with a baby boy, and I couldn't be happier, and either could my parents. Thanks a lot for all the information from this site. 

Anon

Congratulations for having the courage to stick up for what is right . In spite of the pressures from those who have ulterior motives of their own.   Give you baby a big hug from us upon arrival.

5/5/05

I too almost became another statistic to the heartless, money motivated hands of an abortion doctor. There I was, a  22 year old with a two year old daughter and boom... I find out that I'm pregnant. Because me and my daughters father were off and on, my first reaction was "No, I'm not ready for a second child". The only solution I could think of was abortion. I tried to justify my decision by reminding myself that I was so early in my pregnancy that abortion would be okay. I must have spent hours thumbing through the yellow pages and searching the internet for that "perfect" abortion doctor that cared about my feelings and understood my situation. So on December 5th 2004 I went to a private doctor that specialized in many areas including abortion and prenatal care so I didn't have to deal with any protesters outside the building. My journey to abortion got off to a really rough start. The moment I walked into the office I seen the most beautiful pregnant woman, just shining with that pregnancy glow! Then moments later I heard children laughing and playing in the waiting area. I was thinking," Okay the mind is playing tricks on me". Finally, after about 15 minutes of waiting, a nurse called my name. I followed her to a room, where I was asked a series of questions pertaining to my health history. She handed me a list of options for abortion. I didn't realized there were so many different ways to terminate a pregnancy. Anyway, I decided on the "ABORTION PILL". Because I have such a low tolerance for pain, and my fear of any type of surgery, I thought this would be perfect. So the nurse called in the doctor who explained the directions and the cost of $500.00 which included one follow up visit. He explained that the pill basically causes me to "pass the fetus in the privacy of my own home" and "no surgery required"!! What a sales pitch huh. But before I could be administered the pill,  I had to undergo an ultra sound to determine my exact stage of pregnancy because the abortion pill only works from about 4-8 weeks. Well when he hooked me up to the ultra sound machine, nothing appeared on the screen. The doctor said that because I was so early (he guest about 3 weeks) I would have to come back in about 2 weeks to ensure that the "fetus" as they called it, would be a little bigger and the pill would be more effective in terminating my pregnancy. So the following weeks were perhaps the most agonizing in my life. Everyday I woke up to the fact that I was pregnant and was not going to keep the innocent being that dwelled inside me. I actually put off the appointment by an extra week, and when I finally went back, the ultrasound revealed that I was 9.3 weeks. I asked the doctor how could that be when just three weeks earlier nothing appeared on the screen. He explained that sometimes mistakes are possible when it is so early in the pregnancy. He added that the abortion pill was no longer an option for me and that my only choice was to have the surgical procedure if I wanted to proceed with an abortion. He told that I could make the appointment with the receptionist.  I left the doctors office that day wondering why that happened. Still determined to follow through with an abortion I made another appointment with a different doctor who had a lot of experience in surgical abortions. This time the cost was $420.00 to terminate a 10 week pregnancy. When I arrived the nurse immediately gave me an IB Profen and took me to a room and told me to get undressed from the waist down. As she started to walk out I said..." Wait"!! "Can I ask you a question"? She politely said what that's when I lost it. I asked her if women ever regretted their abortions and she immediately asked me if I was having second thoughts. Without hesitation I told her that I changed my mind. And I apologized for wasting their time. The nurse told me to wait and that I should talk to the doctor before leaving. I said no thanks because I knew that the doctor was going to try and change my mind. As I approached the receptionist to get my $420.00 back she told me that they were entitled to keep $50.00 for the IB Profen that I took, and for "wasting doctors time". Without hesitation I complied and left the office that day feeling some sense of "freedom" or "joy". To this day I can't explain it. So finally the story ends like this. After three failed attempts of abortion, one would think that I was going to keep my baby. But no, there was one last attempt. I knew in my heart that I wanted the baby, but my mind and the pressure from what my family would think kept haunting me. So I made one last attempt. I called around to see if any doctors would put me completely asleep during an abortion because I didn't want to even remember or be alert to what I was going to do. Some doctors were willing to do it but the cost was between $5000.00 to $9000.00!! So I found a doctor that had a similar option by using this drug called "twilight sedation" a drug that puts one in a relaxed state but not completely asleep. This time, for a one day 14 week surgical abortion w/ twilight sedation, the cost was going to be $690.00. The day of my appointment I was to bring a someone to drive me home because the medication would impair my driving ability. By this time, I pretty much knew what to expect yet I was still very doubtful. My ride insisted that I just "get it over with and that were already here".  The nurse did an ultrasound to confirm my stage in pregnancy. Suddenly she said " Oh Honey, you're actually 15 weeks, and this means you will require a two day procedure and we have to reschedule you for next week. So once again I go home... still pregnant, confused and emotionally drained. The night before my last appointment I finally told my family that I was pregnant and that I was going to have an abortion the next morning. The next day I arrived for my appointment. I was a half hour early and I just cried and cried in the parking lot for what I was about to do. I felt as though my heart and my logic were battling each other. I called my step mother and father and told them that I kept hearing this little voice telling me don't do it. They advised me against it, but said ultimately it was my decision. After drying my tears, I headed for the entrance of the office. For this appointment I didn't need a ride because the doctor was just going to insert Laminera, or sea weed sticks to dilate my cervix or what I call, force it open. After signing a dozen consent forms and forking over $690.00, The doctor inserted three sea weed sticks into my cervix and explained that I would have to keep them in over night and that by the next morning my cervix would be dilated enough to perform the suction abortion. I left the office that day in excruciating pain. It hurt to walk, sit, stand, to even breathe. That was the longest night in my entire life. I did nothing but cry. I called my child's father, also the father of baby I was carrying, and he told me not to do it. He insisted that I call the doctor that minute and tell him to take out the sticks. I insisted that it was too late. So the next morning I headed to what I knew was my LAST appointment. I didn't know it at the time, but the person who was supposed to be my driver ended up saving my life. When we arrived, the nurse took me back into "the room' and asked me to get undressed from the waist down. Once she left the room. I sat there on that operating bed...ALONE and just stared at the walls and just imagined all of the screams these walls have heard and all of the horror these walls have seen. What finally did it for me was when I looked down to my left and next to the bed there was a little black machine which was the vacuum like suction for the abortion. That was horrifying!! When the nurse came in I immediately asked for the doctor. When he came in I told him that I was scared and didn't want to proceed with the abortion. I then requested that my step mother WHO WAS MY RIDE come back into the room with me. The doctor agreed. When the three of us were finally together, the doctor began to explain that I was in the middle of a surgical procedure and that by not finishing the surgery would be extremely hazardous to my health. Understandably, the doctor became very frustrated with me. He insisted that I ( at 15 1/2 weeks) was very early in my pregnancy and that the fetus is  just a clump of cells all bunched up together and that it didn't have a nervous system yet to feel pain. I felt as if I were dealing with a desperate car sales man. My stepmother did NOT want me to do this. She was against it from the very beginning. Hearing and feeling her support gave me the strength to stand my ground. From that moment on, I knew she would forever be by my side. I insisted that he take out the sea weed sticks and that I did not want to proceed with the abortion. He explained that if he let me leave his office with a dilated cervix I was risking infection, hemorrhage, brain damage and among a list of other complications... even death. I told him that it was a risk I was willing to take. Finally, the doctor stated that I am not entitled to a refund because I wasted doctors time etc.... I also had to sign a form releasing him of all liability if something were to happen later in the pregnancy. After contacting my regular OB/Gyn to inform her of my situation, he then removed the sea weed sticks from my cervix. Suddenly he said... "Whoa, the laminera didn't do anything to your cervix". I asked if that was common and he said that it hasn't happened in his experience before. I knew then that a miracle had taken place. How does one make 5 attempts at abortion and not one of them is successful? Now I have to take some responsibility for not realizing what blessing I had all along. It never should have taken over $700.00, and 5 wasted trips to the doctor to realize that I never wanted to do that in the first place. I am now awaiting the birth of my son expected on August 5th 2005. I know I made the right decision, and have no regrets about keeping him. The only thing I do regret is the fact that I even considered such a horrible thing. I know Christ has forgiven me, as he has forgiven the many woman who have considered or even had an abortion. I now believe that women must be completely informed before considering abortion. Think of the long term consequences: Spiritually, morally, physically, and emotionally. After news spread that I was going to have a baby I received a card. In it read... "Women have the breathtaking privilege of sharing with GOD, the creation of new life, bringing into existence a soul that will forever endure".

4/28/05

I was a divorced 30 year old Mom of 2 when I found out I was pregnant by a "booty call."  I considered abortion, even though I was extremely educated on the subject, and pro life.  I didn't want a life with this man, who was 8 years younger, and very wet behind the ears.  I was struggling financially, and thought I had no choice but to go against my beliefs.  I never did it.  Kaily Marie was born on 1-21-03 weighing 7#, 11 oz.  She is the joy of all of us.  She is worshipped by her brother and sister, and worships them.  I can't imagine life without her in our lives.  "That which does not kill us only makes us stronger" 

4/4/05

I was'nt even considering abortion, but at 19 thats the only thing i heard out of everyone to do.  I knew deep inside it was wrong. I came across ur website and i could'nt believe the horrible things i saw, but it was the truth. i made a decision to place my son for open adoption.  I will say any way you choose will be difficult. I knew i made the right choice to give him life. His parents invited me to his first birthday party i remember crying to myself in happiness while his whole family sang "happy birthday" to him.

Now four years later i love him as much as i did in the beginning and it shows. 

Please if you are pregnant sacrifice 9 months for another life to live...there's so many wonderful people who want to love ur baby just as much as u have...